This is a strange story I think. I'd post this in LandR, but thats not really where I'm going with this. I'm just curious how to interpret the odds, and the event itself. This could just as easily apply to something that doesnt involve love or a relationship...
so I was laying in bed late at night. I guess you could say I had gotten in a disagreement with a new, good friend. Typically she would call me in the morning and wake me up, or if we talked late it would only be until about 2am.
Anyways, so I'm laying there, its like 3am, for some reason I was missing this girl bad, and as I was drifting in and out of sleep. I can remember laying there, feeling like an asshole and the only thing I wanted to do was talk to this girl.
My mom told me once that when she really wants to pray, she just imagines she crawls up like a little kid in front of God, with completely humility and prays. So in my mind I did that. I don't know why at that moment I was driven to want to talk to this girl so bad. I think it was because I knew I screwed up, and I gave her a reason to never talk to me again. I've been completely stressed out and totally laid some bs on this girl that she really doesnt need.
Anyways, so I laid there half asleep, and I gave a humble prayer. I never ask for much. And I didn't just curl up to pray for her, I did it because I was stressed out. I know that whenever I talk to this girl, my attitude changes and I feel better. Bottom line though, I've never learned to expect a call from her late at night.. At least not at 3am.
So I prayed something along the lines of, "God, I'm stressed out. I see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I don't know if I can continue to take the pressure. I'm alone. And it seems the only thing that makes me happy lately is when I'm with this girl, or at least talking to her. And because of this stress, I think I just pushed her away and thats the last thing I want. I've totally acted needy, and thats really not how I am. She's something special to me, and I'm just not happy with the situation she's in, and its got me stressed. God, I want so badly to talk to this girl. I know I'm asking to much, because she would never call me this late, and its too late for me to call her."
Then, seconds later she called. I looked at my phone thinking "are you serious, this didnt just happen" but it did. She even said she felt weirdly motivated to call me. She was in a great, giddy mood, and all I did was listen to her be happy and start to fall asleep on the phone, then I hung up, fell asleep and had a good dream about her. I can't explain how good that made me feel. I actually woke up from the dream and thought the whole prayer then call thing was part of it, until I checked my phone logs.
But still the point is.. wtf.. did I just pray for someone to call then hear my phone ring? We don't talk THAT much for that to randomly happen.. I don't think.. I mean the call came right after I told myself in the prayer that it would never happen.... So its like God said "touche" -- > here yea go.
so I was laying in bed late at night. I guess you could say I had gotten in a disagreement with a new, good friend. Typically she would call me in the morning and wake me up, or if we talked late it would only be until about 2am.
Anyways, so I'm laying there, its like 3am, for some reason I was missing this girl bad, and as I was drifting in and out of sleep. I can remember laying there, feeling like an asshole and the only thing I wanted to do was talk to this girl.
My mom told me once that when she really wants to pray, she just imagines she crawls up like a little kid in front of God, with completely humility and prays. So in my mind I did that. I don't know why at that moment I was driven to want to talk to this girl so bad. I think it was because I knew I screwed up, and I gave her a reason to never talk to me again. I've been completely stressed out and totally laid some bs on this girl that she really doesnt need.
Anyways, so I laid there half asleep, and I gave a humble prayer. I never ask for much. And I didn't just curl up to pray for her, I did it because I was stressed out. I know that whenever I talk to this girl, my attitude changes and I feel better. Bottom line though, I've never learned to expect a call from her late at night.. At least not at 3am.
So I prayed something along the lines of, "God, I'm stressed out. I see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I don't know if I can continue to take the pressure. I'm alone. And it seems the only thing that makes me happy lately is when I'm with this girl, or at least talking to her. And because of this stress, I think I just pushed her away and thats the last thing I want. I've totally acted needy, and thats really not how I am. She's something special to me, and I'm just not happy with the situation she's in, and its got me stressed. God, I want so badly to talk to this girl. I know I'm asking to much, because she would never call me this late, and its too late for me to call her."
Then, seconds later she called. I looked at my phone thinking "are you serious, this didnt just happen" but it did. She even said she felt weirdly motivated to call me. She was in a great, giddy mood, and all I did was listen to her be happy and start to fall asleep on the phone, then I hung up, fell asleep and had a good dream about her. I can't explain how good that made me feel. I actually woke up from the dream and thought the whole prayer then call thing was part of it, until I checked my phone logs.
But still the point is.. wtf.. did I just pray for someone to call then hear my phone ring? We don't talk THAT much for that to randomly happen.. I don't think.. I mean the call came right after I told myself in the prayer that it would never happen.... So its like God said "touche" -- > here yea go.
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