- Oct 14, 2005
 
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I seem to be very irrational lately. I'm not sure if I'm over-stressed or if this is something else. For instance, tonight I spent all night cleaning my apartment (which was a good thing), throwing out things in a garbage can in the middle of the floor. At the end of the night, I took the full garbage bag outside full of things I no longer needed/other trash that hadn't been thrown out yet. However, for some reason, I became irrational thinking that I may have thrown something out I shouldn't have, and got the urge to go back outside, open the trash bag up, dump it out, and look through everything a second time to make sure that I hadn't thrown anything out that I shouldn't have. I resisted this urge, but it still upsets me - because logically, I was the one doing the cleaning, so why would I have thrown something out that I didn't want to throw out? It's unlikely I would have purposely thrown something out I didn't want to get rid of. Why can't I trust myself that I didn't make a mistake?
			
			
				
		
			
	