Moonie is an awesome human being. There have been many times where I wish he had been a little less cryptic and talked more plainly about where he was coming from. His cryptic "babble" is difficult if not impossible for some to decipher...and it gives every appearance of being a mask used to shield himself from extremely personal communication which, I feel, causes him to lose many valuable opportunities that would help deepen his relationships with others as well as with himself. I am of the impression that he was hurt to the very core of his being at a young age. Few can understand such pain and what it costs to survive such horrors. I wish the very best for Moonie...always have, always will.
Thank you also DSF. I think that you are right about me being cryptic. I know too well what I mean and say too much in code that expresses to me what I have come to understand. I don't think it's a shield so much as ineptitude as a writer.
I am intentionally distant is the way I relate to others because when I begin to post here many many years ago I already knew what I try to communicate today, the matter of projection and self hate and was forced to make a decision, do I do what I want, to relate personally, or do what is best for others, and keep my personal life off limits. I took the shitty end of the stick because I know how we are, that we turn the personal against others. I knew that if I identified myself by age, by profession, by anything at all, short tall, fat, thin, that I would be put in a box and labeled, that I would easily become a caricature of peoples unconscious assumptions in such a way that I could not refute them.
I decided to be as blank a mirror as I reasonably could be, to use none of the wisdom of life I have acquired from personal experience directly, because only by remaining as blank as possible are all that is projected on me obviously projection. Only in this way can I show by demonstration what I mean.
I have only been honest about one thing. I am a nobody.
There are a few exceptionally beautiful people I have shared my personal life with here, people in whom I see real personal integrity of the many other similarly beautiful people who post. I guess I'm pretty much of an invert by nature too. Thank you so much again.
Once upon a time the Greeks and the Persians were persuaded to join in a contest to create the most beautiful of scenes. A room was selected and divided by a curtain for the two sides to work in. The Greeks created a masterpiece of surpassing beauty down to the finest detail and the Persians a mirror polished to perfection. When the curtain was removed, nobody could tell which side had won. Imagine the situation when mirror meets mirror.