I don't think you are. People who are don't announce it, or use the term flippantly. Unless you're a kid anyway.
OP in case you haven't noticed, this is probably not the best forum to throw yourself a pity party, emo doesn't float well here.
If you are seriously in such dire need of emotional support and/or counseling than man the fuck up and get some help from a professional touts suite. You're not going to accomplish jack here except rub salt into the wounds you seem intent on making others believe you have.
Just my $0.02, in the event you aren't a troll