- Jan 24, 2000
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It's strange. This has never happened to me before, and to be honest, it's really freaked me out.
Last night I was just sitting at the PC, and I was reading something about someone who had committed suicide by filling their pockets with stones, tying their hands and feet together and jumping into a lake. All of a sudden, I just felt extremely sick and my head began to pound. The next thing I knew, I was coming to on the floor. I was sweating buckets, all over my body (I cannot remember ever having been sweating SO much). It took me a minute or so to realise where I was and what had happened. I must have blacked out and fallen off the chair onto the floor, although I have no recollection of any of this.
I then clambered into bed and just went to sleep straight away.
This morning, I noticed that I've got a 6 inch gash down the inside of my thigh. I just checked my bed sheets and they're covered with blood
I got this cut because I took the arms off my swivle chair last week, and there's now a small piece of metal (the clip for the arms) sticking out of each side. The night shorts I was wearing are also totally screwed now (hugh rips).
I just really don't know why this might have happened. I hadn't been drinking, and I'd eaten fairly well yesterday. As a few of you may know, I've been a bit depressed recently (well, over the last 6 months really) and I must admit, the thought of taking my own life has entered my head once or twice, although I don't think I would ever seriously attempt it. Maybe reading about someone who had actually done this and the full realisation of their actions and what it actually meant triggered it?
I wasn't going to post anything about this (re: Isla's attention whore thread
), but I just was hoping to hear from anyone who might have had a similar experience or knows what might have caused it or what action I should take now..
Thanks..
Last night I was just sitting at the PC, and I was reading something about someone who had committed suicide by filling their pockets with stones, tying their hands and feet together and jumping into a lake. All of a sudden, I just felt extremely sick and my head began to pound. The next thing I knew, I was coming to on the floor. I was sweating buckets, all over my body (I cannot remember ever having been sweating SO much). It took me a minute or so to realise where I was and what had happened. I must have blacked out and fallen off the chair onto the floor, although I have no recollection of any of this.
I then clambered into bed and just went to sleep straight away.
This morning, I noticed that I've got a 6 inch gash down the inside of my thigh. I just checked my bed sheets and they're covered with blood
I just really don't know why this might have happened. I hadn't been drinking, and I'd eaten fairly well yesterday. As a few of you may know, I've been a bit depressed recently (well, over the last 6 months really) and I must admit, the thought of taking my own life has entered my head once or twice, although I don't think I would ever seriously attempt it. Maybe reading about someone who had actually done this and the full realisation of their actions and what it actually meant triggered it?
I wasn't going to post anything about this (re: Isla's attention whore thread
Thanks..
