Oh, to be paranoid.

[zinfamous]

If you want to be helpful, please tell me how to get banned for life without everyone thinking I'm an asshole.

I don't think anyone thinks you're an asshole, just that your recent posting has been observably strange--concerning, really. You've posted some very long personal threads recently, dealing with some very serious shit.

So, I can say that it is true that some of us are considering that and are legitimately concerned about your state-of-being at the moment. It's an honest question: are you OK?

 

[daveybrat]

No they have the $50K sport model, mine's the cheapest possible. I know how this sounds guys, and if I wasn't living it, I'd think I was as nutty as, well,... It's OK I truly begged the Mods. to delete this account for my safety (my brother stalks me on the Internet and has horrible words for me and likes to break my nice stuff), and others read my Yelp and are happy I guess or want me dead. I don't have delusions of grandeur and AIDS hasn't gotten into my brain (my dad's medical assessment - he was a county assessor). So hi dad and bro, they won't let me kill this account, but I tried very hard.

We answered you in the Moderator Discussions thread but you haven't responded to Esquared yet.

 

[bradly1101]

OK, I guess the mods., my family, and society want these words:

My mom died at 58 from an eating disorder partly influenced by having a son who's not doing so well with AIDS (mid '90's) but mostly cuz dad's words. My grandma developed an eating disorder and... under my dad's care plus his theft of everyon's inheritance except mine; I didn't want/need the stupid, society-destroying (+ booze) money. Eek!

My brother is overweight and obviously similarly affected.

I can't even think about berries and salmon, all I want are BBQ Lays and cookies when my world is crumbling.

Eljon died at 53 cuz Saphris. Only the good die young, and I too cannot wait to leave this 'intimidative' hell-hole called 'life.'

 

[Exterous]

So, I can say that it is true that some of us are considering that and are legitimately concerned about your state-of-being at the moment.

Yep - @bradly1101 I hope you're doing as well as possible dealing with the various shit sandwiches life throws at you

 

[bradly1101]

I shan't be double-posting, and you can read this if you want:

https://twitter.com/bradly1101

 

[bradly1101]

Yep - @bradly1101 I hope you're doing as well as possible dealing with the various shit sandwiches life throws at you

Double decker dude. In 'n' Out will do four patties if you ask. Edit: sorry, inside joke, it's where the dudes and I bonded deeply (as friends). I have no idea about them now, and I reasonably fear for them (after an 'incident'). I know how it all sounds, and... There should be a book, but there are already several.

 

[Red Squirrel]

Sounds like you need to see a counselor and maybe get antidepressants.

No shame in doing that. Been down that path and it's scary. In my case I never got an official medical answer but I think it was seasonal affective disorder. For you it sounds like you're going through lot of personal issues like coping with death and you should try to get a counselor to help you cope.

As much as it feels like you're in a dark and messed up place, there is light at the end of the tunnel. When I was there I thought it was over. I thought I "caught" something that would never leave. But it does go away as long as you continue to fight it. First step would be to see a counselor and explain your feelings.