Essay I wrote for not attending senior prom...

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crawford

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Jan 23, 2002
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Originally posted by: idNut
Originally posted by: FrogDog
So have you set a date yet for the suicide, or are you just going to play it by ear?

Edit - Seriously though (. . . .) I once was like you (just take it down about 20 notches), and then I grew up. Sorry, but it'll happen to you too.

You know, I realized I made my name sh!t on these forums but when is time to let it go? This forum is the only place (on the net and in real life) that shows any hatred for me. I know I post weird sh!t on here but this is the only place, the ONLY place that ever says I'm some stupid teen that doesn't know jack sh!t, that needs to grow up out of this depression bullsh!t and has this infamous "teen angst" crap you all love to throw at me. I had about fifty people read that essay and I got nothing but positive responses. It was from people on the internet to people I live around.

I just don't understand why I can't ever get one single positive reply from this forum. Coming here I'm just labeled psychotic. I mean other people read this saying it's profound, deep and brooding and that I should try and get published. Here, teen angst, teen angst, pseudo-intellectual, pseudo-philosophical, psudeo-everything. I question if you all have no conception of my work, are simply ignorant to it and quick to insult or just using me as a target to shoot your own insecurities at. I really don't know.

Well, if it makes you feel any better, I rarely post here, and I didnt even come into this thread with any preconcieved notions about you, and just from reading your paper I labeled you a psycho.

 

Legendary

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Jan 22, 2002
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Originally posted by: fyleow
Originally posted by: idNut
Originally posted by: FrogDog
So have you set a date yet for the suicide, or are you just going to play it by ear?

Edit - Seriously though (. . . .) I once was like you (just take it down about 20 notches), and then I grew up. Sorry, but it'll happen to you too.

You know, I realized I made my name sh!t on these forums but when is time to let it go? This forum is the only place (on the net and in real life) that shows any hatred for me. I know I post weird sh!t on here but this is the only place, the ONLY place that ever says I'm some stupid teen that doesn't know jack sh!t, that needs to grow up out of this depression bullsh!t and has this infamous "teen angst" crap you all love to throw at me. I had about fifty people read that essay and I got nothing but positive responses. It was from people on the internet to people I live around.

I just don't understand why I can't ever get one single positive reply from this forum. Coming here I'm just labeled psychotic. I mean other people read this saying it's profound, deep and brooding and that I should try and get published. Here, teen angst, teen angst, pseudo-intellectual, pseudo-philosophical, psudeo-everything. I question if you all have no conception of my work, are simply ignorant to it and quick to insult or just using me as a target to shoot your own insecurities at. I really don't know.

Because on the forums nobody gives a sh!t about you. We don't give a sh!t about your feelings, we don't care who the hell you are. We wil give you brutal honesty.

This is hardly an exaggeration. The same reason that people can be assholes on the internet is the same reason we can be completely honest with you on the internet. Honesty has its downfalls if there's a name attached. Here, it's just an avatar and a nick.
 

Dragnov

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Apr 24, 2001
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I didn't go to my Senior Prom.

Though I did go to my Junior Prom, and Senior Winter Formal...

P.S. I don't consider you pscyho or anything is wrong with you. You sound like a teenager, which you are. I was like that at times... heck I was like that often in college. It's true that you'll get over those feelings in a few years also though. But I'm not going to tell you to grow up or anything. Theres A LOT of old, bitter folk here on ATOT who think they were perfect little angels when they were young for some reason.

You'll look back often and go "damn what the hell was I thinking?!" God knows I have. :p Meh, that's life and a part of growing up.
 

idNut

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Jun 9, 2002
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Originally posted by: crawford
Originally posted by: idNut
Originally posted by: FrogDog
So have you set a date yet for the suicide, or are you just going to play it by ear?

Edit - Seriously though (. . . .) I once was like you (just take it down about 20 notches), and then I grew up. Sorry, but it'll happen to you too.

You know, I realized I made my name sh!t on these forums but when is time to let it go? This forum is the only place (on the net and in real life) that shows any hatred for me. I know I post weird sh!t on here but this is the only place, the ONLY place that ever says I'm some stupid teen that doesn't know jack sh!t, that needs to grow up out of this depression bullsh!t and has this infamous "teen angst" crap you all love to throw at me. I had about fifty people read that essay and I got nothing but positive responses. It was from people on the internet to people I live around.

