Originally posted by: mjuszczak
I've realized a bit about my thought process lately and how I calculate percentages in my mind. I think it helps explain a bit of my anxious attitude towards life.
Now, don't get me wrong -- I know perfectly well how to calculate percentages on paper. If 8 people have to split a pizza pie evenly, then they each get 1/8th of the pie -- no more and no less.
But in my mind, on a daily basis, my thoughts are entirely different and that's what makes me paranoid.
Example #1: I used to gamble a lot when I first turned 21, because I used to forget about the actual percentages of winning and instead focus on the yes/no aspect of things. Instead of thinking there's a 10% chance of me winning, I used to think there's a 50% of me winning: either I will, or I won't. Now granted, in my mind, I used to think that I probably won't, but the logic in my head still kept me going. Now of course, on PAPER, I knew it was different.
Example #2: I'm sick right now, and my doctor gave me 5 tests to get done -- lyme, etc. I'm paranoid to get the blood work done because I keep thinking something will come out positive. Since there are three tests, and each of them is a yes/no answer, ONE of them is BOUND to be yes. Just like if you flip a quarter three times, the chances of not getting a heads (yes) in those 3 times is quite slim. Now of course, on paper, I can calculate the chances of any of those 3 being positive as something like 1/1000, but it still makes me feel very scared... because while the answers will most likely be "no, no, and no", just a SINGLE yes could ruin my life.
So anyway, that's my story. I'm not really looking for advice. Just a way to vent.