- Jan 9, 2001
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For those of you who don't know, I'm a pianist, it's what life is for me, it's why I wake up in the morning. It's my job, my social life, my one and only real passion. I sit on that bench for several hours every day.
At least I used to.
I've hit a slump. For about the past four weeks, I can't seem to get the energy, the dedication to practice that much. 90% of the time I do spend at the keyboard lately, it seems, is spent on stuff that I have to learn, whether it be broadway musicals for the theatre companies I work for, accompaniment parts for the soloists I accompany, basically it's like the only things I've practiced for several weeks are for my job. So, my classical studies (what I take lessons for, what my passion is, what I have always dedicated my time to) have been suffering drastically. And it couldn't come at a worse time, I have to make a tape soon to audition for Indiana University Piano Academy, which I would attend this summer, if I were to make it. The repitoire I've been preparing for this tape simply isn't ready yet, and my deadline is March 15. Everyone, my piano teacher, my parents, my friends, have all noticed that my music is suffering lately.
Today was better, I'll admit that. I got in about 2 hours on my classical studies. But my problem is, lately I come home from school, and I just don't have enough energy or motivation to do anything besides homework, and then lay on the couch. I'm ALWAYS tired. I have my mother's insomnia, so I can't sleep at night, and I know that has something to do with it, but I've always had that, and it hasn't caused this general feeling of exhaustion this much in the past.
My piano teacher (former college professor of piano, lady knows what she's talking about
) thinks it's because I'm "spreading myself out too thin", she thinks I need to accept less gigs, drop at least one theatre company, etc. But, I really don't think this is what's causing my problem. I have the time to practice my music, I just don't have the energy or motivation.
Like I said, today was better, but I'm worried that tomorrow will be back to the routine of of 'laziness' and non-practice. If that's the case, I need help, and I don't where to turn. The only thing that means anything my life seems to have abandoned me.
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At least I used to.
Today was better, I'll admit that. I got in about 2 hours on my classical studies. But my problem is, lately I come home from school, and I just don't have enough energy or motivation to do anything besides homework, and then lay on the couch. I'm ALWAYS tired. I have my mother's insomnia, so I can't sleep at night, and I know that has something to do with it, but I've always had that, and it hasn't caused this general feeling of exhaustion this much in the past.
My piano teacher (former college professor of piano, lady knows what she's talking about
Like I said, today was better, but I'm worried that tomorrow will be back to the routine of of 'laziness' and non-practice. If that's the case, I need help, and I don't where to turn. The only thing that means anything my life seems to have abandoned me.
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