Hate. Long time hate. Could you? Do you want to? Even mature people can snap...

[Moonbeam]

Much much much better to post about it and talk about it than do it. It's holding it all inside that's much worce than expressing it. I for won am glad you did. It's maybe because the feelings don't scare me as much. I've beaten myself blue over them. What a relief.

 

[Moonbeam]

You have to believe in Christianity to believe in hell. Hehe, in every spiritual tradidtion the gates of paradice are preceded by a journey through hell. It is a psychic reality.

 

[Stark]

Originally posted by: Moonbeam
Much much much better to post about it and talk about it than do it. It's holding it all inside that's much worce than expressing it. I for won am glad you did. It's maybe because the feelings don't scare me as much. I've beaten myself blue over them. What a relief.

see mike, it's not so bad. One day you might even turn out like moonie. 😛

 

[MichaelD]

I went for a long drive. A really long drive. Like almost to the next state over, long drive. 🙂

I sincerely appreciate all the comments, condemnations, concerns and cacophonistic collaborations of encouragement. (damn....big words. 😀) I'm allright. I talk a lot. All the time. Even in my sleep. I just talk. I think as I was emerging from the womb, I was yelling at the doctor about something or other. 😉

It's all about CONTROL, people; i.e. not acting out your thoughts. You can SAY or WRITE whatever the fvck you want to. As long as you don't actually go out there and DO it, you're fine.

I'll let you all in on a little secret; those people with that piece of paper on the wall that says "Certified Family Counselor" or "Accredited Board Psychiatrist" aren't any smarter than you or I.

They just have a piece of paper that says they paid a whole lot of money so they can legally charge you a whole lot of money to make them listen to you rant and rave. 🙂 They are no better, smarter OR better equipped to deal w/your problems than you are.

We all have the key inside of us. The key that enables us to control our emotions. I explode verbally. Some explode physically; ie. fatal domestic violence, etc.

Thank you all for listening to me. The rantings of a madman, eh? Nahhhhh, not really. 😉 Dented? Yes. Mad? Nahhhhhhh.

 

[Geekbabe]

The problem with that kind of hate is that it only hurts the one who's feeling it and allowing it to own them.

 

[MeanMeosh]

Originally posted by: MichaelD
It's all about CONTROL, people; i.e. not acting out your thoughts. You can SAY or WRITE whatever the fvck you want to. As long as you don't actually go out there and DO it, you're fine.

cha-ching 😛

 

[Moonbeam]

Simon and Garfunkel

I am a Rock

A winter's day, in a deep and dark December, I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On (a) freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock, I am an island.

I've built walls, A fortress deep and mighty, That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship, friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock, I am an island.

Don't talk of love, but I've heard the words before,
It's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock, I am an island.

I have my books, and my poetry to protect me,
I am shielded in my armor, Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock, I am an island.

And a rock feels no pain, and an island never cries.

 

[JEDI]

Originally posted by: MichaelD
Have you ever hated, I mean, truly, deeply, w/o remorse hated another human being? Seriously. I'm not talking to you geeks that are still in HS. I know you're pissed b/c the captain of the football team pissed in your coke on prom night.

I'm talking to the adults out there...that have been tormented, hounded, berated, belittled, scorned and just generally sh!tted on by someone.

Have they caused you immense financial grief? Have they fvcked with your career? Your family? Don't you want them...well, no longer breathing?

Don't you want to do it yourself? Not with a gun or knife. With your hands. Both of them..wrapped tightly and w/o relent around the larynx of the pissant that has tormented you?

I do. Oh, I think about it. And I'm afraid...of what I might do someday. I don't need help. I am very, very, very conscious of what I am thinking...it's illegal.

But is it immoral? You need to see the last x-number of years through my eyes...you might just agree with me. Legal implications? They don't even come into play here. That's how deep this hate goes. Jesus himself wouldn't touch my mind with a ten-foot pole right now.....

um..your ex-wife again?

 

[Maleficus]

Originally posted by: XFILE

Originally posted by: MichaelD
Have you ever hated, I mean, truly, deeply, w/o remorse hated another human being? Seriously. I'm not talking to you geeks that are still in HS. I know you're pissed b/c the captain of the football team pissed in your coke on prom night.

I'm talking to the adults out there...that have been tormented, hounded, berated, belittled, scorned and just generally sh!tted on by someone.

Have they caused you immense financial grief? Have they fvcked with your career? Your family? Don't you want them...well, no longer breathing?

Don't you want to do it yourself? Not with a gun or knife. With your hands. Both of them..wrapped tightly and w/o relent around the larynx of the pissant that has tormented you?

I do. Oh, I think about it. And I'm afraid...of what I might do someday. I don't need help. I am very, very, very conscious of what I am thinking...it's illegal.

But is it immoral? You need to see the last x-number of years through my eyes...you might just agree with me. Legal implications? They don't even come into play here. That's how deep this hate goes. Jesus himself wouldn't touch my mind with a ten-foot pole right now.....

um..your ex-wife again?

dang your a quick one, especially with all the other posts stating the same thing 🙂

 

[FuzzyBee]

yes. a former boss of mine that, after i kept her kids for a week, told me that she couldn't trust me. she then gave me "the lowest raise she could possibly give me" and forced me to resign.

i hate her.

 

[JEDI]

Originally posted by: Maleficus

Originally posted by: XFILE

Originally posted by: MichaelD
Have you ever hated, I mean, truly, deeply, w/o remorse hated another human being? Seriously. I'm not talking to you geeks that are still in HS. I know you're pissed b/c the captain of the football team pissed in your coke on prom night.

I'm talking to the adults out there...that have been tormented, hounded, berated, belittled, scorned and just generally sh!tted on by someone.

Have they caused you immense financial grief? Have they fvcked with your career? Your family? Don't you want them...well, no longer breathing?

Don't you want to do it yourself? Not with a gun or knife. With your hands. Both of them..wrapped tightly and w/o relent around the larynx of the pissant that has tormented you?

I do. Oh, I think about it. And I'm afraid...of what I might do someday. I don't need help. I am very, very, very conscious of what I am thinking...it's illegal.

But is it immoral? You need to see the last x-number of years through my eyes...you might just agree with me. Legal implications? They don't even come into play here. That's how deep this hate goes. Jesus himself wouldn't touch my mind with a ten-foot pole right now.....

um..your ex-wife again?

dang your a quick one, especially with all the other posts stating the same thing 🙂

it's 2am. i wasnt going to read the entire thread. but after i closed the window, i got seriously worried about MichaelD. and read the rest of it.

MichaelD- hypothetical question...who would take care of your son if both your ex and you could no longer take care of him?

and..umm..i've read that life insurance policies don't pay for suicides unless you've been w/them for at least 2 years, but it'll still be a b1tch to get them to pay

 

[DeRusto]

Originally posted by: idNut

Originally posted by: MichaelD
Not a "devil worshipper." I'm a nothing worshipper. Well, then again...whatever entity can make it all go away...I'll sell my soul to. It's not chemicals, it's not alcohol...God knows (I guess...) that it is not sex....allthough I keep trying that one.....

Take your religion and stick it up your blind, sheep-nose-to-sheep-@ss nose. How about that, bible-boy?

Hold on. How could Dante's Inferno be your favorite book if it parallels Christianity's hell and you don't believe (I'm assuming "Take your religion...") in it. You have to believe in Christianity to believe in its hell.

Who says you have to actively practice the ideals presented in literature in order to read about them?