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Don't take it too personally.. as I was saying to Smokeball earlier, each of us has talents and gifts, and yes patience to deal with different aspects of the TeAm's needs. Maybe take a break from promoting and try tech-support, helping solve problems and get other's problems fixed.
Maybe help out the stats guys or just sit back and crunch units. Your contribution to the effort IS appreciated whether you see it typed or not. 
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Obviously my short post earlier did not do justice to the point I was trying to make. I am not angry (maybe a bit disappointed) that someone has left the team. That happens all the time. Nor was this some "I don't feel loved/appreciated, cheer me up" post. It is about me being angry with myself for wasting my time.
Over the past six months, I have seen a trend with the TeAm that I didn't particularly like. The different projects have started to take on a more isolationist attitude. I thought it was about time for someone to not only be concerned about the welfare of the TeAm as a whole, but to do something about it. So I started trying. But it seems that a majority of the people are only concerned with the projects that they work on. Pity.
Not that it is wrong to concentrate in a specific area. But if that is how the TeAm is going to operate, it will lose/never gain some good people who see the project they want to get inolved in portrayed as a we-do-that-project-just-to-say-we-do-it kind of project. Personally, I think I may soon find myself in this postion (except for the 'good people' part). After seeing the response to smaller projects' recruiting efforts, why would somebody want to waste the effort? When ECCp-109 is over, I will have to seriously consider if I
want to remain here---if it won't be a an endless cycle of wasted effort.
These feelings have been growing steadily over the past months, so I gave some thought as to how to improve the situation. I decided that the only way to feel better about the situation was to transcend individual projects and get an overall picture. So I made up a table of the rankings of all the projects in which the TeAm is involved. And I checked how we compared to other DC teams (I even made up a web page for everyone to see). As expected, in certain projects we compare well. In others, we fare mediocre at best. It seemed obvious to me that some of the smaller projects really needed some help.
So I came up with the following two ideas that I thought might help.
1) Find other members of the TeAm who would be willing to forgo any assocation with a particular project and who would be willing to work on any and all projects. Come up with a cool name. Determine a course of action to help the TeAm overall. For instance, help all projects to get ranked above 25th in the world.
2) Make a gauntlet race. Get people to enter a high profile race in which particpants must complete a certain amount of work in
each project in which TA is involved.
Frankly, I don't know why I ever bothered typing all of this, especially in a thread that 99.9% of the people won't read. Perhaps I want/expect too much. Wouldn't be the first time. So now that I haved bored anyone who bothered to read this, I will step down to my proper station, leave my grandiose plans behind and let the TeAm be what it will. After many months of frustration, I've learned that I can't do anything to change it.