Dealing with being mediocre and unmotivated.

[Platypus]

I feel like that a lot. I'm actually very talented. I'm a good musician, cook, graphic artist, IT director, and writer, but I'm locked into boring, mundane, "it doesn't really matter to anyone at the end of the day" jobs. I feel like I should be doing something that will help change the world, but I don't have the resources to find those opportunities. Therefore, when I die I'll be another "Oh gee, another father of 2 with a standard house and a standard car with a standard income coming from a standard family...who cares."

What's the point, really.

At least you get to be a father and have a family. The grass is always greener.

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OP, you need to find a hobby that inspires you to be creative. Failure in school was never an option for me because I worked my ass off and paid my way through in order to escape the shithole wasteland where I came from. My motivation was getting away from that. It sounds like you've lived a pretty cush lifestyle from the way you describe it. If your heart isn't in the studies you chose, find something else to study that does capture your interest or get the hell out, the last thing the world needs is another mediocre engineer who doesn't put effort into anything.

If nothing brings you enjoyment, talk to a professional.

 

[RavenSEAL]

I feel like that a lot. I'm actually very talented. I'm a good musician, cook, graphic artist, IT director, and writer, but I'm locked into boring, mundane, "it doesn't really matter to anyone at the end of the day" jobs. I feel like I should be doing something that will help change the world, but I don't have the resources to find those opportunities. Therefore, when I die I'll be another "Oh gee, another father of 2 with a standard house and a standard car with a standard income coming from a standard family...who cares."

What's the point, really.

You have found the true dogma of life, now you must master a way to ignore it.

 

[Fritzo]

Sounds like the life you made for yourself.

Not really. It's the life that kind of just happened.

 

[OinkBoink]

http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/jtypes2.asp

Take this test and tell me what you get you might be focusing on the wrong things for your personalty.

I got mastermind (INTJ).

 

[SandEagle]

let me guess. your dad's giving you shit for getting a B. amirite?

you'll be fine though. you sound like a straight shooter. with upper management written all over.

 

[MayorOfAmerica]

They make pills for this shit, dude.

 

[busydude]

I am as mediocre as one can get.. I don't know what I'd be doing had my adviser refused to take me under his wing.

 

[Imp]

I almost flunked out after first year. Then I made years 2 through 4 about showing "them" that I wasn't too dumb to get an engineering degree. My end plan was to enlist in a rear echelon role - family did not approve one bit.

Never enlisted, 4 years later, I am finishing up a graduate degree. My reasons for enlisting flopped around from "duty" and "service", doing a shit job to prove myself to me, and mainly, to help people in shit countries with the backing of a huge army with money and guns guns guns.

Then, I realized what bullshit "duty and service" were (to me) when most wars are about some politician and his rich buddies following their bullshit beliefs, locals who don't want you there, etc. I'd still consider reserves, but just for the shit job, nothing-like-this experience, and somewhat helping people where you are wanted. If you go military, do it for the right reasons. You are "contractually obligated" to be there for a fixed amount of time once you make it out of bootcamp (or whatever your country's rules are). And the weapons training and camo aren't for fun.