I've spent the last year talking to you even though you never replied. I know you were listening, the look in your eyes said it all. Sure, there were times when I was upset with you, when I wondered how we had ever met, but those times passed quickly. Never once did you dissapoint me, always making me smile when I was down. Now I'm down and you can't make the hurt go away. I didn't want it to end like this, not in a million years. I look where you used to stay, sleeping in your favorite corner. Empty. Just like I feel right now. I wish things could have been different, maybe if I had worked a little harder or longer, maybe if I had begged and pleaded I wouldn't have to give you up. But I did. All the while trying to keep a smile on my face. Everyone said how beautiful you were, told me what a wonderful job I had done of raising you. That doesn't matter anymore. I never did it to please them anyways. All I feel is empty. I left my number, told them to call me if you got sick. I will stop by every chance I get, hoping every day that you will remember me. I took pictures lastnight, knowing what I had planned for you. You knew, the look said it all. Now I sit and cry. All your friends miss you, it's not the same anymore.
If you've never talked to someone for a year, knowing they would never talk back to you, you might not understand. The friend that I have lost is a fish. He was my companion when noone else was around, or when I just needed to feel ok. I live in an apartment, therefore I have a shortage of available space. This fish had grown to be 16" long. I only have a 38gallon tank. Too small. I know, I know, "It's just a fish!" Sure, to you it is just a fish. To me it was my best friend.
There were complications on the trip back to the pet shop. When I arrived with my beloved pet, he wasn't doing very well. It was hard removing him from the tank, what with his size and all. He was floating upside down in the cooler that was his last ride with me. I did all that I could, I thought it would be for the better. He was doing a little better when I left the shop an hour later, but still had noticeable signs of stress. I left my number with them, they all know who I am. I just hope he makes it through the night. Laugh if you will, but I feel empty inside. Just had to get it out and say goodbye to my best friend.
If you've never talked to someone for a year, knowing they would never talk back to you, you might not understand. The friend that I have lost is a fish. He was my companion when noone else was around, or when I just needed to feel ok. I live in an apartment, therefore I have a shortage of available space. This fish had grown to be 16" long. I only have a 38gallon tank. Too small. I know, I know, "It's just a fish!" Sure, to you it is just a fish. To me it was my best friend.
There were complications on the trip back to the pet shop. When I arrived with my beloved pet, he wasn't doing very well. It was hard removing him from the tank, what with his size and all. He was floating upside down in the cooler that was his last ride with me. I did all that I could, I thought it would be for the better. He was doing a little better when I left the shop an hour later, but still had noticeable signs of stress. I left my number with them, they all know who I am. I just hope he makes it through the night. Laugh if you will, but I feel empty inside. Just had to get it out and say goodbye to my best friend.
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