Alright, at the beginning of the year, I was rocking in school. That has it's reason; my step-cousin, Jennie, graduated High School as the top of her class and got accepted into UW-Madison. I have no idea if you know what this school is but this school is one of the top 3 colleges in the U.S (please pardon my English, for it is very bad 
). I looked up to her as a friend and now seeing her make a success out of herself.. it makes me mad for some reason. I'm proud that she is making something of herself but I look at my situation and I am no where near the success that she has accomplished. I was barely getting straight A's (In my CAD class, I had a F; my German was a D; and my English was a C+) but I was well on my way to getting A's. I knew with that kind of commitment I had, I could get to the top. I lost that motivation now, I based all of my anger onto my step-cousin for being so smart and successful; that idea was a sponge, a sponge that ran dry.
I am now a Junior in school, coming up on the end of the year. I have 3 or 4 days left before the year ends and I want to leave my Junior year with a good mark. I have straight B's, an A, and an F in my CAD class. I know if I get my CAD class back up to an A, I can get put on honor roll. But Straight B's is not acceptable, it is a good grade but it is no where near the expectations I set for myself. Perhaps I am being too hard on myself but I know that such a goal (the goal of reaching A's) is in reach. I couldn't got for this before since I was a bad student in the beginning of the year but now I am ever closer to accomplishing a dream come true.
If I get straight A's on my report card, I would be happy but that is only step one of three that I need to go through. I want to be alright with some musical instruments and then maybe know the German language all together. Such things would be hard to accomplish but with time and effort, anything is possible.
Sorry, I went on a big tangent there. My real question was can anger make me motivated? Is anger the missing key of being smart? Does it depend on the situation? Does it depend on my state-of-mind?
Why I brought such a question is up is because I spent an hour after school today talking to my teacher, after school that is. She told me alot of things, she is a good person to talk to and since she goes to college, I can get some info out of her about college. She looked like a very boring person, and I was right! Well anyway, today she kind of opened up to me. It was something unexpected but cool because we have discussions on occupations and this fuels the fire to that. She told me she made herself angry and sad so that she could do her business, thats how she finished High School a year before senior year (I really don't even think that's possible. She skipped her senior year in High School?!). The prospect of her graduating before many others was a depressing fact to face; right now I am feeling it and it sucks! It makes me feel as though I am not trying hard enough, I don't think I'm giving the best of my abilities to school. I truly need to make school an obsession or else I might regret it for the rest of my life.
I need to make some tough calls here. Sorry I went a little off-topic (or completely off-topic) but I think you folks got my point. Thank you guys for reading my essay. Have a free cookie.
*I'll email it to you*
). I looked up to her as a friend and now seeing her make a success out of herself.. it makes me mad for some reason. I'm proud that she is making something of herself but I look at my situation and I am no where near the success that she has accomplished. I was barely getting straight A's (In my CAD class, I had a F; my German was a D; and my English was a C+) but I was well on my way to getting A's. I knew with that kind of commitment I had, I could get to the top. I lost that motivation now, I based all of my anger onto my step-cousin for being so smart and successful; that idea was a sponge, a sponge that ran dry.I am now a Junior in school, coming up on the end of the year. I have 3 or 4 days left before the year ends and I want to leave my Junior year with a good mark. I have straight B's, an A, and an F in my CAD class. I know if I get my CAD class back up to an A, I can get put on honor roll
. But Straight B's is not acceptable, it is a good grade but it is no where near the expectations I set for myself. Perhaps I am being too hard on myself but I know that such a goal (the goal of reaching A's) is in reach. I couldn't got for this before since I was a bad student in the beginning of the year but now I am ever closer to accomplishing a dream come true. If I get straight A's on my report card, I would be happy but that is only step one of three that I need to go through. I want to be alright with some musical instruments and then maybe know the German language all together. Such things would be hard to accomplish but with time and effort, anything is possible.
Sorry, I went on a big tangent there. My real question was can anger make me motivated? Is anger the missing key of being smart? Does it depend on the situation? Does it depend on my state-of-mind?
Why I brought such a question is up is because I spent an hour after school today talking to my teacher, after school that is. She told me alot of things, she is a good person to talk to and since she goes to college, I can get some info out of her about college. She looked like a very boring person, and I was right! Well anyway, today she kind of opened up to me. It was something unexpected but cool because we have discussions on occupations and this fuels the fire to that. She told me she made herself angry and sad so that she could do her business, thats how she finished High School a year before senior year (I really don't even think that's possible. She skipped her senior year in High School?!). The prospect of her graduating before many others was a depressing fact to face; right now I am feeling it and it sucks! It makes me feel as though I am not trying hard enough, I don't think I'm giving the best of my abilities to school. I truly need to make school an obsession or else I might regret it for the rest of my life.
I need to make some tough calls here. Sorry I went a little off-topic (or completely off-topic) but I think you folks got my point. Thank you guys for reading my essay. Have a free cookie
.*I'll email it to you*
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