no hair has fallen out that hasn't already been long gone

This has been a really rough morning for me. I came into work and will be here for a couple hours, but am quickly fading. My throat hurts. I just took 8 mg of dilaudin so lets see if it kicks in soon. Also have a headache that won't go away. I only got 5 hours of sleep last night (i went to bed late), so its my own fault. I think a good 6 hours of sleep today would do wonders for me and I plan on crashing when I get home. I'm still having trouble eating. I keep dropping weight and the feeding tube is going to happen when they weigh me today, I just know it. I don't know my options but I plan on telling them no and seeing what they say. I know its in my best interest, but I am just sick of the surgeries, however minor they are.
So I'm having a little slag pity party today. Sorry for being such a downer but I'm entitled to a few of these days I think.