I want to get away from all of this.. and the more i think about it, the more pissed off I get.
I don't blame anyone for this except myself... I messed up and avoided everyone i met my freshman year in college.... and I thought being by myself was the best solution at that time... but being a loner finally gets to you.
I have no friends, i feel like I get no respect from people I see, when my sister brings people over, I'm stuck in my room looking like some reclusive dork.
I seriously just want ONE MORE chance to make it work.
in school, i'm fvcking up. I'm hearing from people i know how they are getting straight A's and have internship positions lined up for the summer... while I'm getting C's and have a 2.5 gpa with no passion for a dream. Even today, I had all day to study and on the weekends, but i just CAN'T study. This frustrates me to no end. I guess I need some social life too... but who can I turn to when I made myself a loner?
I have three finals approaching fast.. and i haven't done jack sh!t.
I'm not sick of school, i'm sick of where I'm at.
I want to start over at a new place where I don't know anybody, and a new environment instead of some boring hick town.
I would LOVE to transfer to a different university in a different state but who would accept me with a less than 3.0 gpa? and of course, money is an issue. Here I am getting most of my tuition paid for but i don't think this would be possible anywhere else.
I don't know but i feel so empty inside. I thought i was happy this whole time but i realized i wasn't genuinely happy.
what am I to do?
I'm losing focus. I want a new start.
I don't blame anyone for this except myself... I messed up and avoided everyone i met my freshman year in college.... and I thought being by myself was the best solution at that time... but being a loner finally gets to you.
I have no friends, i feel like I get no respect from people I see, when my sister brings people over, I'm stuck in my room looking like some reclusive dork.
I seriously just want ONE MORE chance to make it work.
in school, i'm fvcking up. I'm hearing from people i know how they are getting straight A's and have internship positions lined up for the summer... while I'm getting C's and have a 2.5 gpa with no passion for a dream. Even today, I had all day to study and on the weekends, but i just CAN'T study. This frustrates me to no end. I guess I need some social life too... but who can I turn to when I made myself a loner?
I have three finals approaching fast.. and i haven't done jack sh!t.
I'm not sick of school, i'm sick of where I'm at.
I want to start over at a new place where I don't know anybody, and a new environment instead of some boring hick town.
I would LOVE to transfer to a different university in a different state but who would accept me with a less than 3.0 gpa? and of course, money is an issue. Here I am getting most of my tuition paid for but i don't think this would be possible anywhere else.
I don't know but i feel so empty inside. I thought i was happy this whole time but i realized i wasn't genuinely happy.
what am I to do?
I'm losing focus. I want a new start.