I just don't understand why I can't ever get one single positive reply from this forum. Coming here I'm just labeled psychotic. I mean other people read this saying it's profound, deep and brooding and that I should try and get published. Here, teen angst, teen angst, pseudo-intellectual, pseudo-philosophical, psudeo-everything. I question if you all have no conception of my work, are simply ignorant to it and quick to insult or just using me as a target to shoot your own insecurities at. I really don't know.

Well, if it makes you feel any better, I rarely post here, and I didnt even come into this thread with any preconcieved notions about you, and just from reading your paper I labeled you a psycho.

If that's true then so is the poem at the end of my essay.
 

beer

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Jun 27, 2000
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I don't know you at all, idNut. I don't really associate anything with you or your prior posts just because I don't read all that much from any specific person.

You have emotional problems. You are a good writer and you wouldn't have posted it here unless you wanted people to think something about you. You probably posted it so people would commend your individuality and your writing skill but that didn't happen and now you're pissed. There are people like you in every high school and we all knew them and didn't give two sh!ts abotut them either.

The world is what you make of it. If you go into college thinking like you wrote iny our paper, inevitably you'll have problems. The bigger of a school you go to, the less people will care about you, it's the big-city mentality all over again. If you want people to like you then YOU need to be outgoing, they just won't come to you - it doesn't work that way for anyone. And it's not healthy to think like you do, if your paper is how you truly feel. See a psych.
 

BD2003

Lifer
Oct 9, 1999
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Originally posted by: idNut
Originally posted by: FrogDog
So have you set a date yet for the suicide, or are you just going to play it by ear?

Edit - Seriously though (. . . .) I once was like you (just take it down about 20 notches), and then I grew up. Sorry, but it'll happen to you too.

You know, I realized I made my name sh!t on these forums but when is time to let it go? This forum is the only place (on the net and in real life) that shows any hatred for me. I know I post weird sh!t on here but this is the only place, the ONLY place that ever says I'm some stupid teen that doesn't know jack sh!t, that needs to grow up out of this depression bullsh!t and has this infamous "teen angst" crap you all love to throw at me. I had about fifty people read that essay and I got nothing but positive responses. It was from people on the internet to people I live around.

I just don't understand why I can't ever get one single positive reply from this forum. Coming here I'm just labeled psychotic. I mean other people read this saying it's profound, deep and brooding and that I should try and get published. Here, teen angst, teen angst, pseudo-intellectual, pseudo-philosophical, psudeo-everything. I question if you all have no conception of my work, are simply ignorant to it and quick to insult or just using me as a target to shoot your own insecurities at. I really don't know.

Because its a hell of a lot easier to call someone a freak over the internet than to do it to their face. Pity gets in the way.

Seriously dude, take it easy! Now youre being delusional about being delusional.

 

AreaCode707

Lifer
Sep 21, 2001
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Originally posted by: fyleow
Originally posted by: idNut
Originally posted by: FrogDog
So have you set a date yet for the suicide, or are you just going to play it by ear?

Edit - Seriously though (. . . .) I once was like you (just take it down about 20 notches), and then I grew up. Sorry, but it'll happen to you too.

You know, I realized I made my name sh!t on these forums but when is time to let it go? This forum is the only place (on the net and in real life) that shows any hatred for me. I know I post weird sh!t on here but this is the only place, the ONLY place that ever says I'm some stupid teen that doesn't know jack sh!t, that needs to grow up out of this depression bullsh!t and has this infamous "teen angst" crap you all love to throw at me. I had about fifty people read that essay and I got nothing but positive responses. It was from people on the internet to people I live around.

I just don't understand why I can't ever get one single positive reply from this forum. Coming here I'm just labeled psychotic. I mean other people read this saying it's profound, deep and brooding and that I should try and get published. Here, teen angst, teen angst, pseudo-intellectual, pseudo-philosophical, psudeo-everything. I question if you all have no conception of my work, are simply ignorant to it and quick to insult or just using me as a target to shoot your own insecurities at. I really don't know.

Because on the forums nobody gives a sh!t about you. We don't give a sh!t about your feelings, we don't care who the hell you are. We wil give you brutal honesty.

Speak for yourself. There are human beings on the internet, as you might occasionally find elsewhere, if you know where to look.

