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again please unlock my thread and stop removing my posts I make great points and I simply don't deserve this. I really thought this forum was great and full of real people who appreciate what I have to say but now it seems this is yet another forum or more fake people who don't care what I have to say and lock my thread or do worse. I really thought this forum was not like the other fake forums or fake people. My posts are not verbal diarrhea or nonsense or walls of text as some people call it. I know there are people who will care to read my posts and to the people who care to read the thread and take their time out of their day please do so. In 2022 I created this thread and in 2022 I discovered the simple fact of life that everything's always been old school and I talk about alan turing.
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People obviously don't have to like a fact but they can still accept it such as the fact everybody will die. I am sure people don't like this fact that everything's always been old school but you gotta accept it or you don't have to accept it again since it's your free will. I myself. I don't like the fact that everything's always been old school but it is what it is I accept it. Maybe it will be even more difficult to accept this fact if I knew this fact when I was younger as a kid.
well things do evolve which is cool like cool things such as digital or computer stuff evolving into the internet and digital stuff like google or youtube etc uses the same algorithms or digital tech that Alan turing created in world war 2 and that is old school again of course or can be a bad thing like humans evolving into becoming worse or evil but when everything has always been old school nothing is really new. People born when the modern computer was invented or during world war 2 are called the silent generation and again that is old school obviously. Some people say 1995 is gen z or and some say 1995 is millennials but I don’t care. The idea of Generations is old school or words are old school obviously for instance and the idea of evolving is old school. I can go on and on.
Another thing, I’m still a virgin, no born again virgin bs. Not to be vulgar but, I don't know how else to say this. I have never done oral, anal, nor vaginal. But I have done fetish stuff with a female like ass and feet. I licked a females wrinkled soles. I almost got a foot job. A female rubbed her feet on my pants or crotch. I never eaten ass only touched ass on a female. By the way Jason again my real friend he said a funny good weird thing he said in front of people in public that he eats ass lol. I never kissed a females mouth. This female I am talking about is Ashley Bernard by the way. I have only done these things with only 1 female in my life. Sex isn’t everything obviously. People who wear skimpy clothing like tank tops when it’s not appropriate. I like wearing tank tops and Gay males wear tank tops or basketball shorts or whatever kind of shorts which are skimpy. People like to dress for fashion when it’s not always about sex or looks. Appearance isn’t always about sex. People just like to simply have a ponytail it doen’t mean they wanna look sexy. What turns people on can be a good or bad weird. Again we are weird creatures as humans in a good and bad way. So people doing weird things in a good way like wearing ponytails is a good weird and turns people on like it turned me on. People going to the club doesn’t mean everybody goes to the club to date or have sex. I am not a great dancer but I can become a great dancer. Shoutouts to this 1 older guy who had the greatest dance moves you will see in your life. He is the dancing machine. Anyway obviously everybody has cheating thoughts, key word thoughts. There are so many sexy or too hot people on this planet. No wonder people get in open relationships or one night stands. My theory is females are based off men. Or in other words the female body is just a modified male body. So females are not special or in other words we are all human. We are also all different, human life is weird. The human body is weird again or complex. The human brain is very complex or weird body part. There are so many weird body parts including a female or males private parts. Human life is also difficult or unfair and many other things. What do you expect when everything’s always been old school. I for instance can’t grow a full or long beard. It’s so patchy, that’s just genetics for ya. Again everybody is different. I din’t start getting facial hair until probably 17. I was a late bloomer. Other kids in school were able to grow a full non patchy long beard at 14 15 16. I wish I had a full beard or 20/20 vision or be taller etc. See again nobody is perfect. By the way I am 5’8. I Some kids had growth spurts at an earlier age like 14 15 16 and were like 5 ‘7 at 12 and grew to over 6 foot at 15. I didn’t grow to 5”8 until like 18 years old. They say for males you don’t end puberty until your 20’s. Females being based off males or my theory. Keeping my theory in mind. Females start puberty earlier than males. The human body is weird once again. It’s only human. The human brain is fully developed at your mid 20’s or 25. Also I am the oldest of 3. But I don’t feel like I am the oldest since I am shorter than my bro. On top of that he is the co guardian. Mom is the main guardian. Anyway I have a younger bro named Tyler and the youngest is my sis Lauren. My sis is 23. My bro is taller than me and he is almost 25 years old. He is like 5”11. Same with my dad and my uncle mike. My uncle mike is the oldest yet he is shorter than my dad. Uncle mike is 5”7. My dad is 5”9. My Uncle chuck is like 6”3 but maybe he has shrunk now. My grandpa or poppy was tall as well. Of course I didn’t get those genetics but instead I got their patchy beard genetics. Poppy and uncle chuck are on my moms side. My dad and uncle chuck are about 60 years old. My uncle mike is in his 60’s. By the way my cool uncle chuck shoutouts to you he used to work for luther vandross and now works for Toni Braxton. He works for other people I think and shoutouts to Uncle Cedric but he is not really my uncle he is my uncle’s real friend. Of Course it’s scary getting older and you shrink so I might be wrong about their height now. I also wish I didn’t have autism or aspergers. People don’t call It aspergers anymore its asd. Autism is good and bad or a good weird and bad weird. People will also hate you for being weird or different because you have autism. What is normal when all humans are weird in a good r bad way? If I were neurotypical I would obviously be the same person that I am now except I would be able to talk before 3 years old and have better social skills and talking about everything’s always been old school etc. F**k what people or society says. I can get a job without going to an autism program. I know I can still do great things in my life with having very high functioning autism. I can still get a job and maintain it. I am responsible and will be on time. But again nobody is perfect so mistake happen it’s only human I care to say. In school even in high school I was in classes with 2 teachers or I had an iep or I took speech therapy in school because of my autism. I wish I was in honor classes or regular classrooms. 1 time in middle school I tried 1 teacher classes but I couldn’t handle I guess. I wasn’t at the top of my class or didn’t have the greatest grades like in high school for instance. In my high school freehold township high school I took the sat test and failed. I can do better especially if I want to get into Princeton free scholarship. I took speech therapy from elementary all through out high school. I was involved in autism social skills groups inside and outside of high school. Does it bother me that I have autism? A little bit but since everything’s always ben old school things don’t bother me as much or not at all. I again do care to be grateful in life. It can be worse. I could have worse conditions like cancer etc. Again facts are that life is many things, life is difficult, life is difficult for everybody obviously. I am grateful but again it’s your free will to let’s say to be grateful or not. Anyway The bible says man was created first ya da ya da. Controversial stuff aside, I believe men was created 1st. In other words the human body is weird. It’s like my sister who looks like me with a shaved face and long hair. But who knows if men was created first. It’s like the chicken or the egg. It’s interesting that in the womb, males start out as females.
