Thank you for taking the time to respond. I do talk about abuse and I do talk about pain. But surely then, if I assert the superiority of my strange twisted philosophy how can it be to prevent pain? The superiority of my knowledge surely must rest on my belief that I know what I am talking about better than you or others and what is the subject matter, pain and abuse?????? So how do you explain the fact that I claim to know more about pain and abuse than you do while avoiding it. If you were to reason a bit more cogently, in my opinion, you would have come to a different conclusion, that I know more about pain and abuse and self hate, etc., because I actually know them better than you do. And the only way I could have arrived at any real experience of those things would be by feeling and memory. In short, in order to know more than you about pain, I would have had to experience it more than you have consciously. What you cannot and will not see is that the path of pain is the path of healing and you are the one who hasn't felt it. You assume that what I know about me doesn't apply to you. Hehe, I used to think so too.
The same way anyone does, rationalization. You come up with an explanation for the pain that makes you feel better in some regard, without addressing said pain directly. Or perhaps it partially addresses the pain, and fills in the remaining gaps with rationalization (the most convincing lies are half-truths).
As for "the path of pain is the path of healing", that's a prime example. In some cases this is true, such as breaking a badly healed bone to straighten it, or attempting to change oneself psychologically, to conquer anxiety and such. But in other cases it is also false. Cutting oneself is one path of pain, and it leads to the body healing the cut from the moment the cut is made, but that does not make it healthy or productive. Quite the opposite, such habits are self-destructive by nature.
And what you know about yourself may or may not apply to me. There are no two people on this planet, not even identical twins, who share a perfectly identical existence or perfectly identical needs. Your system might work for you to some degree, but from what I've seen of it on these forums it is rather overcomplicated and fallacious, another sign of rationalization.
M: Did you but suffer you would not suffer....A saying reported to be of Jesus.
So you claim to not shy away from pain, presumably because you see it as the path of healing? See previous response.
A young child is certain that everyone else thinks the same way he does.
M: The truth is the truth. It can't be kept from those who deserve it and can't be given to those who don't.
All you have to do to open the door to the understandings I speak of is to feel what you really feel. The experience of the wool pulled from your eyes is quite amazing. I must have said I can't believe it a thousand times. I used to be just like you.
One other thing. Everything I know I was taught by a man with a big smile on his face who said he was 99.999% certain he had transcended his own self hate, that he remembered everything and relived all of it. I have no idea why I was so lucky as to have met him.
So again, thank your for your post. You just have no idea how wrong you are. I am a nobody and it makes me rich in ways you can't imagine. You can take nothing from nothing, but only if you are very lucky.
For one who claims to not be elitest, you talk of "deserving" the truth? So truth is a commodity that must be earned? A thing that provides stature of whatever form over others? Truth is truth, and it governs and affects all things whether they acknowledge it or not. It has no preference, and it is never "deserved" any more than those that acknowledge rain "deserve" rainfall. Granted those that acknowledge rain can benefit more by harnessing that knowledge, but they have not earned those benefits, they have merely made use of what was already there.
What I really feel is apparently rather different from what you really feel.
For being a nobody, you've concocted quite the convoluted belief system. It would appear that you haven't reduced, you've traded complications you couldn't deal with for complications that you could. You've gained, and have been continuously gaining for quite some time, as can be seen in your posting history.
I imagine the man who taught you was some form of either Taoist or Buddhist, as those are the two main philosophies that say honor and shame should both be avoided, as one is rooted in the other and both bind a person to purely manufactured, unnatural perceptions; but from what I've seen of your posts you've taken this one lesson and applied it to literally everything; using it as an explanation for literally everything. Or perhaps your mentor did and you adopted his way of thinking.
And so we go back to my earlier point that the most convincing lies are half-truths. Honor and shame should both be avoided IMHO, but that does not mean that everything human is born of honor and shame, or "self-hate" as you put it. Emotions are often independent of honor and shame (although they can be derived from them), and are completely natural. Conquering self-hate does not free you of them, only forceful suppression does that. Things that are forced will prosper for a time, and then fade to nothing.
This obsession and over-application of self-hate philosophy is further indicative of rationalization.
Simple fact is if I, or anyone else on this forum I'm aware of, followed your beliefs we would not be reducing or simplifying, we would be gaining and complexifying, as you routinely do. It would root our thoughts in unnatural, manufactured perceptions, as yours sadly are.
If you were a nobody, you would not continually harp on "Conservative brain defects", nor would you talk about "deserving" the truth. Both serve to reinforce an internal hierarchy that you have created. You were likely taught some form of "reduction brings enlightenment", attempted to "reduce", and when you perceived that you had reduced enough (likely through perceiving that you'd conquered honor and shame) you attempted lay claim on your "reward" of enlightenment. Just as you profess that claim in this very thread.
If your belief system is so truthful, so correct, then why do you do nothing but pontificate on the correctness of it? Why do you present cryptic, abstract arguments and responses? Even if they are your beliefs in their purist form, why do you not simplify it so as to lead others to your understanding over time? Assuming you were a college professor, and the rest of us were children that had barely learned addition, your posts are the equivalent of trying to teach us derivatives before we've mastered multiplication. Naturally the children will reject what they don't understand. The only explanations for such behavior is severe incompetence or an attempt to dazzle others with your own perceptions, so you can be the "honored" one.
But no one here is honoring you, except yourself. No one here is listening to you, except yourself. Your system is forced.