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Maybe it isn't an appropriate topic, but smth is indeed very wrong with me. I don't know what it is. And I have no clue whether it's 'normal' or not. The reason is that no matter what I do I feel like I'm wasting my time. Nothing brings any satisfaction. I don't know what to do. I'm spending my time trying to figure out what to do but, sadly, nothing comes to mind. All the things I possibly could do would lead me nowhere. I'm skipping on all 'entertainment' stuff now. I don't watch TV, read fiction books or magazines. It's BS written about other people's lives, not my life. I feel bored reading that. And there's not any point in that either IMO. I feel completely devastated. And why? Nothing seems to have changed in my life. But seems like I have. And where is it going? Who knows.

I mean, nothing, no matter what I do, brings me any enjoyment or satisfaction. But I'm not an 'extremal' type of a person, so I just go on living like that, going to work etc. I don't give all the life up just b/c I feel so bad.

So I'm wanting to ask -- have you felt anything like that? And like... what did you do to bring yourself back on track? To prevent some questions, I can say that I'm actively employed currently, not a drug addict etc.
 
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Well, im going through the same thing myself. I just started getting help, and honestly some of it I think is bullshit but I keep telling myself to just work with it and maybe it will work.

The only thing I can tell you is the same thing my ex told me. As much as I feckin hate her right now, it's what made me want to get help.

"Life isn't as bad as you think. It's actually a lot of fun for most people, and you deserve to enjoy it. Get the help you need and stop letting it pass you by"
 
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Originally posted by: nan0bug
Well, im going through the same thing myself. I just started getting help, and honestly some of it I think is bullshit but I keep telling myself to just work with it and maybe it will work.

The only thing I can tell you is the same thing my ex told me. As much as I feckin hate her right now, it's what made me want to get help.

"Life isn't as bad as you think. It's actually a lot of fun for most people, and you deserve to enjoy it. Get the help you need and stop letting it pass you by"
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I do not think that life is bad. It's just not enough. But it's all good. I like to live etc. But I can't really enjoy it. It's not the life I want to be living.

My recent idea is that if you can't change yourself then change the life around, outside of you. But it's a lot harder to do than to change your ways I think.
 
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I felt that way before, and kinda do now. Honestly, anti-depressants have really helped me and it sounds as though you are a bit depressed. Not knowing what to do with your life is common at any age, the only advice I can give you is to go out and have fun with friends, go to the beach, you know, live life to the fullest.
 
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Do you consistently feel sad or numb every day?
Do have little or no interest in activities that you used to find enjoyable?
Do you have difficulty sleeping?
 
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And why do some of the people who replied think it's depression? I think it isn't. What startles me is that there's no vivid external reason for me to feel like that. Maybe only slightly, but I'm moving up in the world, not falling down. And yet I'm thinking of changing my ways. B/c something (not sure what it is) is wrong.

The only way for me to change things for the better is to impose some world shattering changes on my life. That seems to be insanely difficult to do, but perhaps it's the only way. I feel more and more determined about that. There just seems to be no other way for me.
 
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eakers

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why don't you try something different?
maybe a sport or something where you can see your improvement?
 
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Of course, it seems like I'm a self centered, egotistic person who only enjoys talking about himself and his own problems. The only reaction of an average member would be repulsion I think. But it isn't as simple as that. I pretty much don't have anyone to talk about but myself and my problems, I'm left all alone.

why don't you try something different?
maybe a sport or something where you can see your improvement?
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A very good question. I used to go into sports, I used to swim. But... There is always but... I couldn't swim as fast as other kids. They all beat me to it. They were faster. Then when I play online games everyone else beats me equally as quick. I mean I never thought I was that much worse than other people of whom I wasn't thinking with great respect, to say the least. it appears they beat me in every area of life, and I am left with nothing.
 
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Are you active in the local social scene? Are you religious, many find comfort and support in church.

If you have health insurance, if so, I would suggest speaking to a professional about this.
 
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ILikeStuff

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Have you considered that perhaps you are neglecting your spiritual life? Perhaps you should pick up a bible and check it out. Jesus certainly helped me snap out of it
 
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Originally posted by: FritzTheCat
Or maybe something as simple as a new hobby.
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Unfortunately, I don't get the concept of having hobbies -- to collect stamps or stuff, climb mountains or play the dice. That's completely undesireable for me.
 
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Originally posted by: Red Dawn
Sounds like it sucks to be you!
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Exactly. Somehow, I don't want to be like everyone else for some strange reason. But being different can also differ, LOL. You can be better or worse. It appears that now I'm leaning on the worst side.
 
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Originally posted by: Booster

Unfortunately, I don't get the concept of having hobbies -- to collect stamps or stuff, climb mountains or play the dice. That's completely undesireable for me.
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A hobby is a diversion, anything that is different than what you normally do. "To get away from it all", "get your mind off of things". I personaly use fishing for this. If I can't fish, I take computers apart and put them back together again. If I don't do something different, I get into a "mood" very much like what you describe. I hate that feeling. Hope you find your answer.

 
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monk3y

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Try a wide variety of different things and try to experience more and more. You'll eventually find something that is atleast somewhat desirable.
 
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I was just like you. I fixed it all a month ago. Decided to get off my ass and off this computer and bought myself a nice pair of skates and started going to the pool and running and even lifting some weights.

At first i did not want to do ANY of this at all because, just like you i saw no point in any of it, but regardless of what i thought or silly logic that i applied to it, i just willed myself to doing this stuff for a couple of days and have been doing them since. You really wont believe how much fun things are till you do them again, even things you did when you were younger.

Give it a try, you will most likely surprise yourself, i know i did and feel great now.
 
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