I grew up in a family that was strongly anti-racist, my mother raised my brother and I to value liberalism, education, evolution, women's rights, gay rights, and we were taught white guilt very strongly. Movies that called attention to the suffering of minorities at the hands of whites were treated with great reverence, and were seen as important for us to watch and absorb the message of.
My mother is still that way, my brother is.
In later years, I learned that my father, who I saw less frequently and who I didn't get into deep political or philosophical discussions with until into my 20's, was an atheist like myself but unlike me he was fairly homophobic and seemingly a bit racist. It wasn't entirely clear how racist, he had black friends and such but he seemed to have a dislike for Obama, despite being a lifelong democrat himself, which I couldn't attribute to anything but racism.
In 2008 I was telling him (before Obama got the nomination) how I wanted it to be Obama, or Hilary, then when Hilary did some nasty campaign tactics when it was down to just the two of them which I felt were racist, I strongly rejected Hilary and her tactics just solidified my support for Obama even more. I actually was excited about Obama before most people knew his name, back with his electrifying speech at the 2004 DNC, I kept track of him from then on. I was one of those people in 2004, and moving forward from then, actively hoping he'd run and be elected.
Make no mistake, a big part of why I wanted it to be either Hilary or Obama was that they would represent a dramatic change, progress, etc. I had a lingering fondness for the Clintons also.
My next door neighbor as I grew up was a black man married to a white woman and he and I were very good friends. I was a child then a teen, while he was very well into his adulthood, but in the absence of my own father he took me under his wing in a few instances, built me a club house in my backyard, showed me how to pour a concrete floor for it. He was a construction guy and he always had a tool if I needed to borrow it, he kept dobermans and when I got my first and only dog at 13, he made sure we didn't take it inside covered in fleas and ticks. We'd bought it from a farm outside of town and it would've been disastrous. He brought a big wash basin and dog shampoos, flee killing shampoos, etc, and helped us in our driveway. He died of cancer in 2002 and I attended his funeral and I cried for his loss.
My mother's best friend's sister, whom she lived with, was married to a black man and they had 3 half-black half-white children. A daughter and two sons. I grew up playing with them, on occasion, it wasn't frequent. Every month or so maybe I'd end up seeing them from like age 8 maybe on to late teens. My first crush may have been on their daughter. Memory fails a bit. She and I walked together at our high school graduation ceremony.
I pushed my father to vote Obama, and to warm to him. Now, he's warmer to him than I am. He's had some progress on his homophobia thanks to Rachel Maddow whom he loves to watch every time her show is on.
I seem to be going in the other direction... the Trayvon case was the spark. It raised my attention to some things I'd always perceived about people like Al Sharpton, Jesse Jackson, and the mainstream media. I became extremely disgusted with how Huffington Post, and The Young Turks, and MSNBC were covering it. Ignoring key evidence, drumming up a racial narrative. These were my absolute top, favorite news sources before this happened.
It soured me on my fellow liberals, it got me thinking about black on white crime, it got me looking up statistics which all confirmed things I'd always intuitively or anecdotally understood. They were figures and statistics I'd brushed with before, but filed away. They were intuitive understandings I had worked so hard to suppress.
When I joined the Navy, which was before this happening... I expected to deal with a lot of idiot conservatives, and there were plenty of conservatives. They weren't as dumb as I'd assumed. This helped lay the groundwork. There were a lot of intelligent, informed conservatives and it got me thinking. Some of their arguments got through to me to some degree. Two of the best friends I made while in the Navy were black guys. One of whom I drove through Manhattan traffic and nasty parts of New Jersey to get him to where the Navy could ship his car to Hawaii where he was being stationed, I was going to Washington state. I drove him many places before he got that car, we hung out a lot, he was a very intelligent, nice, well mannered guy. The other black guy I became fast friends with was a computer gaming nerd like me. Great guy. Wish I was still in touch with them.
As it stands now I am no longer voting Obama again. I may or may not vote Romney.
I wouldn't call myself racist now, I'd just call myself aware and fed up. I'm fed up with the permissive attitude in the black community about violence and criminality, especially that directed at whites or any non-blacks. I'm tired of the "stop snitchin'" attitude and the knockout king game and 12% of the population committing so much of the crime. I'm aware of some of the historical reasons for certain things we see today... and I'm done giving a shit and done making excuses.
Black people who share my values, are more than okay with me. If anything, I enjoy befriending them even more than white people who share my values. That's not who I'm talking about. My only beef with them is they aren't numerous enough.
So it's not about hating blacks.
It's about being sick of what a disturbingly large percentage of the black community is like. I've heard plenty of black people, comedians or more serious commentators... express the same sentiment. Responsible black people are sick of what black culture is like. I'm with them.
And frankly I do think there may be a genetic basis for some of the differences we see in populations... whites and asians underwent an agricultural revolution, that selects for certain traits, certain impulse control, planning, different breeding strategies, conflict resolution, etc than groups who didn't undergo the same selection pressures. That's just how nature works, and I've seen a lot of data to support this.
Plus, there is neanderthal and denisovan genetics within all population groups except sub-Saharan Africans. That's right, genetic mixture from what we consider to be a different SPECIES, existing in all but one racial group today.
What's the significance of that? Just this, there are real, genetic differences between populations. They faced different selection pressures, in different environments, and we shouldn't be shocked when they exhibit differences.
So in other words, there are absolutely brilliant, fantastic black people, there are absolutely white people who are complete criminal pieces of shit. It is just that from a genetic perspective, from a realist, fact-based, natural-selection perspective... we should not expect the PERCENTAGES of each type of person, to be the same in each group. That's a distinction many have trouble wrapping their minds around, but reality does tend to be complex.