Some of you may know that I'm currently on an overseas trip.
Beijing, China
Shanghai, China
Seoul, South Korea
Tokyo, Japan
Kyoto, Japan
Waikiki, Hawaii - currently here
This trip has only managed to reaffirm my desire to travel by myself in the future.
I hate having to photograph and equally represent 30 people every single day and all of our activities.
I hate it when people don't have the decency to wait up for me. A few days ago we went on a hike, and I'm the only one carrying about 20 pounds of photo gear (2 bodies, 3 lenses including a big telephoto, and other miscellaneous photo stuff and water), with everyone else just carrying the clothes on their backs. I went to the restroom, and when I got back out after a minute everyone had left and I never caught back up until we met up at the top of the mountain, which I then had to proceed down 5 minutes later, hardly giving me enough time to take photos of the spectacular view. Hey, if you want me to take pictures of the group guess what? I need to be with the group. (Diamond Head in Hawaii)
I hate taking crappy "record the moment" shots. There is no art. I really need an artistic outlet. Just today we went to a luau and after taking lots of photos, I finally sat down to a belated dinner. I realized that the sun was setting over the ocean, but didn't think anything of it. WTH? This is inexcusable for a photographer. Have I really gotten to the point that I'm so photo-ed out that I don't even recognize the Golden Hour? I got photos of the sunset only because I noticed a couple of my friends running to the beach to watch the sunset.
I hate all the stuff that goes along with groups. The drama, people interrupting my conversations, the difficulty in planning ANYTHING, the peer pressure to do things I wouldn't normally do, the "having fun on a schedule," the differences in pace (I like to slow down and appreciate things), the disagreements in what to do or where to go, the facades that people put on, the general lowering of overall intelligence, etc.
Lack of sleep. I easily have 5x more work than anyone on the trip. I can't stay out late. I can't go out partying. And yet I feel obligated to because I'm the group photographer, and because my friends pressure me to. And this means I get even less sleep. The workload doesn't just disappear because I go out one night.
Trying to equally represent everyone in my pictures. Everyone has their own clicks (sp?). When we go places everyone tends to spread out. This means a lot of running around and a lot of outside observation, meaning not really being a part of the group, or staying with my own group of friends. Recently I got an email from a professor back at my university saying, "the pictures are great, but stop taking pictures of the same three people." What? I'm doing my friggin' best here. The guy must have only gone through half a gallery in the 98 galleries that I've already posted and jumped at such an educated conclusion.
Helpers crapping out on me. We're taking both photos and video. The video camera is my little Panasonic TZ-1 that shoots widescreen video and weighs about a quarter of a pound. I can't do photo and video at the same time, so I normally tell someone else to take video. Today we were at a luau and after taking 10 minutes of video the video guy comes back and says, "I don't want to take video anymore. My arms are getting tired. Here's your camera back." I took it back and ten minutes later some awesome fire dancers came on stage and I didn't have time to go back and find the video guy or else I'd miss the dance. So I had to choose between taking photos or video, a choice I really hate to make. I took video. Later when I got back my video guy said "hey, I REALLY hope you got video of those fire dancers." Yeah, I did. Thanks a lot. I lug around and handhold massive SLRs 14 hours a day for 30-some days now with too little sleep and you complain about your arms getting tired holding up a small P&S for ten minutes and probably also complaining about not being able to hang out with friends while doing so.
I'm in beautiful Hawaii and I can't get off a single decent artistic shot because I simply don't have enough time. I feel like I need to revisit every single place I've visited on this trip in order to "do it right" the second time around. I've just missed so many REAL photographic opportunities, and the times when I have actually gotten out to do artsy stuff I've paid massively with sleep time lost.
Then there's inconveniences that just aggravate my already gaping mental wound.
My laptop is crappy and SLOW.
Hard drives are the biggest pain in the butt bottlenecks of all time.
No "resume" function on software is VERY bad when there's an error processing 700 hand-selected files and the queue list isn't saved, meaning I have to re-hand-select all 700 files again and re-add them to the queue, only to get an error a second time and want to collapse on the floor and cry.
Extremely spotty internet service. Could not upload photos in Shanghai, in Hawaii our hotel only has internet in the lobby, meaning right now I'm typing this at 2AM waiting for my pictures to get done uploading, whereas if the internet was in my room I could actually be sleeping while things are being uploaded. It's good to know that our professor who selects our hotels doesn't seem to think that internet access is an important thing to have when we have two research projects due during our stay.
People not understanding or caring about or appreciating my hardships and my utmost dedication to this trip and to my craft.
