why did I even ask this question
I was listening to a radio interview of a female agent yesterday and it sounded so cool.
however, I guess if you were, you wouldn't admit to it on an online forum...
why did I even ask this question
I was listening to a radio interview of a female agent yesterday and it sounded so cool.
however, I guess if you were, you wouldn't admit to it on an online forum...
why did I even ask this question
so you are.That kind of stuff is almost always less glamorous in real life than in our imaginations.
I was offered an internship at the NSA when I was graduating from high school in the late 90's. At the time I was like, why would I want to do that? Still kicking myself.
I was listening to a radio interview of a female agent yesterday and it sounded so cool.
It's not nearly as grandiose as you think. I've been in those rooms they show in the movies, the ones with TVs along most of the walls, big conference tables with people shouting about the DNS getting hacked with a coaxial vampire loopback ping...
...It's #@$%ing boring. No, really, it is. The movies make everything sound cooler than it actually is.
As far as the dream of being a badass field agent running around like an action hero, that woman probably has things that haunt her every day and she can't talk about it to ANYONE because it's classified. I'm sure she didn't talk about the friends she's lost, the things she's seen, worrying about family getting hurt...
I can say this about how my brief stay overseas as a contractor effected me:
I stopped counting how many times I was almost shot/blown up after the fifth time.
I twitch every time a door slams or something is dropped.
I hate being in crowed places now because I can't relax... I'm always scanning the room looking for something out of place.
First six months home I was mad at everything and I drove some friends away for a while.
For a year after I got back I couldn't sleep, dreams shook me awake.
I'm just now feeling like a "normal" person again.
All that was just from six months back in 2011, and I was the guy running AWAY from the explosions. It takes a special kind of person to deal with that kind of life and not let it consume them; it's not like the movies at all.
I was never a CIA agent, but I was a Mossad agent. I was personally responsible for the 9-11 attacks in NYC.
It's not nearly as grandiose as you think. I've been in those rooms they show in the movies, the ones with TVs along most of the walls, big conference tables with people shouting about the DNS getting hacked with a coaxial vampire loopback ping...
...It's #@$%ing boring. No, really, it is. The movies make everything sound cooler than it actually is.
As far as the dream of being a badass field agent running around like an action hero, that woman probably has things that haunt her every day and she can't talk about it to ANYONE because it's classified. I'm sure she didn't talk about the friends she's lost, the things she's seen, worrying about family getting hurt...
I can say this about how my brief stay overseas as a contractor effected me:
I stopped counting how many times I was almost shot/blown up after the fifth time.
I twitch every time a door slams or something is dropped.
I hate being in crowed places now because I can't relax... I'm always scanning the room looking for something out of place.
First six months home I was mad at everything and I drove some friends away for a while.
For a year after I got back I couldn't sleep, dreams shook me awake.
I'm just now feeling like a "normal" person again.
All that was just from six months back in 2011, and I was the guy running AWAY from the explosions. It takes a special kind of person to deal with that kind of life and not let it consume them; it's not like the movies at all.