Goosemaster
Lifer
So I got diagnosed by an MD on Friday after many years of thinking [and acting] under the assumption, and incorrect diagnosis, that I had depression.
I was presecribed adderol[sic], and have been taking it since friday.
Whether the effects I am experiencing are placebic in nature or not, they are definitely there to comment on.
In the past, I have always sufffered under a general malaise that has not only given me a reputation for being "lazy," but has also ruined precious oppertunities.
I almost failed Highschool staring the latter paert of Junior year after getting A's and B's since 1st grade.
I was taken to a psch after the cops finally came to my house and excorted me to school administration. They told me I was either going to seek medical help or be dropped. The psych diagnosed me with depression, and I took Zoloft for quite some time. Eventually I got sick of the psyche and went to a therapist, as I was not improving. He helped out with critical family problems, but alas, I continued under the same malaise.
After that I got into a great University by chance if not due to help from an old teacher of mine.
I flunked out of that major university. I just couldn't get up for class. I was gnerally dorwsy all day. Excercise was a quick fix, but the effects soon wore off. Like I said, I was still under the impression that I had depression.
I finally was forced to come back home from my univ in Philadelphia to my home here in Virginia. I started going to a community college, yet did not seem to improve. I had the skills. I had the capacity. Damnit, I had the drive. Yet every possible thing imaginable threw me off. Be it a forgotten assignment here or there, I was as weak as could be. Worse, confronting my depression became more and more confusing as time passed. I am not by nature sad or dreary. In fact, I make most everyone I meet laugh WITH me. I make my classmates laugh. I get along with most everyone. I now tutor in math 6hrs+ a week for free. I am making man yfriends at this new college. Yet I still fail miserably. During the summer I could have passed Calulus II with either a B or an A, but faced certain financial hurdles as I had not paid for the class and I was told that I was dropped from the class, precisely the weekend befor ethe final. Of course I could have taken the final, probably gotten a good score, and fought it out wit hthe administration, which in hindsight would have proved successful, but didn;t . I felt a little hurt, and tired of thinking about it.
Finally, after continued, yet warrented, badgering from my folks, I went to the Doctor's office and told them my situation. He told me he suspected tha ADD medication would help. So the prescription was filled, and I started taking it that day[friday].
Only after a few days, the effects are apperant. My drowsyness seems to have drecreased, and does so in greater amounts each day. While this solves only one problem, it will hopefully make me capable in dealing with others.
Whethter these effects are indeed fact, or whether they are simply placebic fallicies that I am holding onto with my last ounce of dignity, I hope it helps.
I know this sounds dull if not incredibly sad, but honestly, it has been my existance for the last few years. Feelling better than Sh!t is hard, and hopefully I can beat this.
This term I failed english and will be gettign a medical withfrawl for the first time ever. I hope I can still apss chemistry, as I have gotten a C and a B on the alst exams, with probably a C on an exam I had today.
I am gettiing an A in Cacl II; I am doing all my homework; yet I am not showing up for class. I always sleep through it. Even if I go to sleep early, which I had given up.
The reason I am posting this is for background pruposes. I would like opinions about this drug, and experiences from anyone that has taken it or knows someone who has. i have heard wonderful things about it, but am obviously a little used to false hopes, so I am taking any changes slowly. As I said, I seem to have lost a great deal of the general "malaise" I am usually in after only a weekend on the drug.
Thanks
Cliff notes:
fvck you.
EDITED
I was presecribed adderol[sic], and have been taking it since friday.
Whether the effects I am experiencing are placebic in nature or not, they are definitely there to comment on.
In the past, I have always sufffered under a general malaise that has not only given me a reputation for being "lazy," but has also ruined precious oppertunities.
I almost failed Highschool staring the latter paert of Junior year after getting A's and B's since 1st grade.
I was taken to a psch after the cops finally came to my house and excorted me to school administration. They told me I was either going to seek medical help or be dropped. The psych diagnosed me with depression, and I took Zoloft for quite some time. Eventually I got sick of the psyche and went to a therapist, as I was not improving. He helped out with critical family problems, but alas, I continued under the same malaise.
After that I got into a great University by chance if not due to help from an old teacher of mine.
I flunked out of that major university. I just couldn't get up for class. I was gnerally dorwsy all day. Excercise was a quick fix, but the effects soon wore off. Like I said, I was still under the impression that I had depression.
I finally was forced to come back home from my univ in Philadelphia to my home here in Virginia. I started going to a community college, yet did not seem to improve. I had the skills. I had the capacity. Damnit, I had the drive. Yet every possible thing imaginable threw me off. Be it a forgotten assignment here or there, I was as weak as could be. Worse, confronting my depression became more and more confusing as time passed. I am not by nature sad or dreary. In fact, I make most everyone I meet laugh WITH me. I make my classmates laugh. I get along with most everyone. I now tutor in math 6hrs+ a week for free. I am making man yfriends at this new college. Yet I still fail miserably. During the summer I could have passed Calulus II with either a B or an A, but faced certain financial hurdles as I had not paid for the class and I was told that I was dropped from the class, precisely the weekend befor ethe final. Of course I could have taken the final, probably gotten a good score, and fought it out wit hthe administration, which in hindsight would have proved successful, but didn;t . I felt a little hurt, and tired of thinking about it.
Finally, after continued, yet warrented, badgering from my folks, I went to the Doctor's office and told them my situation. He told me he suspected tha ADD medication would help. So the prescription was filled, and I started taking it that day[friday].
Only after a few days, the effects are apperant. My drowsyness seems to have drecreased, and does so in greater amounts each day. While this solves only one problem, it will hopefully make me capable in dealing with others.
Whethter these effects are indeed fact, or whether they are simply placebic fallicies that I am holding onto with my last ounce of dignity, I hope it helps.
I know this sounds dull if not incredibly sad, but honestly, it has been my existance for the last few years. Feelling better than Sh!t is hard, and hopefully I can beat this.
This term I failed english and will be gettign a medical withfrawl for the first time ever. I hope I can still apss chemistry, as I have gotten a C and a B on the alst exams, with probably a C on an exam I had today.
I am gettiing an A in Cacl II; I am doing all my homework; yet I am not showing up for class. I always sleep through it. Even if I go to sleep early, which I had given up.
The reason I am posting this is for background pruposes. I would like opinions about this drug, and experiences from anyone that has taken it or knows someone who has. i have heard wonderful things about it, but am obviously a little used to false hopes, so I am taking any changes slowly. As I said, I seem to have lost a great deal of the general "malaise" I am usually in after only a weekend on the drug.
Thanks
Cliff notes:
fvck you.
EDITED
