Originally posted by: Syrch
Originally posted by: Oiprocs
Originally posted by: Judgement
Originally posted by: her209
I'm still trying to figure out why "that didn't count" comes off as clever and/or funny.
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seconded
Yep. Not a clue.
It's a...n/m....for some reason it comes off as very coy and cute in spanish but in english it doesn't make sense. One has to assume that they are being VERY playful when they say that....otherwise, yeah, it doesn't make sense.
So on to today...massive undertaking (some festival we had to put on and that I was the lead in)
So many people gave me so much conflicting advice that I was just overwhelmed and said 'ah fvk it'...until I saw her.
damn I have a weak spot.
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I am not being a little bitch at all or anything around her and am frankly, being normal, keeping my cool and stuff, acting normally (except to the person I am talking to when she walks into view....I get *distracted*), but once she arrives I am fine. THe thing is peopel are telign me that I need to give her attention but not too much...and then it turns out someone heard that she has a boyfriend..or that it's not owrth it because she's out of my league etc....
I was chill, talking to the bands, and giving appropriate attention to everyone, her, friends, profs, stage people...acting normally...being myself basically (took a lot of will
I have tried to balance placating to her needs and mine (she wanted to eat together but I had to finish cleaning up after the event) and we still ended up eating together with friends and such...and I gave her a gift...I bought a cd from a latin rock performer (signed of course) as she left.
So then more criticism from the peanut gallery.
dude:NO..you shouldn't give them gifts..you can't buy her off and that will in the end be bought of (she seems very humble and the general consensus is that she can't be bought off that easily or even hard..or even at all...to an extent)
my response was that: well I did it in sort of a casual way...she missed the concert and I liked the band so I wanted to share it with her since i thought she'd like it (genuinely...the performance was awesome)
I got a lot of flack for that
😛 No details given...I got fvkign CHEWED out for doing that by EVERYONE:laugh:
So then one of these geniuses says the magic words: maybe the fact that she isn't giving you an answer is your answer.
that was deep man. hit me like a freight train. I thought about it while I was taking care of stuff, and then, when someone else said it again.....I realized one thing.
and that one thing made me happy.
It was that, regardless of who I am, and who she is (kind of hard to disregard that
😉 but I tried) I am having fun and am happy going after her.
It isn't an ideal, and I am walking a fine line(?) between success/failure and delusion, but the fact is, that I am happy, and that's all that matters.
As I told the last friend I spoke to who told me just to wait.....and that maybe I don't have a chance....that's not the point.
I see somethign I want. I see somethign beautiful. a beautiful relationship with a beautiful person (inside and out) and I won't live my life with regrets.
Sure that lack of an answer is a total-mindfvk in an of itself and is basically like playing with fire, but I will never live it down if I don't try.
Well...yeah...that was my day....I have NO FVKING CLUE where I stand with her....if I listen to what everyone said, I should believe that I am fvked, but you know what....
I'm gonna chill, go for a jog, and realize one thing...
tomorrow I have some important job interviews...
and right now I have a big genuine smile on my face....
delusion or not, a smile, at least for a moment, is better than none at all forever...
later
edit: and I told this to other friends and they said: you really hav ea thing for her don't yo?
them now you are TOTALLY fvked
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LOL:laugh: gotta love the games women play
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