Sort of. Repasting what you said earlier:
I know what repasting something would be mean and I know what what you quoted that I sort of repasted but I don't know what you refer to that I previously posted that you are saying is basically a repaste. And regardless of whether I said something before or not that is similar, I don't recall anything you said that addresses the question of what you might suggest is causing me to do what you say I am doing. I did not reread everything I have said to you here to try to identify what you think I am repeating.
Specifically this: "what do you think I hear when someone dismisses all of this as unreal. I hear people demanding I give credit to the rationalizations produced by their self hate." When did that happen? Did Jaskalas dismiss everything you said as unreal? Did Jaskalas demand that you accept what they said? You started this thread with a set of propositions and observations. I assume you wanted to engage in conversation about it, otherwise why choose an open forum? But for some reason Jaskalas's post appears to have struck you as being directed AT you instead of in response to what you said. As far as hearing the comment as it was actually properly intended, we can run with what we believe the intention to have been, or we can ask for clarification if we're not sure. But misunderstanding the intent is not itself dismissive and discourteous, dismissing everything the person said and instead talking ABOUT the person as if they were an automaton is dismissive and discourteous.
Why is that dismissive? Is it not because you are not happy thinking of yourself as a robot? This is what I mean by having automatic unexamined assumptions that you are not conscious you have. I also refer to that as being a robot. You automatically and involuntarily assume that being a robot is a criticism and a fault for which you could be dismissed for having. To me this is ego pride. It insults the image you have of yourself, of how it is proper to view others.
I have tried to tell you this is an inevitable reaction I am profoundly aware will be people's reaction and why? I have been a robot most all of my life. I see it in myself everyday. I constantly fall asleep, fail to maintain awareness just of the present, wonder off into intellectualism and dreaming and because I am mercilessly self analytical. I told you my inability to pretend life was great cost me everything I held sacred including the delusion I have free will. I see a monster is me, a fireball of incandescent rage. I am why horror movies exist. There's a line from a One Eyed Jacks. 'you may be a one eyed jack around here, but I seen the other side of your face' I can't forget. I've seen the other side of my face. What happens with Beauty kisses that beast? Everywhere you look you will see truth that is hidden come forth as allegory. The enemy is a hydra with a thousand heads, none of which you can look at directly without turning to stone. This is why the Hero comes armed with a mirror for a shield to see the monster by reflection, and a sword to cut off the heads. Without a mirror all the intention to kill the dragon is totally useless because the dragon is always 180 degrees from where you thrust the sword. If you don't understand the function of a mirror the appearance of Cinderella will disturb your vanity. Only the seeker will not l flee from the horror seen there.
You can't solve the problem of self hate by self hating your self for self hate and turn that hatred outward onto the world. We do thin because we believe we are to blame, that blame is the moral thing to do, that if we can just blame enough we will change our ways.
I believe the answer lies in another direction. There is nobody to blame because the process of blame is built on the lie of free will. You can change if you want to. Nope, you can't change that way because that is the ego saying I am to blame and am now going to do better because it's the master of lies. When you have seen this you have come to the end of the line. You are completely trapped and effort to escape is what the bars consist of. The man on a cliff with a tiger above and below is in a state where grace may appear. He found a strawberry and it tasted so good. All blame is a projection of self blame. All who blame believe the other is no good because he will not change. All who blame are confessing to feeling no good. Blame is based in on the unconscious suppressed feeling one is worthless and that becoming aware of it would just confirm what we already believe is true. You can't stop blaming by will power. You can see that it is useless and self destructive and know that you would be free of you could forgive. You can withdraw egotistical self approval and see instead you are a fool. This increases personal humility which decreases arrogance and self certainty.
Jaskalas thinks that by taking arms against a sea of troubles he can end them, but he doesn't know who the enemy is. He needs to relax and be happy but he can't. But he would de emphasize the faith he has in his plans. I think he deserves to hear that. I believe I know him because he is me but I'm less interested in being sucked into my own insanity. Perhaps. I'm not feeling it's a contest.
I don't know why you responded the way you did in this case. I know it's not an isolated incident, you've responded to others in much the same vein. But I pulled out those quotes because you ascribed specific actions and intentions to the commenter, and indicated that this happens repeatedly. So my question is did Jaskalas really write what you ascribe to them? Are some people required to adopt and reference your framework in order to be addressed as conscious beings with conscious intentions?
We go way back. I see him as really stuck on a negative view of human nature that distorts his thinking and turns it toward violence as the proper solution to external threat. He does not see what I think is the deeper reality, that his fears are the creation of what he believes, a product of excessive thought and overly active imagination likely of traumatic origin. A common variation is jumping off of a bridge. It's all fixable if one is open to it. So many do so because they do not know there is a way out, that the answers they seek have always been within them, requiring only some sort of shock to set them in motion.