For instance You can have free will to not be original or not be real or not be yourself or copy other people. Again everybody is different. I care to say be your self be real. I care to be my real self that’s my free will. If people try to make you be something you are not or not don’t care about your real self than they are fake people. You don’t need them in your life. For instance dating or marrying somebody don’t date or marry somebody who doesn’t love you for your real self. People have free will of course to get married or not get married. My parents are divorced marriage is not for everybody. Many people get divorced. My dad is financially hurt by the divorce or alimony. I am not interested in dating or getting married because I wanna stay a virgin that is my free will because everything’s always been old school and again females are not special when thinking of my theory females being based off males or the female body is just the male body modified. Sex isn’t everything. Everybody has cheating thoughts there are so many too hot or sexy people on this earth it is difficult to resist. I don’t wanna pro create either that is my free will. Bringing kids in this world is not for me because everything’s always been old school or life is difficult so I don’t want my kids to suffer. Humans compete with each other you have free will to compete with each other like in sports or whatever. There is a lot of competition in life with whatever like businesses in the corrupt system. People even have free will to not ever get a job in your life or be immature. People don’t wan’t to work or don’t have to work that’s their free will. People can have free will to get whatever job they want to. Well unless the job is open but you know what I mean. People can have free will to get social security money. Working in the corrupt system whether you love or hate your job. Jobs that are physically demanding or blue collar or masculine jobs like truck driving or construction or civil engineering or garbage truck driver or waste management. Again life is difficult. Some jobs can be demanding mentally or stressful like being a surgeon. I am considering being a surgeon or brain surgeon that is a masculine job or tough manly job. But that requires a long time of medical school. 4 years in regular school and 4 years in medical school. Jobs that require a lot of work like big truck driving transport or delivery or working in a factory or working at the cargo bay ships. This is the system or corrupt system on worldwide for ya. I am considering being a big mail truck driver or a garbage worker. I thank the real people who work hard in the corrupt system or contribute to the society or the corrupt system which is good and bad obviously. You are not always going to feel like going to work or doing your job even if you love your job. Something you love to do like an activity you won't always feel like doing it. You can also have free will with let's say privacy or hiding your dirty little secrets. Again nobody is perfect everybody has something to hide. Free will to lock the bathroom door around strangers acquaintances or real friends or family whoever. I lock the bathroom door around whoever as well. Free will with so much I can go on and on. Speaking of privacy or boundaries. I know people with asd can have difficulty with let’s say boundaries. I want to say this to James Jackson a real friend of mine if you are reading this, I was minding my own business and not exposing myself to you. I was covering myself while I was masturbating so I don’t appreciate your mean attitude. I wasn’t breaking your boundaries or bothering you. Sometimes real friends argue or fight just like family again. I care about my real friends and how they feel, real friends have each others back of course or will always be there for you. Fake people of course will only show up when let’s say you became rich or popular or want something from you take take take. Real people can get jealous but not jealous like hating you. Real people are happy for you but wish they were like this or that or have this or that. Everybody is not real or not your real friend obviously. For instance somebody with autism can be fake. Anybody can be fake obviously. Again I don’t care about mental health or awareness of it. I want my real friends to not die or kill themselves but I still do not care about mental health awareness. I still associate with people who let’s say care about health or are healthy or care about mental health or who do have mental health issues or care about digital or computer stuff because that is their free will. But I am not interested in that stuff again or I prefer analog stuff. I met real people or real friends who care about mental health at mental health programs like cpc or high focus countless others because this was before I knew the fact. Obviously if I knew everything’s always been old school or the fact for short when I was younger I would have never cared for health or or cared for digital stuff or never went to these facilities or programs. But I wish I met these real people some other way and perhaps that could of happened.
I care to be simple, real, and smart obviously. Again shoutouts to Charlie Wills my genuine friend. Charlie Wills has a nice ring to it lol. Charlie Wills is a funny or weird guy too in a good way. Another thing, so about becoming a parent. Well again I’m still a virgin. I’m not sure if I simply want to have kids. I feel or believe I want to remain a virgin forever. I watch porn by the way. I watch gay and straight porn. Porn can be addicting. I do prefer analog porn but since we live in this digital world ,for now, I watch digital porn or online porn. I download so much offline porn . Thanks to Alan turing we have access to so much porn billions of porn. Mind boggling. No wonder people watch porn because everybody has cheating thoughts and there are so many too hot sexy people on this earth including on porn websites. Porn or only fans or modeling or stripping or phone sex line person, if you are in a relationship is like being in an open relationship or swinging you have cheating thoughts because you are exposing yourself to people. Strippers or Prostitution is degrading to humans gay or straight by the way. The internet was made for many things including porn thanks to Alan Turing. If I knew everything’s always been old school or the fact for short when I was a kid teen I would never watch or look at porn in my life. Obviously porn is not having sex or doing it for real. I don’t care to have sex and I care to watch porn at the same time. But since I didn’t know the fact when I was younger I guess you can say I am addicted to porn but I am not I can live my life without porn or I am not depended on it. But since I exposed myself to porn since I didn’t know the fact the porn videos or images are stuck in my memory forever. Porn can be addicting and you want more and more porn because you can get tired of the same porn. I specifically watch homemade or real porn. Professional porn is fake and is degrading to human beings. I won’t stand for sexual assault or rape or abuse or sexual harassment, or bothering people or bullying, or degrading humans it’s inhumane. Keeping my theory in mind, When I adopt kids I will protect my son or daughter from fake people if they decide to date or have sex. Evil People like Adrian Peterson are pieces of human garbage seeking negative attention. But people like Chris brown who hit Rhianna. Even if my theory is not correct we are still all human. Females are not special so if a female attacks or hits me I will fight back. Also again loved ones or real friends fight each other sometimes physically or verbally like arguing. Rhianna was hitting Chris so Chris was angry or upset so he had every right to be physical with Rhianna. Again females are not special they are just like us males and my theory again females are based off males remember that if you care to. Rhianna is a very attractive human. Ashley and Tracy are attractive humans as well. So are many other humans like pornstars Alexis Texas or Isis Taylor or Syren De mer or Noemilk or the trans Foxxy, the word tranny can be offensive by the way, or beauty Dior or wet peaches or Angelina Jolie or Beyonce or Alexandria ocasio Cortez or Cardi B or Kim kardashian or Ingrid Neilson, she is mixed of asian and Caucasian by the way, wow you never know who is mixed sometimes. I can go on and on. Again you have free will with watching porn and having sex or not and having free will to prefer what is too hot or sexy to you. You can say for instance Alexis Texas is not attractive or not your type oh she doesn’t have wrinkled soles, which actually from what I have seen she dosen’t have wrinkled soles or not the most wrinkled soles I have seen in my life, but again see everybody is different every human does not have wrinkled soles, so you say she’s not my type which is ok that is your opinion or your preference or free will. To the people who rape, just know my theory if you care to acknowledge it and if you are a fake person or rapist who is spiritual or religious you believe males are created 1st or females are based off man cause the male body or rib was used to create the female. So again the female body is a male body modified or females are not special. Controversial stuff aside. My real friends Ashley Bernard and Tracy are sadly a victims of sexual assault. Shoutouts to Tracy aka Tracey chapman lol I call her tracy chapman by the way. But again you guys are victors not victims. Anyway it wasn’t right at all for Chris to hit Rhianna back. Nothing wrong with getting angry obviously but getting too angry can lead to this. So I like Chris brown he is not an evil piece of human garbage in this case he made an idiotic mistake a big one but I forgive him. Chris didn’t intentionally want to abuse Rhianna. I dislike people at Ubisoft who were sexually harassing , same with Activision, and Konami was abusive as well. The creator of rayman was not involved in the harassment by the way. I also dislike people like Dr Dre for beating up women, or 2pac raping a female, Phife Dawg for being an abuser as he mentions abuse in his butter song, or John Lasseter being a rapist, Louis CK being a rapist, or Kevin spacey attempting to be a gay rapist pedophile , bill cosby for raping females, Andrew. Tate for rape and human trafficking, r kelly for human trafficking and pedophilla. or racist people like the papa johns guy or whatever your name is keemstar. I can’t stand these people. I won’t support people who I don’t like obviously. But I still like a tribe called quest I just don’t like fife dawg. Just because I dislike 1 individual does not mean I dislike everybody else like a tribe called quest you get what I am saying ? I am sure you do. I just like the tribe songs without phife whatever your name is and just with q tip. Why q tip associated with somebody who is abusive is beyond me but hey that is he free will. Q tip is definitely one of the goats musicians when it comes to rap I care to say. Q tip has a distinct voice too. You know it’s q tip when you hear his voice. Q tip is also underrated or not as popular as let’s say Jay-z or Biggie. I like Jay z and biggie they are goats as well. Before I knew the fact a guy online exposed tribe to me, can’t remember his name, and my uncle chuck likes tribe as well. If its a song with mostly q tip in it I will skip fife dawg. I prefer the songs with only q tip or without fife. By the way shoutouts to Brian smollon again my genuine friend he introduced me to a song champion by chipmunk featuring Chris brown. Chipmunk? I know that is a funny or weird name in a good way to me. It’s a good song if you care to engage in it. Chris brown mentions his incident with Rhianna in the song talking abut how he saw his father beat up his mom and asks if he is like his his dad? Again people have free will in life to do negative things or evil such as sexual assault. People have free will to not care about consent. Now are you evil or a piece of human garbage for let’s say scamming people or stealing or robbery and not killing people? No, of course that is a negative thing but that doesn’t make you evil. You are a fake person and not my real friend obviously. What does make you evil or a piece of human garbage is abusing people or being anti-gay or sexism or racism or raping people or abusing animals or killing people etc. You wonder how these people sleep at night? Again it’s your free will to do evil. I support the lgbtqiap community of course. I am all for let’s say gay people or females or minorities having equal human rights or being an entrepreneur. Even people of color like myself can be entrepreneurs. I can be an entrepreneur if I wanted to maybe I will be one. Maybe own or create a moving company. Moving is a tough job and masculine or physically demanding.
