<< not sarcastic..not exageratting >>
Hey man, you've come to the right place if you need some people to talk to.
I turned 20 back in October. What did I do for my birthday? Nothing. I was severly depressed because a month before, my girlfriend and I split up and damn, I really thought I loved her. She had made all these plans to come celebrate with me. All I could concentrate on that day was how fsking miserable I felt and yeah, at that point I thought dying would be a better option.
Those thoughts eventually passed. Everyone goes through a lot of sh!t. Some of us choose not to talk about it and keep it to ourselves. Often times this is not the best route and keeping thoughts and emotions like these bottled up inside proves more self destructive than anything. If there's a reason in paticular that you're feeling like this, you need to take the initive and reach out. Seek help in any way you know how because suicide only proves one thing - that you are not in control of yourself.