Alright, I just got back in for the night, and I figured I'd post this on here to see what you fellows think.
All the sophmores at my college (I go to a Christian college) had this thing tonight at this community center where they have these cool pools, water slides, etc. and then they had volleyball, sumo wrestling suits, and that fun stuff. Its one of those dealies where its open all night basically and people can leave when they want to.
Well, when I got there we listened to a speaker for about an hour. Then after that I fooled around a bit and shot some hoops (a few ppl were shootin hoops but no one wanted to play a game) and talked to some ppl, but then all of a sudden...
everyone went swimming.
now dont get me wrong, I think swimming can be fun. But its not so fun when you are so self conscious about yourself and your body. I am 20 years old, and looked a lot better when I was 18, than I do right now. I used to play sports and stuff, but now that I'm in college I'm no longer good enough for any college sports, so I'm not as active, and of course I've gained a little bit of weight since the end of highschool (probably like 15 pounds)
I'm 5'9" used to weigh 160 and look alright. now I weigh 175 and dont look that pleasant. I'm not fat, but I am kinda flabby.
Anyways, I decided not to go swimming just because I didnt feel like showing off my flab (and the pool was going to close in 2 hours). I'm self conscious of the way I look, especially around women, and there are a lot of women at my college that are in good shape. Being in shape at my college is kind of the thing, ppl are focused on external appearances, nice clothes, their bodies, their hair, etc, (I go to a small school, about 2500 ppl)
Was this a bad idea, to skip out and leave at that point? (2 hours before things were gonna shut down) I had only been there for about an hour and a half.
I know that ppl tell me I'm not fat and that I shouldnt care and be as self conscious as I am, but I just cant help it.
I did not feel comfortable going into that pool. Especially with all the girls from my school that were in the water, and the guys standing around me that were in better shape than me.
All the sophmores at my college (I go to a Christian college) had this thing tonight at this community center where they have these cool pools, water slides, etc. and then they had volleyball, sumo wrestling suits, and that fun stuff. Its one of those dealies where its open all night basically and people can leave when they want to.
Well, when I got there we listened to a speaker for about an hour. Then after that I fooled around a bit and shot some hoops (a few ppl were shootin hoops but no one wanted to play a game) and talked to some ppl, but then all of a sudden...
everyone went swimming.
now dont get me wrong, I think swimming can be fun. But its not so fun when you are so self conscious about yourself and your body. I am 20 years old, and looked a lot better when I was 18, than I do right now. I used to play sports and stuff, but now that I'm in college I'm no longer good enough for any college sports, so I'm not as active, and of course I've gained a little bit of weight since the end of highschool (probably like 15 pounds)
I'm 5'9" used to weigh 160 and look alright. now I weigh 175 and dont look that pleasant. I'm not fat, but I am kinda flabby.
Anyways, I decided not to go swimming just because I didnt feel like showing off my flab (and the pool was going to close in 2 hours). I'm self conscious of the way I look, especially around women, and there are a lot of women at my college that are in good shape. Being in shape at my college is kind of the thing, ppl are focused on external appearances, nice clothes, their bodies, their hair, etc, (I go to a small school, about 2500 ppl)
Was this a bad idea, to skip out and leave at that point? (2 hours before things were gonna shut down) I had only been there for about an hour and a half.
I know that ppl tell me I'm not fat and that I shouldnt care and be as self conscious as I am, but I just cant help it.
I did not feel comfortable going into that pool. Especially with all the girls from my school that were in the water, and the guys standing around me that were in better shape than me.
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