Hmmm...
Let's see. The there were a few girls before, but love is knowable only after it has been experienced once. It was in high school, we were both recently emerged wallflowers in the same advanced placement art class. The class was wonderful, we were allowed to use the full facilities as we wished. My pieces grew so large and messy that they gave me a room to myself. She would often come and we would talk. We grew closer and she gave me her ring and by unspoken agreement, we were from then together. No one since her has challenged me in the same ways she did. She was storm of experiences and feelings...
Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove.
Oh no! It is an ever fixèd mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken.
....or bends with the remover to remove..... I believe that love exists in a sense outside ourselves. That love I felt for Laura still exists in me, yet outside me. I have passed through and come away from that specific love. Although I feel it still resides in me, even in it's most intense form, I have passed away from it. I am not the man I was. I can not love again as I did then. I love now in a wholly equal yet different way.....
ramble...ramble....ramble....
well, time for more booze now.