- Dec 11, 2002
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Well I used to completely not give a shit what people think of me. I found it easy to be myself and be comfortable with myself, and I was socially comfortable.
About 1.5yrs ago, I started to become self conscious. It was gradual, and I could feel myself more and more empty around people.
Eventually, I became so empty that I couldn't socialize with anyone. I was awkward around everyone and everyone was awkward around me.
I had a flood of self critical thoughts about myself. I smoked about a few times a month 1.5yrs ago... but ended up smoking several times a week about a year ago.
About half a year to a year ago, I realized that this self-criticalness wasn't really personal development, but rather was just personal destruction. I really tried to stop being self critical. It worked quite a bit, but I find that often when I smoke, I get self conscious thoughts flooding my mind again.
Anyone have similar experiences?
About 1.5yrs ago, I started to become self conscious. It was gradual, and I could feel myself more and more empty around people.
Eventually, I became so empty that I couldn't socialize with anyone. I was awkward around everyone and everyone was awkward around me.
I had a flood of self critical thoughts about myself. I smoked about a few times a month 1.5yrs ago... but ended up smoking several times a week about a year ago.
About half a year to a year ago, I realized that this self-criticalness wasn't really personal development, but rather was just personal destruction. I really tried to stop being self critical. It worked quite a bit, but I find that often when I smoke, I get self conscious thoughts flooding my mind again.
Anyone have similar experiences?