Nice essay, fine choice, and your reasoning, as it needs be justified by nobody else, is sufficient unto itself. Prom isn't anything special (went to one with my then-boyfriend, as I didn't go to high school) and I think your essay takes a step back and criticizes people and their attitudes towards it fairly, since it does seem to be a step back and not the defining issue of your life, nor an absolute in the way you see people at large.

I hope you find an awesome book to read on prom night. May I suggest (in good part because I think it's ATOT's most hated book, and in part because it's awesome) "Wuthering Heights"?
 

Legendary

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Jan 22, 2002
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Originally posted by: idNut
Originally posted by: crawford
Originally posted by: idNut
Originally posted by: FrogDog
So have you set a date yet for the suicide, or are you just going to play it by ear?

Edit - Seriously though (. . . .) I once was like you (just take it down about 20 notches), and then I grew up. Sorry, but it'll happen to you too.

You know, I realized I made my name sh!t on these forums but when is time to let it go? This forum is the only place (on the net and in real life) that shows any hatred for me. I know I post weird sh!t on here but this is the only place, the ONLY place that ever says I'm some stupid teen that doesn't know jack sh!t, that needs to grow up out of this depression bullsh!t and has this infamous "teen angst" crap you all love to throw at me. I had about fifty people read that essay and I got nothing but positive responses. It was from people on the internet to people I live around.

I just don't understand why I can't ever get one single positive reply from this forum. Coming here I'm just labeled psychotic. I mean other people read this saying it's profound, deep and brooding and that I should try and get published. Here, teen angst, teen angst, pseudo-intellectual, pseudo-philosophical, psudeo-everything. I question if you all have no conception of my work, are simply ignorant to it and quick to insult or just using me as a target to shoot your own insecurities at. I really don't know.

Well, if it makes you feel any better, I rarely post here, and I didnt even come into this thread with any preconcieved notions about you, and just from reading your paper I labeled you a psycho.

If that's true then so is the poem at the end of my essay.

Dickinson supposedly kept herself in her room for an extended period of time, and was most likely extremely depressed at the time of writing that poem you cited, since most of her poetry on death was written after the deaths of many of her friends.

Edit: To clarify, much of Dickinson's poetry was not published until after her death, and most of it was undated, so I can only speculate. Still, comparing yourself to Emily Dickinson suggests superior writing ability (which you have) but not stability.
 

idNut

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Jun 9, 2002
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I know all about Dickinson as well as the meaning of that poem and locked away in her room and depressed or not, it means something to me and I think it proves a very good point.
 

jhu

Lifer
Oct 10, 1999
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it's better to regret something you did do rather than regret something you didn't do. life is full of wonderful experiences, and you just missed one of them.
 

Ikonomi

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Dec 19, 2003
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Your writing is way, way too blustery and dramatic. Tone it down. Your essay is much too self-important.

I'm sorry you feel so angsty, though. Just don't let people get to you with their questions.
 

PHiuR

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Apr 24, 2001
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diddnt read the post. but humans are social animals. and we need others... ill leave it at that.
 

Legendary

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Jan 22, 2002
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Originally posted by: idNut
I know all about Dickinson as well as the meaning of that poem and locked away in her room and depressed or not, it means something to me and I think it proves a very good point.

Poetry PROVES nothing. It simply asserts an opinion.
You already believed what she wrote to be true before you read it, didn't you?
 

idNut

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Jun 9, 2002
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Originally posted by: Ikonomi
Your writing is way, way too blustery and dramatic. Tone it down. Your essay is much too self-important.

I'm sorry you feel so angsty, though. Just don't let people get to you with their questions.

I'll definitely agree with this response. I did notice this and I've been trying to correct it. But for God's sake will you all stop using the word 'angst' so much?
 

Yossarian

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Dec 26, 2000
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"It's been five minutes now of me denying and insisting and things may turn violent if they don't retreat or concede."

You are very disturbed emotionally. Even just skimming the nonsense you wrote leaves me with the feeling that you need professional help.
 

idNut

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Jun 9, 2002
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Originally posted by: Legendary
Originally posted by: idNut
I know all about Dickinson as well as the meaning of that poem and locked away in her room and depressed or not, it means something to me and I think it proves a very good point.

