Zysoclaplem
Diamond Member
My father fell and broke his neck about 4-5 days ago. The doctors thought that with 2 surgeries, his chance of recovery would be 50% or higher, so they went ahead with the first surgery on his spine, and it went well. They needed to do another surgery right away so his chance of getting better or not getting worse would be higher. Well he and his wife decided he was too tired to get the second surgery done. So today I was informed that he is in a coma, and they are going to pull the plug. He is basically going to die. The only thing keeping him alive is the ventilator.
My father and I were never close. He wasn't a good father. In fact he was a down right bastard.
I am not devistated. I am not hurting. I didn't want him to die, but I cannot find the emotion in me to cry. It does make me sad but not profoundly sad.
But he is my father. He realized recently what a bastard he was, and in his own way tried to make amends. But my sister is too stubborn, my brother too selfish. I was the closest to my father. We used to play EQ/EQ/DAoC and WoW together. It was the only father/son type anything we ever did. And now he is going to die. He told me over the phone the day he broke his neck that he loved me. He was saying goodbye. It's like he knew he was going to die even though the doctors said he would recover with surgery.
Should I be feeling worse. Will it hit later?
I have never had anyone die in my life. I know know how to deal with it.
Update: Well they are going to pull the plug. The doctor mentioned organ donation. They said they want to take his eyes. That's upsetting. I have no say in it but those are his eyes and no one should take them in my opinion. But the doctor said he is going to die whether they pull the plug or not. His potassium is going higher and higher and he would be dead within 2 days if they don't pull the plug. So they are going to load him up with morphine and remove everything and let him go....
My father and I were never close. He wasn't a good father. In fact he was a down right bastard.
I am not devistated. I am not hurting. I didn't want him to die, but I cannot find the emotion in me to cry. It does make me sad but not profoundly sad.
But he is my father. He realized recently what a bastard he was, and in his own way tried to make amends. But my sister is too stubborn, my brother too selfish. I was the closest to my father. We used to play EQ/EQ/DAoC and WoW together. It was the only father/son type anything we ever did. And now he is going to die. He told me over the phone the day he broke his neck that he loved me. He was saying goodbye. It's like he knew he was going to die even though the doctors said he would recover with surgery.
Should I be feeling worse. Will it hit later?
I have never had anyone die in my life. I know know how to deal with it.
Update: Well they are going to pull the plug. The doctor mentioned organ donation. They said they want to take his eyes. That's upsetting. I have no say in it but those are his eyes and no one should take them in my opinion. But the doctor said he is going to die whether they pull the plug or not. His potassium is going higher and higher and he would be dead within 2 days if they don't pull the plug. So they are going to load him up with morphine and remove everything and let him go....
