I am nearly 22 years old, have 2 years of college education in Electrical Engineering, and have been out of school for 2 years. I left school because I didn't like my program of study, but had no idea what it was that I wanted to do instead. These past 2 years I've been working semi-meaningless jobs; computer help desk, contract IT work, and now UPS. I always think I'm going to get back to school eventually, but don't have a goal in mind to try to attain, so it feels like a waste to try to get a degree without knowing what it is I want to do. I had been a great student until my second year of college when I realized I wasn't doing something I enjoyed and without that dream job motivating me, I just didn't feel like doing all that work.
I've always felt more comfortable doing blue collar work as opposed to office jobs, but feel like I would be selling myself short if I didn't join the white collar workforce with the nice salary and company stock options etc. I've had thoughts in my head of living a different life, perfecting a skilled trade and being an electrician or mechanic.
Then about a month ago, my grandfather became very sick, and then passed away a weak ago. It's been a very emotional time, as I considered him as one of my idols. He was very respected in the community as a selfless man, and I realized just how many people he touched by the incredible number of people that came for the funeral services, and their incredible generosity. My grandfather was a retired chief of a local fire department where had worked for 30 years, the last 7 as chief. I'm finding that I want to be able to help people, just as he had done.
So now for the first time in almost 3 years, I have this drive to establish a career. I am thinking back to all the times I would run around as a kid with this fireman's hat with a light on top and pretend to be putting out fires. I feel like this is it, that I have found what it is that I want to do. Part of me however, is nagging me saying I should do something more, or that I'm selling myself short risking my life for less than I could make sitting in some office. I do feel that this very well may be what I was meant to do, but I can't say with 100% certainty that this isn't an emotional response to losing my grandfather.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for in responses to this, I jsut couldn't sleep as I was thinking about it so much. Thank you for reading
I've always felt more comfortable doing blue collar work as opposed to office jobs, but feel like I would be selling myself short if I didn't join the white collar workforce with the nice salary and company stock options etc. I've had thoughts in my head of living a different life, perfecting a skilled trade and being an electrician or mechanic.
Then about a month ago, my grandfather became very sick, and then passed away a weak ago. It's been a very emotional time, as I considered him as one of my idols. He was very respected in the community as a selfless man, and I realized just how many people he touched by the incredible number of people that came for the funeral services, and their incredible generosity. My grandfather was a retired chief of a local fire department where had worked for 30 years, the last 7 as chief. I'm finding that I want to be able to help people, just as he had done.
So now for the first time in almost 3 years, I have this drive to establish a career. I am thinking back to all the times I would run around as a kid with this fireman's hat with a light on top and pretend to be putting out fires. I feel like this is it, that I have found what it is that I want to do. Part of me however, is nagging me saying I should do something more, or that I'm selling myself short risking my life for less than I could make sitting in some office. I do feel that this very well may be what I was meant to do, but I can't say with 100% certainty that this isn't an emotional response to losing my grandfather.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for in responses to this, I jsut couldn't sleep as I was thinking about it so much. Thank you for reading
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