Thank you for the analysis, Mr. Freud, but you're completely wrong about me. As usual
I don't deny my emotions. I know that they're there and I know what they can be used for. But unlike other Humans, just acting on instinct (emotions and desires) is impossible for me, for I've taught myself to use logic, which is a habbit you don't easily get rid of.
Ehehehehehe. My posts in this thread have been useless drivel until this one for the reason that I was feeling my old friend ennui creep up on me again. But this one is sincere (unless it's not. hehe). Elledan, let's get into what's behind all these words that make up your self. On a forum, it's so difficult to do since words do not determine mental states. Behaviors point to them but they too are inadequate for knowing and understanding. With that in mind, I admit that from a prima fascie glance, your responses are based on pure logic and reason; that much you seem to admit and perhaps even esteem but I think I'm guilty of using this to divine mental states, which is a big no no in my outlook.
Then you claim something like this and boy oh boy does my mind take a wild trip. You say that acting on instinct is impossible. I say that you have made this unlikely, probably by exercise and discipline. That does not mean it is impossible and I happen to think (as does apparently MB with his long-winded post) that you are going about it in a somewhat limited fashion. Erm... Oh yes, the whole isntinct thing. You don't deny your emotions directly. But what happens when you experience them? Likely, your mind immediately goes into thinking and analysis state, as is preferred by you out of habit. What happens when there is no logical progression and you just are, in yourself, being that in the emotional state and not experiencing logic, that is, not experiencing thought? And then even going so far as acting on it.
Habits are interesting things. As soon as you commit to one, you automatically restrict your full self and the full possibilities of your potential. In neurobio terms, myelination to speed up action potential and protect against perturbation and attentuation of signal/current, in vertebrate animals (recall invertebrates do not use myelin for this task), commits one to a path of developing this skill until it is the likely method taken in ANY situation.
The problem with this habit is that it will be a knee-jerk reaction to any sort of stimuli. This is not too bad as it provides a sort of pause between stimulus and response but it also prevents you from being in that mental state as say, a religion fanatic, or a mystic. You may claim that this is not desirable/illogical and I claim that this person has experiences and a certain existence and that I should experience the world from his/her perspective WHILE maintaining logic, in the form of wisdom.
So MB may have been wrong. And I may be as well. But knowing from observation, if you do experience emotion and if you do love, not in some abstract scientific way but if you love and are in the state of love (don't start with the whole seratonin stuff please, ignore your "logic") then you certainly don't show it. Your clear cut method of absolute abstraction and adherance to the de jure epistemic facts of the world around you certainly are great BUT that doesn't get to the de facto metaphysical backings which are really unavoidable, no matter how hard we try to avoid them. And in this, logic relies on itself. In this, one needs to use one's faculties completely. That is very difficult if the knee-jerk reaction is logic.
So what I'm trying to say is that you probably do feel emotion and may even enjoy it. But you sure as hell don't use it on these boards. That tends to make me think that it is in a state of decline from suppression and that it is in a state of atrophy. One day you may wake up and find that logic is not good enough. Do you want to spend much, much time to regain that which is lost and may be irrevokably lost because of developmental choices and that good 'ole myelination process?
I certainly think that one cannot feed on bread alone and that one should feel AND practice using the entirety of one's being and to experience many many sorts of people, even the ones who seem to be put off by sheer intellect and logic. Different genetic determinations produce different people. And to keep the 'ole ego down, one must be hit a few times to know what it means to be hurt and where no matter what you do, the cold logic just won't give a damn that you're in such pain that you cry out to have nobody answer. And nobody will answer if the knee-jerk reaction is so abnormal that is puts people off.
eh, I'm babbling. My intent was to say that I cannot know who you are but that your actions and words certainly do paint a picture and that picture ain't too pretty. Also, I happen to think that a mouth directly speaks of what's in ones being entirely. If all you have is this, then you are lamentably lost (I think). But you say you have much more, and yet you don't show it. Somethin don't add up here. See what I mean?
Cheers !
