job problems

[MagnusTheBrewer]

It helps to read everyone's perspectives; thank you. I don't have very many people IRL to talk to.

I"m currently making 42k/year with some health insurance. When I had my first panic attack after being asked to fly out and "fix" a company's accounts payable tie out issues, they recommended that I see a councilor to help with my "problem". So I called up the first guy on the list they provided to me who turned out to be (a quack) big into hypnosis. I was desperate enough to try it...when that failed miserably I had another panic attack and started self medicating with anti-anxiety and depression herbs. it's been about 5 months now since that first "episode" where I found myself pulled over on the side of the interstate sobbing uncontrollably like an idiot.

It's hard but, you have to make a conscious decision to not be a victim. Don't wait for the world to define your options. You don't have to make the 'perfect ' plan, you just need to make a plan. Then, give yourself permission to make a positive change because you deserve it. You deserve a life without panic attacks. The feelings of not having control over your life are an illusion. Make a plan. Do it now.

 

[Jeff7]

Part of what I do is phone support for installers, vendors, and electricians.
Often there's a bit of a pause between notification of a call and picking up the phone. I've got to take a bit get into the "customer service" mindset, after I've been interrupted yet again from getting something else done.
(Our primary technician quit about 2 years ago. I got to take on his phone duties. Now they don't want to risk giving it to anyone else because I'm really good at it, and tend to be a reason that we get repeat business from some large customer accounts. Yay. Me.)


It seems to be taking longer and longer though to get my mind to that "pleasantly personable" region before picking up the phone. (I don't want the person on the other end of the line to have to deal with the effects of my lousy situation.)



As for your options in the town....sometimes the options aren't always ideal. If you place enough value on the community in which you live, then you have to find a way to make yourself accept the job you have, and keep in mind that it needs to be worthwhile.
Or find employment elsewhere. You were able to establish yourself in one place, you can do it again.

 

[GrumpyMan]

You're depression may have more to do with the 100 lb. weight gain than your actual job, just sayin.

 

[Imp]

I have an idea how you feel, OP, minus the weight gain -- my 2.5 hour daily commute with a large walking portion prevents that for now.

This is one of those situations that's hard to get right. My job saps my energy, makes me feel useless and inadequate, but it's stable and they've never missed a payment. And I can't find any other options that would be any better. The worst part of a situation like this is that it makes you feel trapped and hopeless.

For me, a pink slip would be greeted with a smile and celebration.

 

[Ns1]

And I can't find any other options that would be any better.
.....
For me, a pink slip would be greeted with a smile and celebration.

error, does not compute.

 

[Imp]

error, does not compute.

Job options... with my current training and experience.

Being fired or laid off would be an option chosen for me... just like winning the lottery.

 

[rudeguy]

It helps to read everyone's perspectives; thank you. I don't have very many people IRL to talk to.

I"m currently making 42k/year with some health insurance. When I had my first panic attack after being asked to fly out and "fix" a company's accounts payable tie out issues, they recommended that I see a councilor to help with my "problem". So I called up the first guy on the list they provided to me who turned out to be (a quack) big into hypnosis. I was desperate enough to try it...when that failed miserably I had another panic attack and started self medicating with anti-anxiety and depression herbs. it's been about 5 months now since that first "episode" where I found myself pulled over on the side of the interstate sobbing uncontrollably like an idiot.

Man...I feel for you. I dealt with severe panic attacks for years. Used to make regular trips to the ER to get pumped full of Valium. Then when that wore off, I'd be headed right back.

Here's my two pennies:
The job isn't the heart of the problem. It actually sounds like a decent job with some kind of cool perks. The real problem is your anxiety and depression. There is no one cure for everyone but a mix of meds and talking your problems out usually does the trick. Go see your regular doctor and see if he can recommend someone good. If not, keep looking. It took me 10 years before I comitted to fixing my problems. Now it's been many years since I've even had a hint of a panic attack.

Once you get your emotions in order, your job can be fun again. You can have fun in life instead of literally just trying to survive.

And stop self medicating right now. Today. It's not doing you any good.

 

[JMapleton]

If you think being fired is inevitable, find a new job before you are fired. You don't want that on your resume.