Poetry PROVES nothing. It simply asserts an opinion.
You already believed what she wrote to be true before you read it, didn't you?

What? I read the poem then I understood it and I hold it true because I can see where she was coming from.
 

Wuffsunie

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Originally posted by: idNut
This forum is the only place (on the net and in real life) that shows any hatred for me. I know I post weird sh!t on here but this is the only place, the ONLY place that ever says I'm some stupid teen that doesn't know jack sh!t, that needs to grow up out of this depression bullsh!t and has this infamous "teen angst" crap you all love to throw at me.
Then why are you still coming here? Masochistic tendencies? If you know well enough the reaction a piece like this will engender amongst us, why on earth would you bother with it in the first place, let along bitch about the results?
 

FrogDog

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Originally posted by: idNut
Originally posted by: Ikonomi
Your writing is way, way too blustery and dramatic. Tone it down. Your essay is much too self-important.

I'm sorry you feel so angsty, though. Just don't let people get to you with their questions.

I'll definitely agree with this response. I did notice this and I've been trying to correct it. But for God's sake will you all stop using the word 'angst' so much?
The truth hurts. :(

 

fyleow

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Jan 18, 2002
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Originally posted by: idNut
Originally posted by: Ikonomi
Your writing is way, way too blustery and dramatic. Tone it down. Your essay is much too self-important.

I'm sorry you feel so angsty, though. Just don't let people get to you with their questions.

I'll definitely agree with this response. I did notice this and I've been trying to correct it. But for God's sake will you all stop using the word 'angst' so much?

www.urbandictionary.com sums it up nicely

angst

1.What often teenage feel in their strugle to claim their individuality, often terminates with the coming of adulthood when they understand that they always were just another number in the mass of the faceless mediocrity.

 

idNut

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Originally posted by: Yossarian
"It's been five minutes now of me denying and insisting and things may turn violent if they don't retreat or concede."

You are very disturbed emotionally. Even just skimming the nonsense you wrote leaves me with the feeling that you need professional help.

For the record, I've been seeing a psychologist for three years now and he's diagnosed me with major depression. As far as violence is concern, I'm not violent at all. I never raise my voice, never hit people out of rage and that line was written to dramatize the situation, not accurately describe my character. Yes I seeth from people being so damned thick-headed but I don't ever get physical.
 

PHiuR

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Originally posted by: Wuffsunie
Originally posted by: idNut
This forum is the only place (on the net and in real life) that shows any hatred for me. I know I post weird sh!t on here but this is the only place, the ONLY place that ever says I'm some stupid teen that doesn't know jack sh!t, that needs to grow up out of this depression bullsh!t and has this infamous "teen angst" crap you all love to throw at me.
Then why are you still coming here? Masochistic tendencies? If you know well enough the reaction a piece like this will engender amongst us, why on earth would you bother with it in the first place, let along bitch about the results?

agreed. if you dont like this place so much why do you keep coming back?
 

Legendary

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Jan 22, 2002
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Originally posted by: fyleow
Originally posted by: idNut
Originally posted by: Ikonomi
Your writing is way, way too blustery and dramatic. Tone it down. Your essay is much too self-important.

I'm sorry you feel so angsty, though. Just don't let people get to you with their questions.

I'll definitely agree with this response. I did notice this and I've been trying to correct it. But for God's sake will you all stop using the word 'angst' so much?

www.urbandictionary.com sums it up nicely

angst

1.What often teenage feel in their strugle to claim their individuality, often terminates with the coming of adulthood when they understand that they always were just another number in the mass of the faceless mediocrity.

The beauty of urbandictionary is that it defines angst and then adds some more angst to the reader.
 

AreaCode707

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Sep 21, 2001
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Does anybody here comprehend the fact that writers, particularly in a piece like this, tend to assume a character? Not that the character includes ideas, thoughts, or feelings that the author doesn't have, but that those are presented in a fashion that aren't exactly literal? In keeping in the spirit in which this piece was written, you guys are WAY overreacting to what he wrote. I mean, come on. Disturbed, needing counseling? He wrote a freaking essay describing how stupid he thinks his peers and their rituals are. A fair portion of you probably agree that your peers in high school were pretty dang stupid. You may not have phrased it like he did, but he was in a certain position, using a certain medium, that you didn't share.

Get over yourselves already.