Well, what can I say, I haven't had the greatest past year. Between all that my mother has suffered through, and my pathetic college tenure thus far, its kinda sucked. Alas, thats life though, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I've hardly seen any of my friends (and several of them go to the same college I do), and my best friend, turned roommate has been sometimes disappointing as well. I really miss just sitting around playing video games with friends or watching movies and just hanging out.
I'm kinda regretting my decision to go here (Kansas State), as I don't seem to fit in that well. I was going to go into engineering, and was even in the honors program (in fact even in an elite group within that as well) my first semester, when I became incredibly disgusted with the conceited people that were there as well. I went from enjoying math and science to despising it, and got put on academic probation after my lackluster grades (I never used to get below a B, but ended up with 3 Ds). My second semester was a lot better (I had switched over to art classes), but still something was lacking. Work has consumed almost all of my energy and time this summer. I guess I could best explain it as feeling kinda out of place.
I can't help but wonder if I didn't just punk out by not pursuing my dream. I had originally planned on attending the Art Center College of Design in Pasadena and study Transportation/Product Design. I guess I got scared and whimped out though. Going from a town of around 3000 people to such a huge city was too much. Also, with $10,000 per semester tuition, no dorm (thus having to find my own place and way of getting to campus), and having no one I knew anywhere near me, it was just too much of a change.
Well, just felt like ranting a bit. Sorry for being a "whiny biznatch".
Despite not being in the best of spirit, I am perfectly content for now. Also, while I might have whimped out thus far, I realize that I'm only 19 and have a full life ahead of me.
So I say to you AT, from the man himself to the noobs, peace out, and best wishes to you all.
I'm kinda regretting my decision to go here (Kansas State), as I don't seem to fit in that well. I was going to go into engineering, and was even in the honors program (in fact even in an elite group within that as well) my first semester, when I became incredibly disgusted with the conceited people that were there as well. I went from enjoying math and science to despising it, and got put on academic probation after my lackluster grades (I never used to get below a B, but ended up with 3 Ds). My second semester was a lot better (I had switched over to art classes), but still something was lacking. Work has consumed almost all of my energy and time this summer. I guess I could best explain it as feeling kinda out of place.
I can't help but wonder if I didn't just punk out by not pursuing my dream. I had originally planned on attending the Art Center College of Design in Pasadena and study Transportation/Product Design. I guess I got scared and whimped out though. Going from a town of around 3000 people to such a huge city was too much. Also, with $10,000 per semester tuition, no dorm (thus having to find my own place and way of getting to campus), and having no one I knew anywhere near me, it was just too much of a change.
Well, just felt like ranting a bit. Sorry for being a "whiny biznatch".
Despite not being in the best of spirit, I am perfectly content for now. Also, while I might have whimped out thus far, I realize that I'm only 19 and have a full life ahead of me.
So I say to you AT, from the man himself to the noobs, peace out, and best wishes to you all.
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