Ya when I was your age I learned something about myself.
My dad started racing in 1959, I was 8 and instantly loved working on the car.
My dad raced for fun and was very threfty. I was really good at making the car run at very early age by the time I was 12 I could build a car complete.
Dad wasn't a winner by anyones standard but my own . I loved how he stayed out of trouble and drove the way I think a Christian in sports should play. I loved to watch him . For myself I dreamt of being a Winner and champion for 12 years.
I finally decided to build a car forself at age 20 . As my younger brother and his friends were able to take upkeep of dads car.
I remember My first race , I had to start in back new car. My foot was shaking so bad I couldn't push throttle down . LOL
Well the way the rules worked low point cars start on the poll . So the next week I was up front.
As we were coming around to get green flag and I said to self . You recall how scarred you was last week in the back . I said ya to self , Than self said them bastards are all behind ya . I swallowed hard . Came infor green And took off for an easy win . Both heat and feature. I won all but 6 races I was in that year 32 feature wins,
And of course all the glory that goes to a champion.
The Thing I learned that year was something that may have Hurt me forever or helped I don't know which it is.
But that first race I won . As I was taking that long saught after Victory lap . I recall saying to myself Is this it . Is this all there is. I was disappointed. I also relized I really didn't like driving a few years later it got me off track.
Because of my belieFs and when being responsiable is actually applicable. I relized as we picked up speed I was less and less in control of what happens to others , Not self .
I relized that if I drove a car as hard as I could the chances of me injuring someone was high . NO this makes me responsiable for my action. It destoyed a really good driver . But the driver never was A driver , He was a car owner builder and that he loves almost sinfully.
I let my son race , and I set a bar for him I didn't think he could achieve but he is faster than hell on the bottom were I Insite my car runs or ya don't drive it . I want control not glory . You show me you can control a car at those speeds I don't care how ya finish but same lap times and that driver will get my stamp of approval. Because that Driver will be a Driver who be a Champion the way I could never be, I cant run the bottom real well myself infact I suck there. LOL. IF I could have things would have turned out differantly .
But running high and hard is risky for my appoint. I not willing to risk his well being . FOr something I find no glory in .
Point is you don't know me If you did instead of dislikeing me , You would hate me . I am honest in my heart as to what I say . I call a rock a rock not a mineral, THe world is a horriable place. If there be a hell this be it. My life has been good but what about the billions I cry for them yet nopthing I do can change anything nothing . TO change things I would have to be like those who have brought us to this place in time . That would be defeat.
DO not say that you understand my fanbois. Because ya don't you couldn't possiably know. I am a pure fanbois, I am a fanbois of the ARCH the tech . I choose along time ago who I believe the Tech leaders are . If you want to compare that to marketing or anything else it may be true for most . But not me not ever.
I have only Hurt 1 person in my whole life because I lost Awareness, It was my best friend. I have never injuryed another since , hopefully thats how my life ends ., If it does I consider myself half assed winner. Why half assed because I never tried to change what so obviously is wrong with us Never trying to help make it better for ALL not just a neighboror a friend . Flat out just not caring, I sicken myself.
OCguy
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Originally posted by: Nemesis 1
Fanbois at his best or Is it worst?
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I agree, worst. At least you arent afraid to admit it.
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