Depression (Im at the lowest point of my life)

[Darkstar757]

Im soo devistated I thought she was different. I have had more heart break in the last two years than allot of people have in a life time. Suffering from depression has made it almost impossible for me to keep a heathy relationship as most women today wont take the time to work with me and try to understand what im going thru. The fact that Im having such heart break is not helping my depression situation at all. Last night was the lowest I have ever been in my life. I actually contemplated that the world would be a better place if I wasnt born. For those of you who are concerned I am not thinking of hurting myself nor would I ever do that. I just venting here because I have no other place to do it. I apologize to those who are tired of hearing my problems.

She left because she said she just didnt think we were a good fit or evenly yoked. Deep in side I know it was my depression that pushed her away. I am going to therapy next week and I have never had depression so bad that I needed medical treatment. After this spat Im scared that my condition my become worse or untreatable. I know that my mood swing can make me be moody from time to time. Aww man I just dont know how she could say she loved me, sleep with me etc and just leave me so calusly.

At this point the most diffcult thing is trying to figure out where do I go from here. It cant be normal for a guy to almost cry all night and not be able to sleep because of a women. Im so tired of being hurt I dont know If I will ever have a healthy relationship with a women again.



Darkstar

 

[Juice Box]

girls fvcking suck a lot of the time....stop worrying about them and start worrying about yourself

 

[chocobaR]

Stop being emo, girls don't like that.

 

Suffering from depression has made it almost impossible for me to keep a heathy relationship as most women today wont take the time to work with me and try to understand what im going thru

Of course they won't. They are with you to be your gf, not your therapist. If you expect them to be your therapist you are going to lose them everytime. No one wants to go out with someone in order to help carry and cure your emotional baggage. They are with you because they like YOU, not what you think you can become with their help.

Your approach will definatly fail everytime and you will end up alone if you don't realize and change that on your own.

 

[quakefiend420]

i feel ya man...i just broke up with my gf of almost 2 years about 11 hours ago...for your own good though...try to get your depression under control before you try to find somebody else...otherwise you may just end up pushing them away like your ex...

it'll get better bro, time heals

 

[Mr.IncrediblyBored]

Good luck getting better. Just remember, there is only up from here.:beer:

 

[PlatinumGold]

Originally posted by: SampSon

Suffering from depression has made it almost impossible for me to keep a heathy relationship as most women today wont take the time to work with me and try to understand what im going thru

Of course they won't. They are with you to be your gf, not your therapist. If you expect them to be your therapist you are going to lose them everytime. No one wants to go out with someone in order to help carry and cure your emotional baggage. They are with you because they like YOU, not what you think you can become with their help.

Your approach will definatly fail everytime and you will end up alone if you don't realize and change that on your own.

weird, most women get with men so they can mold them in their own image.

 

[angrycomputer]

Originally posted by: Darkstar757


At this point the most diffcult thing is trying to figure out where do I go from here. It cant be normal for a guy to almost cry all night and not be able to sleep because of a women. Im so tired of being hurt I dont know If I will ever have a healthy relationship with a women again.



Darkstar

I also suffered from depression for a quite similar reason. If you are crying all night, then you are probably moderately depressed. However, I am almost fully recovered right now. I have learned to not worry about the future so much, as worrying about the future of my relationships with women was one cause of my depression. Just be yourself and live for today.

 

[Fritzo]

Take a year or two off the relationships then.

 

[aidanjm]

sorry you're going through all that sadness and heart break

 

[her209]

How old are you?

 

[Darkstar757]

I am 25 years old

 

[angrycomputer]

Also, try not to think about past regrets. Just live in the Present Tense. Good pearl jam song. Download it. Don't feel bad for yourself, just move on. What's done is done.

 

[aidanjm]

this is the cliche advice in this situation, but are you certain there is no one in your life you could talk about this with? talking about this kind of stuff can be helpful for some people.

 

[tami]

it's happened to me, man. it sucks, but time will heal and medication, in your case, looks like it will help.

don't let it eat you. you need to be strong.

 

[Darkstar757]

I have been talking with friends and it has helped but the hurt in my heart is making it tought to deal with

 

[aidanjm]

Originally posted by: Darkstar757
I have been talking with friends and it has helped but the hurt in my heart is making it tought to deal with

you don't just get over big breakups like this, it is going to take lots of time for the pain and heartache to heal.