Anyway Again I did bestiality sort of and some say bestiality is a form of abuse which I disagree. If you are beating the animal up then yeah that is abuse obviously. Having sex with an animal, as messed up as it is, is not abuse it’s just having sex. Yes animals can’t give consent but it is still not abuse to me and animals lives are important but are not as important as human lives. So I say pedophilia is worse than bestiality. Bestiality with a young non adult animal like an infant is like pedophillia. But people have free will again, free will to have a pet or not, if you love your pet too much like bestiality or you just like your pet more than humans than that’s your free will. I understand because sometimes you don’t like people like fake people so you love pets more or you are not a people person so you get away from fake people a lot of times just be to yourself or with your pet. Perhaps I will get a pet again like a cat or turtle. Scary pets like spiders or snakes I probably won’t but maybe since it is a masculine thing to do. The Human species are animals as well but not wld animals. Of course some humans are like wild animals such as evil people. It’s not surprising people do negative things like bestiality or sort of do bestiality like me because everything’s always been old school or the fact for short. Bestiality is obviously a bad weird and it’s foul and wrong but hey people have free will again. Bestiality is still illegal even though it’s not an evil thing to do it’s still a negative thing to do. So people deserve to go to prison or jail for evil things but if you get falsely accused of something like being falsely accused of rape then I feel sorry for you. People of color get thrown in prison for being falsely accused. I know gay males are victims of sexual assault or rape. But you are not a victim you are a victor. Females obviously can also be predators of f**ked up evil things like raping males or pedophillia. Saying wh**e or bi**h or sl*t or c**t are degrading words. Obviously saying the b word in this context we are in this bitch is like saying we are in this place which I say that and there’s nothing wrong with saying that. Although if a female is rude or racist or mean or fake I will call them a b**ch etc to teach them a lesson see how it feels to be degraded or bullied taste of your own medicine. If you care to treat people the way you want to be treated golden rule then that’s your free will of course. So maybe I will adopt kids. I will raise my adopted kids with physical discipline which there is nothing wrong with that. If my kids talk when not necessary or are disrespectful I will physically discipline or ass whoop with a belt and they need to simply please shut up or shut the f**k up for being idiots. We are all idiots or do idiotic stuff it’s only human I care to say. Obviously Many people have gotten physical discipline including my self like a belt whooping or soap in the mouth. Now it depends when my kids are older like 12 or so and use swear or say offensive or vulgar words to me or in front of me I won’t physically discipline see I will be a cool dad. It is cool to me and many people to swear or say certain words but not too much. Some people don’t like swear words or vulgar or offensive words but sometimes it slips out we are all human. There is a certain age you can let your say words like that. People even have free will to not like swear words or raise your kids how you want to. That is my free will so I won’t give them the soap in the mouth or smacking or spank when they are like 12 years old. Maybe 12 is still a little young but you know what I mean. But if my kid son or daughter is dissing me like saying dad you are a f**king b**ch ass n**ga no matter how old they are I will smack them. If they are like 6 years old yeah I will give the soap etc. If my kids don’t feel like doing chores or get distracted in home life than I will confiscate something from them like if they like analog stuff like their analog hdtv with component then I will take the cable away but if my kids prefer digital stuff like a hdtv with hdmi than I will take the cable away. I won’t force my kids to use analog stuff since I will give them free will with that but of course I will raise them with the fact make sure they know the fact everything’s always been old school. When they are little kids or infants I will raise them with analog stuff and see if they like it. Kids or teens having analog cell phones is important since phones are a need. I say the right age for a kid to have an analog cell phone is like 7 or 8 or an age old enough that kids understand things better in life or understand how to use a phone. If I knew the fact when I was a kid I would have for instance done my chores and not gotten distracted by digital stuff and never ever use digital stuff in my life. I know there is no life hand book or schools don’t teach you to know how to let’s say raise your kids and again nobody is perfect but to those who physically or verbally abuse people or your kids you ought to know it’s wrong. If you are a kid for instance at a certain age you are old enough to know right from wrong. I am thinking of adopting a boy and girl they can be asian or white or whatever we are all human. Anyway My grandpa on my dad’s side had kids at a young age like 18 and abused my dad and uncle mike physically and verbally. My grandma and grandma divorced when my dad and uncle were really young and my grandma took my aunt Nicole with her. I don’t like what my grandpa did but I still love my grandpa unconditionally because he is still my grandpa and he is still alive by the way. If he wasn’t my grandpa I would not like him at all. My great grandpa on my dad’s side was abused physically and verbally I am sure as well. So it was a cycle but my dad broke the cycle. My dad has the same name as me by the way but I am not a jr. His middle name is Marshall. I will never abuse my kids or never treat them like kids when they are adults at 18. I will always look out for my kids but still not treat them like kids treat them like adults. My mom and other fake people treat me like a kid and I don't deserve that treatment. But hey people have free will with let’s say not treating your kids like adults when they grow up. I will never find them a home they are not happy with or never put them in mental hospitals when they are not mentally ill did not do anything wrong or not treat them like adults when they grow up unlike my mom who treats me like s**t. Or never keep them from seeing their grandparents or family. My mom even didn’t let me in to my grandmothers or my nana. I came there late at night which was not my fault because I got off the wrong train by mistake and I got lost. This shows my mom is terrible. My nana is 86 years old nobody is getting any younger and I simply wanted to see her. My grandpa or poppy on my mom’s side and my grandma on my dad’s side are dead. Poppy died in 2015 at 82 of health issues and Grandma died in 2016 at only in her 60’s because of cancer.
