<< UGH. i'm just kind of lonely... it's been over a year since i really fell for anybody. i've been on dates with this one girl who was pretty hot, but i dunno, something didn't click. but argh, i'm so torn. *holds head in hands and sobs* alright alright, i'll face my inner demons, i think i like her a little. i dunno though, it's so hard to distinguish between liking her as a really good friend, and liking her as something more and just being lonely coincedentally. do you know what i mean? what if i don't really like her and i just want a warm body? ugh.... damn you inner demons.... damn you..... >>
Better to let your head clear on this one -- and TRY not to think about it too much ( I know it's hard, if not near impossible). It's hard to know with friends sometimes -- but if she is a good match for you, it will become apparent. You have an unusual situation because of your age and surroundings but that will not be an enduring issue. Hang in there 🙂