 

[glenn beck]

Originally posted by: Darkstar757
I have been talking with friends and it has helped but the hurt in my heart is making it tought to deal with

talk to a pastor of a church, just try it.

 

[moshquerade]

you have to love yourself before anyone can love you.

do you have anything going on in your life?
get involved with karate, volunteer to help out a charitiable cause, play some baseball/softball in an organized league, etc. . . do something to get yourself involved with something other than dwelling on your ex and being on the computer.

give yourself something to look forward to. planning a trip is a great diversion.

you gotta say to yourself that you are #1 and have some pride in that.

lastly, PM me anytime you want to talk.

 

[daveymark]

props to you for going to therapy, you should've done that a long time ago

 

[Aimster]

My girlfriend of 3 years left me 2 weeks ago. (we got on and off on and off for 2 months). I met her new boyfriend and everything.

It was the worst time of my life and still is. I still wake up today with a sick feeling inside of my stomach as if someone died.

I lost my job because of all this drama and I have to take summer courses so I could graduate this summer because I had to drop all my classes.

I dont think you love yourself. You are not happy with who you are and when you had her (or any girl) she made you feel great. Someone loved you and that put a smile on your face. That's how I am.. I guess.

just hang in there. everything will be better.

You live in D.C?. What are you doing for the 4th?

 

[Darkstar757]

Originally posted by: Aimster
My girlfriend of 3 years left me 2 weeks ago. (we got on and off on and off for 2 months). I met her new boyfriend and everything.

It was the worst time of my life and still is. I still wake up today with a sick feeling inside of my stomach as if someone died.

I lost my job because of all this drama and I have to take summer courses so I could graduate this summer because I had to drop all my classes.

I dont think you love yourself. You are not happy with who you are and when you had her (or any girl) she made you feel great. Someone loved you and that put a smile on your face. That's how I am.. I guess.

just hang in there. everything will be better.

You live in D.C?. What are you doing for the 4th?

i dont have any plans for the 4th and I I guess im not happy with myself because I cant seem to make anyone else happy. I do feel like someone died and my stomach is killing me.

 

[dmcowen674]

Originally posted by: Darkstar757

Originally posted by: Aimster
My girlfriend of 3 years left me 2 weeks ago. (we got on and off on and off for 2 months). I met her new boyfriend and everything.

It was the worst time of my life and still is. I still wake up today with a sick feeling inside of my stomach as if someone died.

I lost my job because of all this drama and I have to take summer courses so I could graduate this summer because I had to drop all my classes.

I dont think you love yourself. You are not happy with who you are and when you had her (or any girl) she made you feel great. Someone loved you and that put a smile on your face. That's how I am.. I guess.

just hang in there. everything will be better.

You live in D.C?. What are you doing for the 4th?

i dont have any plans for the 4th and I I guess im not happy with myself because I cant seem to make anyone else happy. I do feel like someone died and my stomach is killing me.

Cheer up Mate.

It was exactly a year ago I was tossed out in the trash after 14 years of marriage.

I'm still here and you will be too. Meet up with a fellow ATer and have a :beer:

It may seem like Time does not heal but it will help scar the wound over.

 

[KeyserSoze]

Hey dude, I'll give you a call in soon. (I'm in Atlanta right now.)

I had no idea you had this going on.





KS

 

[moshquerade]

Originally posted by: Darkstar757

Originally posted by: Aimster
My girlfriend of 3 years left me 2 weeks ago. (we got on and off on and off for 2 months). I met her new boyfriend and everything.

It was the worst time of my life and still is. I still wake up today with a sick feeling inside of my stomach as if someone died.

I lost my job because of all this drama and I have to take summer courses so I could graduate this summer because I had to drop all my classes.

I dont think you love yourself. You are not happy with who you are and when you had her (or any girl) she made you feel great. Someone loved you and that put a smile on your face. That's how I am.. I guess.

just hang in there. everything will be better.

You live in D.C?. What are you doing for the 4th?

i dont have any plans for the 4th and I I guess im not happy with myself because I cant seem to make anyone else happy. I do feel like someone died and my stomach is killing me.

have you eaten anything?