I miss real friends or family who are gone. I can’t be too hard on myself that I didn’t get a chance to tell the fact everything’s always been old school to everybody on earth who are dead now. Dead from anything like dead from covid. For instance I would never be able to tell the fact to people who died on 9/11. I was too young only 6 years old. There is a certain age I think 7 where you learn how to understand words and sentences etc better. So I would have been able to tell or know or understand the fact by 7 years old. I just wasted my life, my youth, or time away not knowing this fact. But hey people can even have free will to waste their life or time away or not do anything with their life. Obviously I care to live a great life or do something with my life. I didn’t get chance to tell the fact to people who died from whatever. I didn’t get a chance to tell the fact to people who died from let’s say covid. I didn’t get a chance to tell the fact to my uncle kermit on my dad’s side He died in 2022 of smoking tobacco. He was like in his 70’s I think. My real friend Kimberly died in 2018 of overdose. So my mom got a Lyft for me to go back to New jersey from Pennsylvania with my ssi money and not let me see nana. She owes me money. So anyway Bringing kids in this world when everything's always been old school, is it really worth it? I know we gotta pro create to keep the human species alive, but again people have free will in life. I don’t want to bring kids in this world because It will be difficult for them to accept the fact everything’s always been old school or life is difficult. I don’t want to bring them in this world and make them miserable and they didn’t ask to be born. Nobody was asked to be born in life. Of course pro creating can bring a real or genuine person onto this earth or bring an evil or fake person on this earth like hitler for instance. People have free will to care or think about their existence. Why am I here? Why are we here? What is the purpose or meaning of life or my life? Human life is weird or mysterious. How did humans and everything else in life come to be? Again controversial stuff or the Big Bang theory aside. Outer space is weird or mysterious. You wonder what is out there. Deep thinking bout life, deep thoughts deep serious talk indeed. I care to say that yes you can have those questions but you still have a purpose in your life. It’s your life. It’s simple to think or say this that you gotta live your life to the fullest if you care to and even though it’s difficult or scary we will never know what happens in the after life there is nothing you can do about it but you still gotta simply live life that is all you can simply do. Nobody’s life is perfect but you can care or have free will to make it better. Life is too short to be miserable. There is a lot to think about life or your life. Life is difficult but try not to give up. Don’t give up. I care to say that. Try to motivate yourself by whatever motivates you to not give up find something that motivates you if you care to and it’s your free will again. They say live in the moment or enjoy life or love life if you care to it’s your free will. Sometimes you gotta look at at the past and you can still live in the now and the past never goes away like the fact everything’s always been old school and computers or digital being invented in world war 2 is a fact of the past and is important to know. It’s your free will to forget the past but you really can’t forget the past entirely or too much. Everybody doesn't have to pro create or have sex. Look at asexuals, my genuine friend Charlie Wills is asexual. Like I've been saying its no surprise people have free will with let’s say to not pro create or to never kiss or never date or never have sex in your life because everything's always been old school. A lot of family members I don’t get to see often like my cousin Barbara on my mom’s side ,I don’t think I ever met you, or have never met like my older cousins on my dad’s side Tiffany and Ecaterina I have met them but I haven’t met my aunt myrtle on my mom’s side who died in 2019 I didn’t get a chance to tell the fact as well. I wish I got to see them more often and knew the fact when I was younger. But hey people eve have free will to be estranged from family or not see family often. I really would like to start seeing my family more often.
So speaking of family there are pics of my family online. Real people in my family unlike my fake mom I obviously dislike my mom and fake people. Real friends are like family. We argue sometimes but we still love each other. Just like one time I fought my dad physically when I was 20 in 2016 because I walked away by myself in the hospital which made him upset and I had no cell phone if only I knew the fact then and had an analog cell phone. I understand he was looking out for me not treating me like a kid but he didn’t have to get this angry, my dad has had anger issues like this in the past. Sadly I think because of his abuse he is angry like this. So my dad fought me and when he found me he pushed me against the wall and then we started the fight a big commotion in the hospital. A real friend of mine cherann I am sure she didn’t intentionally wanna hurt me or be fake lie or be mean to get me in trouble with the police. She made an idiotic mistake big time. I forgive her for it. One thing I will say is most police officers are real or genuine and not fake. So this incident happened before I knew the fact and I was bothered by police brutality of minorities or police brutality to anybody. I was 23 at the time in 2018. It dosen’t bother as much now since I know the fact. I respect that and thank you for your service. Thanks officer mike, officer Neil, officer nick Petrone, officer Jose, Officer Frank, Officer John and female officer Sgt Black of Aberdeen nj shoutouts to you, shoutouts to the Aberdeen dispatcher can’t think of your name but you know who you are, shoutouts to all real people who are police officers. Zack pittius my real friend is a police officer thanks for your service. Real friends or real people obviously lie but not lying to hurt people which that is what fake people do obviously or they take advantage of you etc. I care to be positive obviously and I again care to be real. You can’t always be positive in life obviously. Shout outs to my cousin Noah Reid for the suit and tie swag. That’s what’s up. Shoutouts to John aka the report of the week for he has suit and tie swag as well and he of course has free will to wear suit and tie all the time it’s a good weird. John also knows food is life. My suit & tie swag as well as my tattoos which I want to get re done, one tattoo needs to say real people love life instead of positive people love life. Calvin Klein, nike Adidas Jordan like my Adidas hat wearing it front or backwards or on the side, or Adidas shoes or Adidas hoodie, nike socks etc swag, my timex analog watch, my ear rings that I got recently, my gold chain last year in 2022, and my owl ring and purple ring in 2022. The musician drake likes owls by the way. I like Drake. Purple ring purple ring you get that reference there? I like prince. RIP Prince. I plan to get dreads as well. Hopefully I will do so much before my 28th birthday like get a job or get a vehicle. I am close to 30 and never had a job etc it’s a little embarrassing but oh well. I need to get a fancy hat and business suit case for my suit and tie swag. Noah gave me this snazzy swag suit which actually the brand of the suit is called cousins formal wear. What do ya know? lol So people even have free will to dress how they want to or care how you wanna look. Fashion or apparel is old school. I have free will or I care to dress this way. People have free will to say what is cool neat or not neat or cool to them or positive or not positive. To most people being smart and real and simple is cool like me for instance. People have free will to be positive. People have free will to be negative. People have free will to be neutral. Shout outs to many genuine friends but here are a few such as Brian Silva, George A. Shank, Steven Ginter, Abdul, Charlie Wills, Umarou, George Acosta, James Jackson, and Theodore Wilson aka Oz. If you care to engage in his rap music, oz trilogy, please check him out on sound cloud or whatever. If only his music were analog. Also oz is a funny guy or weird in a good way because talks fast or the way he talks is funny to me. I know real people like me who like to remake whatever into analog. Shoutouts to my real friend Frank Stabile aka Frank from the ymca lol I like to call him Frank from the ymca I care to be weird or funny that is a good weird. Frank is a funny or weird guy in a good way. Frank has great taste in music by the way. I have known frank since I was 20 in 2015. I first heard the songs not with me and this dying soul in 2015 thanks to frank introducing me to not with me and dying soul. He likes the songs bizarre love triangle by new order, not with me by superior, this dying soul by dream theater, paradise city by guns and roses, pacific coast party by smash mouth, and butterfly by crazy town. Although sadly Frank has cancer. Frank Stabile is his full real name or he likes to go by Frank Beltane. Frank is only in his 30's like 33 or 32. I think 33. I hope you recover well Frank.
