I am a nobody. You don't seem to be able to get that through your head. Would you be happy if I tell you that you are a bigger nobody than I am. I only respond to you because you seem to have a need for me to do so. I am not interested at all in whatever this contest is. I do not care at all how you see me, but I want to be nice. It makes me sad that your views are so negative and that you have distress over them. I don't care at all how negatively you see me but when the thought that somebody as evil as I am in the world exists and that bothers you, that makes me feel bad. I do not want to see you suffer. I do not suffer because I am ok with it.
I posted in this thread to give something from which I got value. Moments later I get landed on by people with past histories and bones to pick. I don't much care for batting off all the distortions people create over me in somebody else's thread. I am not the point. I start a few threads now and then and in those, however people want to focus on me rather than the topic I present, I don't care. May your light grow brighter. Now I am out of here.
It's very telling that you see me as a negative person. It's also telling that you have allowed yourself to be angry with me. Does my light shine brighter than yours? Do not darken your own light and point to me and say, see it's darker! Then blame me.
This contest...? Was it of wills? Because mine appears to have endured while yours abandoned you. It should be mentioned, you saw a contest and always seem to. It's just usually one where you are convinced you can break someone down or that you're winning because they just don't understand. Both empty victories, if only because you must lie to yourself. You crumble when you lose hope that you have the upper hand because you won't allow yourself to see that it's just a hand, no better than anyone else's hand. You ran from me Moonadoodledoo. You stuck around to be "nice"? We both know that's not true. You were thinking you liked me but tonight you changed your mind. Ask yourself why? I've done nothing to you except turn your own words against you and doubt them at every turn. If you're mad at me, you're truly mad at yourself. You're feeling this in too big a way to support your I-have-all-the-answers,come-to-Jesus pov. I won't apologize for rattling your resolve. You must learn from it, grow from it and begin to face the world without your addicts shield but instead face it with trust in self. The Universe or God won't give it to you. The energy stream also can not give it to you. Enjoy life, don't be cowed in to submission by it.
You ARE somebody!
DON'T call me nobody! However, thank you. Follow my logic here... You're a nobody and proud of it, goal achieved kind of thing right? You called me more of a nobody than you, That means I achieved your goals morer/betterer than you. I bet you didn't see that one coming but still your tantrum here tonight was beneath you. You couldn't withstand the scrutiny because there are missing parts to your enlightenment. We are not designed to abandon ego entirely, we must tame it just as we do our id and then love life fully with our hearts open. Your spirit would not have chosen a human experience only for you to reject it.
Any way Moonly, I forgive you this outburst. We can move on never having to discuss it further. I won't however stop challenging you to challenge yourself. <--- or is that the contest you're accusing me of? *smh* I barely have anything at all to do with that.
Besties For Life!
P.S. I don't think you are evil. Never said any such thing. Misguided and conveniently stunted, yeah but that's not evil. That's a work in progress. Keep up the (for the time being) tiresome work! I have faith in you!
P.S.S. I'm not attacking you, I'm challenging you. Your faith should not only accept it but embrace it with a light heart and enduring, beautiful confidence.