Beijing, China
Shanghai, China
Seoul, South Korea
Tokyo, Japan
Kyoto, Japan
Waikiki, Hawaii - currently here
This trip has only managed to reaffirm my desire to travel by myself in the future.
I hate having to photograph and equally represent 30 people every single day and all of our activities.
I hate it when people don't have the decency to wait up for me. A few days ago we went on a hike, and I'm the only one carrying about 20 pounds of photo gear (2 bodies, 3 lenses including a big telephoto, and other miscellaneous photo stuff and water), with everyone else just carrying the clothes on their backs. I went to the restroom, and when I got back out after a minute everyone had left and I never caught back up until we met up at the top of the mountain, which I then had to proceed down 5 minutes later, hardly giving me enough time to take photos of the spectacular view. Hey, if you want me to take pictures of the group guess what? I need to be with the group. (Diamond Head in Hawaii)
I hate taking crappy "record the moment" shots. There is no art. I really need an artistic outlet. Just today we went to a luau and after taking lots of photos, I finally sat down to a belated dinner. I realized that the sun was setting over the ocean, but didn't think anything of it. WTH? This is inexcusable for a photographer. Have I really gotten to the point that I'm so photo-ed out that I don't even recognize the Golden Hour? I got photos of the sunset only because I noticed a couple of my friends running to the beach to watch the sunset.
I hate all the stuff that goes along with groups. The drama, people interrupting my conversations, the difficulty in planning ANYTHING, the peer pressure to do things I wouldn't normally do, the "having fun on a schedule," the differences in pace (I like to slow down and appreciate things), the disagreements in what to do or where to go, the facades that people put on, the general lowering of overall intelligence, etc.
Lack of sleep. I easily have 5x more work than anyone on the trip. I can't stay out late. I can't go out partying. And yet I feel obligated to because I'm the group photographer, and because my friends pressure me to. And this means I get even less sleep. The workload doesn't just disappear because I go out one night.
Trying to equally represent everyone in my pictures. Everyone has their own clicks (sp?). When we go places everyone tends to spread out. This means a lot of running around and a lot of outside observation, meaning not really being a part of the group, or staying with my own group of friends. Recently I got an email from a professor back at my university saying, "the pictures are great, but stop taking pictures of the same three people." What? I'm doing my friggin' best here. The guy must have only gone through half a gallery in the 98 galleries that I've already posted and jumped at such an educated conclusion.
Helpers crapping out on me. We're taking both photos and video. The video camera is my little Panasonic TZ-1 that shoots widescreen video and weighs about a quarter of a pound. I can't do photo and video at the same time, so I normally tell someone else to take video. Today we were at a luau and after taking 10 minutes of video the video guy comes back and says, "I don't want to take video anymore. My arms are getting tired. Here's your camera back." I took it back and ten minutes later some awesome fire dancers came on stage and I didn't have time to go back and find the video guy or else I'd miss the dance. So I had to choose between taking photos or video, a choice I really hate to make. I took video. Later when I got back my video guy said "hey, I REALLY hope you got video of those fire dancers." Yeah, I did. Thanks a lot. I lug around and handhold massive SLRs 14 hours a day for 30-some days now with too little sleep and you complain about your arms getting tired holding up a small P&S for ten minutes and probably also complaining about not being able to hang out with friends while doing so.
I'm in beautiful Hawaii and I can't get off a single decent artistic shot because I simply don't have enough time. I feel like I need to revisit every single place I've visited on this trip in order to "do it right" the second time around. I've just missed so many REAL photographic opportunities, and the times when I have actually gotten out to do artsy stuff I've paid massively with sleep time lost.
Then there's inconveniences that just aggravate my already gaping mental wound.
My laptop is crappy and SLOW.
Hard drives are the biggest pain in the butt bottlenecks of all time.
No "resume" function on software is VERY bad when there's an error processing 700 hand-selected files and the queue list isn't saved, meaning I have to re-hand-select all 700 files again and re-add them to the queue, only to get an error a second time and want to collapse on the floor and cry.
Extremely spotty internet service. Could not upload photos in Shanghai, in Hawaii our hotel only has internet in the lobby, meaning right now I'm typing this at 2AM waiting for my pictures to get done uploading, whereas if the internet was in my room I could actually be sleeping while things are being uploaded. It's good to know that our professor who selects our hotels doesn't seem to think that internet access is an important thing to have when we have two research projects due during our stay.
People not understanding or caring about or appreciating my hardships and my utmost dedication to this trip and to my craft.