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People obviously don't have to like a fact but they can still accept it such as the fact everybody will die. I am sure people don't like this fact that everything's always been old school but you gotta accept it or you don't have to accept it again since it's your free will. I myself. I don't like the fact that everything's always been old school but it is what it is I accept it. Maybe it will be even more difficult to accept this fact if I knew this fact when I was younger as a kid.
well things do evolve which is cool like cool things such as digital or computer stuff evolving into the internet and digital stuff like google or youtube etc uses the same algorithms or digital tech that Alan turing created in world war 2 and that is old school again of course or can be a bad thing like humans evolving into becoming worse or evil but when everything has always been old school nothing is really new. People born when the modern computer was invented or during world war 2 are called the silent generation and again that is old school obviously. Some people say 1995 is gen z or and some say 1995 is millennials but I don’t care. The idea of Generations is old school or words are old school obviously for instance and the idea of evolving is old school. I can go on and on.
Another thing, I’m still a virgin, no born again virgin bs. Not to be vulgar but, I don't know how else to say this. I have never done oral, anal, nor vaginal. But I have done fetish stuff with a female like ass and feet. I licked a females wrinkled soles. I almost got a foot job. A female rubbed her feet on my pants or crotch. I never eaten ass only touched ass on a female. By the way Jason again my real friend he said a funny good weird thing he said in front of people in public that he eats ass lol. I never kissed a females mouth. This female I am talking about is Ashley Bernard by the way. I have only done these things with only 1 female in my life. Sex isn’t everything obviously. People who wear skimpy clothing like tank tops when it’s not appropriate. I like wearing tank tops and Gay males wear tank tops or basketball shorts or whatever kind of shorts which are skimpy. People like to dress for fashion when it’s not always about sex or looks. Appearance isn’t always about sex. People just like to simply have a ponytail it doen’t mean they wanna look sexy. What turns people on can be a good or bad weird. Again we are weird creatures as humans in a good and bad way. So people doing weird things in a good way like wearing ponytails is a good weird and turns people on like it turned me on. People going to the club doesn’t mean everybody goes to the club to date or have sex. I am not a great dancer but I can become a great dancer. Shoutouts to this 1 older guy who had the greatest dance moves you will see in your life. He is the dancing machine. Anyway obviously everybody has cheating thoughts, key word thoughts. There are so many sexy or too hot people on this planet. No wonder people get in open relationships or one night stands. My theory is females are based off men. Or in other words the female body is just a modified male body. So females are not special or in other words we are all human. We are also all different, human life is weird. The human body is weird again or complex. The human brain is very complex or weird body part. There are so many weird body parts including a female or males private parts. Human life is also difficult or unfair and many other things. What do you expect when everything’s always been old school. I for instance can’t grow a full or long beard. It’s so patchy, that’s just genetics for ya. Again everybody is different. I din’t start getting facial hair until probably 17. I was a late bloomer. Other kids in school were able to grow a full non patchy long beard at 14 15 16. I wish I had a full beard or 20/20 vision or be taller etc. See again nobody is perfect. By the way I am 5’8. I Some kids had growth spurts at an earlier age like 14 15 16 and were like 5 ‘7 at 12 and grew to over 6 foot at 15. I didn’t grow to 5”8 until like 18 years old. They say for males you don’t end puberty until your 20’s. Females being based off males or my theory. Keeping my theory in mind. Females start puberty earlier than males. The human body is weird once again. It’s only human. The human brain is fully developed at your mid 20’s or 25. Also I am the oldest of 3. But I don’t feel like I am the oldest since I am shorter than my bro. On top of that he is the co guardian. Mom is the main guardian. Anyway I have a younger bro named Tyler and the youngest is my sis Lauren. My sis is 23. My bro is taller than me and he is almost 25 years old. He is like 5”11. Same with my dad and my uncle mike. My uncle mike is the oldest yet he is shorter than my dad. Uncle mike is 5”7. My dad is 5”9. My Uncle chuck is like 6”3 but maybe he has shrunk now. My grandpa or poppy was tall as well. Of course I didn’t get those genetics but instead I got their patchy beard genetics. Poppy and uncle chuck are on my moms side. My dad and uncle chuck are about 60 years old. My uncle mike is in his 60’s. By the way my cool uncle chuck shoutouts to you he used to work for luther vandross and now works for Toni Braxton. He works for other people I think and shoutouts to Uncle Cedric but he is not really my uncle he is my uncle’s real friend. Of Course it’s scary getting older and you shrink so I might be wrong about their height now. I also wish I didn’t have autism or aspergers. People don’t call It aspergers anymore its asd. Autism is good and bad or a good weird and bad weird. People will also hate you for being weird or different because you have autism. What is normal when all humans are weird in a good r bad way? If I were neurotypical I would obviously be the same person that I am now except I would be able to talk before 3 years old and have better social skills and talking about everything’s always been old school etc. F**k what people or society says. I can get a job without going to an autism program. I know I can still do great things in my life with having very high functioning autism. I can still get a job and maintain it. I am responsible and will be on time. But again nobody is perfect so mistake happen it’s only human I care to say. In school even in high school I was in classes with 2 teachers or I had an iep or I took speech therapy in school because of my autism. I wish I was in honor classes or regular classrooms. 1 time in middle school I tried 1 teacher classes but I couldn’t handle I guess. I wasn’t at the top of my class or didn’t have the greatest grades like in high school for instance. In my high school freehold township high school I took the sat test and failed. I can do better especially if I want to get into Princeton free scholarship. I took speech therapy from elementary all through out high school. I was involved in autism social skills groups inside and outside of high school. Does it bother me that I have autism? A little bit but since everything’s always ben old school things don’t bother me as much or not at all. I again do care to be grateful in life. It can be worse. I could have worse conditions like cancer etc. Again facts are that life is many things, life is difficult, life is difficult for everybody obviously. I am grateful but again it’s your free will to let’s say to be grateful or not. Anyway The bible says man was created first ya da ya da. Controversial stuff aside, I believe men was created 1st. In other words the human body is weird. It’s like my sister who looks like me with a shaved face and long hair. But who knows if men was created first. It’s like the chicken or the egg. It’s interesting that in the womb, males start out as females.
