destrekor
Lifer
- Nov 18, 2005
 
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Originally posted by: polarbear6
@destrekor
Well When I was in my 10th(the last year of our HS( I passed my HS two years ago, now am in junior college, which is also called HS) I had this dream involving a bat. And with in 6 months(last month of hs + 6 months) I was thrown out of my junior college for attendance reason(it was because of the lecturers, but that's another story). I had to go and convince the govt departments and create a scene there to make them call my junior college and take me back. After that they were targeting me and used to get on my nerves.
Before that incident I always used to get a+ to b+ after that incident, I only got f- and hardly d's( probably cause I was not attending college at all) In my recent test I got a B(and that because I got a dream that I went to a shrine, which is a good luck).
But those last two years were really very very very miserable and it was no were my fault.
like I've said, people interpret things differently.
I'll blame others when I know blame lies with them. My misfortunes and fortunes in life have been the result of my own actions, my own good deeds and wrongdoings. I've gotten away with things I shouldn't have, and didn't get away with things I should have. I don't believe in any fate or punishment/reward system of life, it's all a draw of the straws in some circumstances, and in most, if not all cases, any result that occurs is due to the actions taken prior.
My grades have always been a direct reflection of effort. I had good grades in high school but the effort level has remained the same. Courses where I naturally just "get" the material I do good in with little effort, other courses I make it harder on myself by not adapting. I can honestly say I've always led a school life of trying to get by with as little as possible, and only realizing that now is my biggest mistake.
It's not necessarily an attitude toward responsibility, just school. At the workplace (no job right now, school is the focus and stipend keeps me afloat), I always busted my ass to make sure stuff got done, and picked up the slack from others - with great anger but alas I still made sure it was done. Somewhere subconsciously there is a battle of will, trying as hard as ever to hate education as much as possible. Once I get into something I put the effort into it, and is why on the job I'm great - also the immediateness of it all is enjoyable. School, it's just a long drawn out period of torture, yet I enjoy learning and research so many odd things at the strangest urge, sometimes even when I'm supposed to be learning something else.
				
		
			