For instance You can have free will to not be original or not be real or not be yourself or copy other people. Again everybody is different. I care to say be your self be real. I care to be my real self that’s my free will. If people try to make you be something you are not or not don’t care about your real self than they are fake people. You don’t need them in your life. For instance dating or marrying somebody don’t date or marry somebody who doesn’t love you for your real self. People have free will of course to get married or not get married. My parents are divorced marriage is not for everybody. Many people get divorced. My dad is financially hurt by the divorce or alimony. I am not interested in dating or getting married because I wanna stay a virgin that is my free will because everything’s always been old school and again females are not special when thinking of my theory females being based off males or the female body is just the male body modified. Sex isn’t everything. Everybody has cheating thoughts there are so many too hot or sexy people on this earth it is difficult to resist. I don’t wanna pro create either that is my free will. Bringing kids in this world is not for me because everything’s always been old school or life is difficult so I don’t want my kids to suffer. Humans compete with each other you have free will to compete with each other like in sports or whatever. There is a lot of competition in life with whatever like businesses in the corrupt system. People even have free will to not ever get a job in your life or be immature. People don’t wan’t to work or don’t have to work that’s their free will. People can have free will to get whatever job they want to. Well unless the job is open but you know what I mean. People can have free will to get social security money. Working in the corrupt system whether you love or hate your job. Jobs that are physically demanding or blue collar or masculine jobs like truck driving or construction or civil engineering or garbage truck driver or waste management. Again life is difficult. Some jobs can be demanding mentally or stressful like being a surgeon. I am considering being a surgeon or brain surgeon that is a masculine job or tough manly job. But that requires a long time of medical school. 4 years in regular school and 4 years in medical school. Jobs that require a lot of work like big truck driving transport or delivery or working in a factory or working at the cargo bay ships. This is the system or corrupt system on worldwide for ya. I am considering being a big mail truck driver or a garbage worker. I thank the real people who work hard in the corrupt system or contribute to the society or the corrupt system which is good and bad obviously. You are not always going to feel like going to work or doing your job even if you love your job. Something you love to do like an activity you won't always feel like doing it. You can also have free will with let's say privacy or hiding your dirty little secrets. Again nobody is perfect everybody has something to hide. Free will to lock the bathroom door around strangers acquaintances or real friends or family whoever. I lock the bathroom door around whoever as well. Free will with so much I can go on and on. Speaking of privacy or boundaries. I know people with asd can have difficulty with let’s say boundaries. I want to say this to James Jackson a real friend of mine if you are reading this, I was minding my own business and not exposing myself to you. I was covering myself while I was masturbating so I don’t appreciate your mean attitude. I wasn’t breaking your boundaries or bothering you. Sometimes real friends argue or fight just like family again. I care about my real friends and how they feel, real friends have each others back of course or will always be there for you. Fake people of course will only show up when let’s say you became rich or popular or want something from you take take take. Real people can get jealous but not jealous like hating you. Real people are happy for you but wish they were like this or that or have this or that. Everybody is not real or not your real friend obviously. For instance somebody with autism can be fake. Anybody can be fake obviously. Again I don’t care about mental health or awareness of it. I want my real friends to not die or kill themselves but I still do not care about mental health awareness. I still associate with people who let’s say care about health or are healthy or care about mental health or who do have mental health issues or care about digital or computer stuff because that is their free will. But I am not interested in that stuff again or I prefer analog stuff. I met real people or real friends who care about mental health at mental health programs like cpc or high focus countless others because this was before I knew the fact. Obviously if I knew everything’s always been old school or the fact for short when I was younger I would have never cared for health or or cared for digital stuff or never went to these facilities or programs. But I wish I met these real people some other way and perhaps that could of happened.
I care to be simple, real, and smart obviously. Again shoutouts to Charlie Wills my genuine friend. Charlie Wills has a nice ring to it lol. Charlie Wills is a funny or weird guy too in a good way. Another thing, so about becoming a parent. Well again I’m still a virgin. I’m not sure if I simply want to have kids. I feel or believe I want to remain a virgin forever. I watch porn by the way. I watch gay and straight porn. Porn can be addicting. I do prefer analog porn but since we live in this digital world ,for now, I watch digital porn or online porn. I download so much offline porn . Thanks to Alan turing we have access to so much porn billions of porn. Mind boggling. No wonder people watch porn because everybody has cheating thoughts and there are so many too hot sexy people on this earth including on porn websites. Porn or only fans or modeling or stripping or phone sex line person, if you are in a relationship is like being in an open relationship or swinging you have cheating thoughts because you are exposing yourself to people. Strippers or Prostitution is degrading to humans gay or straight by the way. The internet was made for many things including porn thanks to Alan Turing. If I knew everything’s always been old school or the fact for short when I was a kid teen I would never watch or look at porn in my life. Obviously porn is not having sex or doing it for real. I don’t care to have sex and I care to watch porn at the same time. But since I didn’t know the fact when I was younger I guess you can say I am addicted to porn but I am not I can live my life without porn or I am not depended on it. But since I exposed myself to porn since I didn’t know the fact the porn videos or images are stuck in my memory forever. Porn can be addicting and you want more and more porn because you can get tired of the same porn. I specifically watch homemade or real porn. Professional porn is fake and is degrading to human beings. I won’t stand for sexual assault or rape or abuse or sexual harassment, or bothering people or bullying, or degrading humans it’s inhumane. Keeping my theory in mind, When I adopt kids I will protect my son or daughter from fake people if they decide to date or have sex. Evil People like Adrian Peterson are pieces of human garbage seeking negative attention. But people like Chris brown who hit Rhianna. Even if my theory is not correct we are still all human. Females are not special so if a female attacks or hits me I will fight back. Also again loved ones or real friends fight each other sometimes physically or verbally like arguing. Rhianna was hitting Chris so Chris was angry or upset so he had every right to be physical with Rhianna. Again females are not special they are just like us males and my theory again females are based off males remember that if you care to. Rhianna is a very attractive human. Ashley and Tracy are attractive humans as well. So are many other humans like pornstars Alexis Texas or Isis Taylor or Syren De mer or Noemilk or the trans Foxxy, the word tranny can be offensive by the way, or beauty Dior or wet peaches or Angelina Jolie or Beyonce or Alexandria ocasio Cortez or Cardi B or Kim kardashian or Ingrid Neilson, she is mixed of asian and Caucasian by the way, wow you never know who is mixed sometimes. I can go on and on. Again you have free will with watching porn and having sex or not and having free will to prefer what is too hot or sexy to you. You can say for instance Alexis Texas is not attractive or not your type oh she doesn’t have wrinkled soles, which actually from what I have seen she dosen’t have wrinkled soles or not the most wrinkled soles I have seen in my life, but again see everybody is different every human does not have wrinkled soles, so you say she’s not my type which is ok that is your opinion or your preference or free will. To the people who rape, just know my theory if you care to acknowledge it and if you are a fake person or rapist who is spiritual or religious you believe males are created 1st or females are based off man cause the male body or rib was used to create the female. So again the female body is a male body modified or females are not special. Controversial stuff aside. My real friends Ashley Bernard and Tracy are sadly a victims of sexual assault. Shoutouts to Tracy aka Tracey chapman lol I call her tracy chapman by the way. But again you guys are victors not victims. Anyway it wasn’t right at all for Chris to hit Rhianna back. Nothing wrong with getting angry obviously but getting too angry can lead to this. So I like Chris brown he is not an evil piece of human garbage in this case he made an idiotic mistake a big one but I forgive him. Chris didn’t intentionally want to abuse Rhianna. I dislike people at Ubisoft who were sexually harassing , same with Activision, and Konami was abusive as well. The creator of rayman was not involved in the harassment by the way. I also dislike people like Dr Dre for beating up women, or 2pac raping a female, Phife Dawg for being an abuser as he mentions abuse in his butter song, or John Lasseter being a rapist, Louis CK being a rapist, or Kevin spacey attempting to be a gay rapist pedophile , bill cosby for raping females, Andrew. Tate for rape and human trafficking, r kelly for human trafficking and pedophilla. or racist people like the papa johns guy or whatever your name is keemstar. I can’t stand these people. I won’t support people who I don’t like obviously. But I still like a tribe called quest I just don’t like fife dawg. Just because I dislike 1 individual does not mean I dislike everybody else like a tribe called quest you get what I am saying ? I am sure you do. I just like the tribe songs without phife whatever your name is and just with q tip. Why q tip associated with somebody who is abusive is beyond me but hey that is he free will. Q tip is definitely one of the goats musicians when it comes to rap I care to say. Q tip has a distinct voice too. You know it’s q tip when you hear his voice. Q tip is also underrated or not as popular as let’s say Jay-z or Biggie. I like Jay z and biggie they are goats as well. Before I knew the fact a guy online exposed tribe to me, can’t remember his name, and my uncle chuck likes tribe as well. If its a song with mostly q tip in it I will skip fife dawg. I prefer the songs with only q tip or without fife. By the way shoutouts to Brian smollon again my genuine friend he introduced me to a song champion by chipmunk featuring Chris brown. Chipmunk? I know that is a funny or weird name in a good way to me. It’s a good song if you care to engage in it. Chris brown mentions his incident with Rhianna in the song talking abut how he saw his father beat up his mom and asks if he is like his his dad? Again people have free will in life to do negative things or evil such as sexual assault. People have free will to not care about consent. Now are you evil or a piece of human garbage for let’s say scamming people or stealing or robbery and not killing people? No, of course that is a negative thing but that doesn’t make you evil. You are a fake person and not my real friend obviously. What does make you evil or a piece of human garbage is abusing people or being anti-gay or sexism or racism or raping people or abusing animals or killing people etc. You wonder how these people sleep at night? Again it’s your free will to do evil. I support the lgbtqiap community of course. I am all for let’s say gay people or females or minorities having equal human rights or being an entrepreneur. Even people of color like myself can be entrepreneurs. I can be an entrepreneur if I wanted to maybe I will be one. Maybe own or create a moving company. Moving is a tough job and masculine or physically demanding.
Anyway Again I did bestiality sort of and some say bestiality is a form of abuse which I disagree. If you are beating the animal up then yeah that is abuse obviously. Having sex with an animal, as messed up as it is, is not abuse it’s just having sex. Yes animals can’t give consent but it is still not abuse to me and animals lives are important but are not as important as human lives. So I say pedophilia is worse than bestiality. Bestiality with a young non adult animal like an infant is like pedophillia. But people have free will again, free will to have a pet or not, if you love your pet too much like bestiality or you just like your pet more than humans than that’s your free will. I understand because sometimes you don’t like people like fake people so you love pets more or you are not a people person so you get away from fake people a lot of times just be to yourself or with your pet. Perhaps I will get a pet again like a cat or turtle. Scary pets like spiders or snakes I probably won’t but maybe since it is a masculine thing to do. The Human species are animals as well but not wld animals. Of course some humans are like wild animals such as evil people. It’s not surprising people do negative things like bestiality or sort of do bestiality like me because everything’s always been old school or the fact for short. Bestiality is obviously a bad weird and it’s foul and wrong but hey people have free will again. Bestiality is still illegal even though it’s not an evil thing to do it’s still a negative thing to do. So people deserve to go to prison or jail for evil things but if you get falsely accused of something like being falsely accused of rape then I feel sorry for you. People of color get thrown in prison for being falsely accused. I know gay males are victims of sexual assault or rape. But you are not a victim you are a victor. Females obviously can also be predators of f**ked up evil things like raping males or pedophillia. Saying wh**e or bi**h or sl*t or c**t are degrading words. Obviously saying the b word in this context we are in this bitch is like saying we are in this place which I say that and there’s nothing wrong with saying that. Although if a female is rude or racist or mean or fake I will call them a b**ch etc to teach them a lesson see how it feels to be degraded or bullied taste of your own medicine. If you care to treat people the way you want to be treated golden rule then that’s your free will of course. So maybe I will adopt kids. I will raise my adopted kids with physical discipline which there is nothing wrong with that. If my kids talk when not necessary or are disrespectful I will physically discipline or ass whoop with a belt and they need to simply please shut up or shut the f**k up for being idiots. We are all idiots or do idiotic stuff it’s only human I care to say. Obviously Many people have gotten physical discipline including my self like a belt whooping or soap in the mouth. Now it depends when my kids are older like 12 or so and use swear or say offensive or vulgar words to me or in front of me I won’t physically discipline see I will be a cool dad. It is cool to me and many people to swear or say certain words but not too much. Some people don’t like swear words or vulgar or offensive words but sometimes it slips out we are all human. There is a certain age you can let your say words like that. People even have free will to not like swear words or raise your kids how you want to. That is my free will so I won’t give them the soap in the mouth or smacking or spank when they are like 12 years old. Maybe 12 is still a little young but you know what I mean. But if my kid son or daughter is dissing me like saying dad you are a f**king b**ch ass n**ga no matter how old they are I will smack them. If they are like 6 years old yeah I will give the soap etc. If my kids don’t feel like doing chores or get distracted in home life than I will confiscate something from them like if they like analog stuff like their analog hdtv with component then I will take the cable away but if my kids prefer digital stuff like a hdtv with hdmi than I will take the cable away. I won’t force my kids to use analog stuff since I will give them free will with that but of course I will raise them with the fact make sure they know the fact everything’s always been old school. When they are little kids or infants I will raise them with analog stuff and see if they like it. Kids or teens having analog cell phones is important since phones are a need. I say the right age for a kid to have an analog cell phone is like 7 or 8 or an age old enough that kids understand things better in life or understand how to use a phone. If I knew the fact when I was a kid I would have for instance done my chores and not gotten distracted by digital stuff and never ever use digital stuff in my life. I know there is no life hand book or schools don’t teach you to know how to let’s say raise your kids and again nobody is perfect but to those who physically or verbally abuse people or your kids you ought to know it’s wrong. If you are a kid for instance at a certain age you are old enough to know right from wrong. I am thinking of adopting a boy and girl they can be asian or white or whatever we are all human. Anyway My grandpa on my dad’s side had kids at a young age like 18 and abused my dad and uncle mike physically and verbally. My grandma and grandma divorced when my dad and uncle were really young and my grandma took my aunt Nicole with her. I don’t like what my grandpa did but I still love my grandpa unconditionally because he is still my grandpa and he is still alive by the way. If he wasn’t my grandpa I would not like him at all. My great grandpa on my dad’s side was abused physically and verbally I am sure as well. So it was a cycle but my dad broke the cycle. My dad has the same name as me by the way but I am not a jr. His middle name is Marshall. I will never abuse my kids or never treat them like kids when they are adults at 18. I will always look out for my kids but still not treat them like kids treat them like adults. My mom and other fake people treat me like a kid and I don't deserve that treatment. But hey people have free will with let’s say not treating your kids like adults when they grow up. I will never find them a home they are not happy with or never put them in mental hospitals when they are not mentally ill did not do anything wrong or not treat them like adults when they grow up unlike my mom who treats me like s**t. Or never keep them from seeing their grandparents or family. My mom even didn’t let me in to my grandmothers or my nana. I came there late at night which was not my fault because I got off the wrong train by mistake and I got lost. This shows my mom is terrible. My nana is 86 years old nobody is getting any younger and I simply wanted to see her. My grandpa or poppy on my mom’s side and my grandma on my dad’s side are dead. Poppy died in 2015 at 82 of health issues and Grandma died in 2016 at only in her 60’s because of cancer.
I miss real friends or family who are gone. I can’t be too hard on myself that I didn’t get a chance to tell the fact everything’s always been old school to everybody on earth who are dead now. Dead from anything like dead from covid. For instance I would never be able to tell the fact to people who died on 9/11. I was too young only 6 years old. There is a certain age I think 7 where you learn how to understand words and sentences etc better. So I would have been able to tell or know or understand the fact by 7 years old. I just wasted my life, my youth, or time away not knowing this fact. But hey people can even have free will to waste their life or time away or not do anything with their life. Obviously I care to live a great life or do something with my life. I didn’t get chance to tell the fact to people who died from whatever. I didn’t get a chance to tell the fact to people who died from let’s say covid. I didn’t get a chance to tell the fact to my uncle kermit on my dad’s side He died in 2022 of smoking tobacco. He was like in his 70’s I think. My real friend Kimberly died in 2018 of overdose. So my mom got a Lyft for me to go back to New jersey from Pennsylvania with my ssi money and not let me see nana. She owes me money. So anyway Bringing kids in this world when everything's always been old school, is it really worth it? I know we gotta pro create to keep the human species alive, but again people have free will in life. I don’t want to bring kids in this world because It will be difficult for them to accept the fact everything’s always been old school or life is difficult. I don’t want to bring them in this world and make them miserable and they didn’t ask to be born. Nobody was asked to be born in life. Of course pro creating can bring a real or genuine person onto this earth or bring an evil or fake person on this earth like hitler for instance. People have free will to care or think about their existence. Why am I here? Why are we here? What is the purpose or meaning of life or my life? Human life is weird or mysterious. How did humans and everything else in life come to be? Again controversial stuff or the Big Bang theory aside. Outer space is weird or mysterious. You wonder what is out there. Deep thinking bout life, deep thoughts deep serious talk indeed. I care to say that yes you can have those questions but you still have a purpose in your life. It’s your life. It’s simple to think or say this that you gotta live your life to the fullest if you care to and even though it’s difficult or scary we will never know what happens in the after life there is nothing you can do about it but you still gotta simply live life that is all you can simply do. Nobody’s life is perfect but you can care or have free will to make it better. Life is too short to be miserable. There is a lot to think about life or your life. Life is difficult but try not to give up. Don’t give up. I care to say that. Try to motivate yourself by whatever motivates you to not give up find something that motivates you if you care to and it’s your free will again. They say live in the moment or enjoy life or love life if you care to it’s your free will. Sometimes you gotta look at at the past and you can still live in the now and the past never goes away like the fact everything’s always been old school and computers or digital being invented in world war 2 is a fact of the past and is important to know. It’s your free will to forget the past but you really can’t forget the past entirely or too much. Everybody doesn't have to pro create or have sex. Look at asexuals, my genuine friend Charlie Wills is asexual. Like I've been saying its no surprise people have free will with let’s say to not pro create or to never kiss or never date or never have sex in your life because everything's always been old school. A lot of family members I don’t get to see often like my cousin Barbara on my mom’s side ,I don’t think I ever met you, or have never met like my older cousins on my dad’s side Tiffany and Ecaterina I have met them but I haven’t met my aunt myrtle on my mom’s side who died in 2019 I didn’t get a chance to tell the fact as well. I wish I got to see them more often and knew the fact when I was younger. But hey people eve have free will to be estranged from family or not see family often. I really would like to start seeing my family more often.
So speaking of family there are pics of my family online. Real people in my family unlike my fake mom I obviously dislike my mom and fake people. Real friends are like family. We argue sometimes but we still love each other. Just like one time I fought my dad physically when I was 20 in 2016 because I walked away by myself in the hospital which made him upset and I had no cell phone if only I knew the fact then and had an analog cell phone. I understand he was looking out for me not treating me like a kid but he didn’t have to get this angry, my dad has had anger issues like this in the past. Sadly I think because of his abuse he is angry like this. So my dad fought me and when he found me he pushed me against the wall and then we started the fight a big commotion in the hospital. A real friend of mine cherann I am sure she didn’t intentionally wanna hurt me or be fake lie or be mean to get me in trouble with the police. She made an idiotic mistake big time. I forgive her for it. One thing I will say is most police officers are real or genuine and not fake. So this incident happened before I knew the fact and I was bothered by police brutality of minorities or police brutality to anybody. I was 23 at the time in 2018. It dosen’t bother as much now since I know the fact. I respect that and thank you for your service. Thanks officer mike, officer Neil, officer nick Petrone, officer Jose, Officer Frank, Officer John and female officer Sgt Black of Aberdeen nj shoutouts to you, shoutouts to the Aberdeen dispatcher can’t think of your name but you know who you are, shoutouts to all real people who are police officers. Zack pittius my real friend is a police officer thanks for your service. Real friends or real people obviously lie but not lying to hurt people which that is what fake people do obviously or they take advantage of you etc. I care to be positive obviously and I again care to be real. You can’t always be positive in life obviously. Shout outs to my cousin Noah Reid for the suit and tie swag. That’s what’s up. Shoutouts to John aka the report of the week for he has suit and tie swag as well and he of course has free will to wear suit and tie all the time it’s a good weird. John also knows food is life. My suit & tie swag as well as my tattoos which I want to get re done, one tattoo needs to say real people love life instead of positive people love life. Calvin Klein, nike Adidas Jordan like my Adidas hat wearing it front or backwards or on the side, or Adidas shoes or Adidas hoodie, nike socks etc swag, my timex analog watch, my ear rings that I got recently, my gold chain last year in 2022, and my owl ring and purple ring in 2022. The musician drake likes owls by the way. I like Drake. Purple ring purple ring you get that reference there? I like prince. RIP Prince. I plan to get dreads as well. Hopefully I will do so much before my 28th birthday like get a job or get a vehicle. I am close to 30 and never had a job etc it’s a little embarrassing but oh well. I need to get a fancy hat and business suit case for my suit and tie swag. Noah gave me this snazzy swag suit which actually the brand of the suit is called cousins formal wear. What do ya know? lol So people even have free will to dress how they want to or care how you wanna look. Fashion or apparel is old school. I have free will or I care to dress this way. People have free will to say what is cool neat or not neat or cool to them or positive or not positive. To most people being smart and real and simple is cool like me for instance. People have free will to be positive. People have free will to be negative. People have free will to be neutral. Shout outs to many genuine friends but here are a few such as Brian Silva, George A. Shank, Steven Ginter, Abdul, Charlie Wills, Umarou, George Acosta, James Jackson, and Theodore Wilson aka Oz. If you care to engage in his rap music, oz trilogy, please check him out on sound cloud or whatever. If only his music were analog. Also oz is a funny guy or weird in a good way because talks fast or the way he talks is funny to me. I know real people like me who like to remake whatever into analog. Shoutouts to my real friend Frank Stabile aka Frank from the ymca lol I like to call him Frank from the ymca I care to be weird or funny that is a good weird. Frank is a funny or weird guy in a good way. Frank has great taste in music by the way. I have known frank since I was 20 in 2015. I first heard the songs not with me and this dying soul in 2015 thanks to frank introducing me to not with me and dying soul. He likes the songs bizarre love triangle by new order, not with me by superior, this dying soul by dream theater, paradise city by guns and roses, pacific coast party by smash mouth, and butterfly by crazy town. Although sadly Frank has cancer. Frank Stabile is his full real name or he likes to go by Frank Beltane. Frank is only in his 30's like 33 or 32. I think 33. I hope you recover well Frank.
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