If you recall my little dilemma, my serious relaionship fell through for who knows what reason. Well I found the out from a friend of both of ours that was curious. It was something she was so ashamed to say, she couldn't even tell me, the one person that she had no problems with anything (and I do mean anything).
Well, as you all know, we were really serious, and there was times we did things of an...*ahem* intimate nature. There was times when (trying to keep this as work safe as possible) did the deed with the mouth. Every time we ever engaged in things like that, I always asked her if she was ok, if she was comfortable, etc...
Well last time she did it, she kind of cried, and said she felt like one of those dirty girls. I actually regretted it since she felt that way. Hugged the girl tight and I wasn't going to, honestly, let her do it again. And for those guys that say, "How can you say you don't mind ever doing it again" I say that there's more than one way to skin a cat. =0)
Well, she didn't know I regretted it and all of that, but that is (it honestly, truly is) the core reason for this mess we're both in now.
Personally, I'm not going to talk to her about it, because I wasn't supposed to know about this I found out. The friend asked her if she can ever talk to me about it; from what I've seen, it's really just a big maybe. So I'm not pushing it until she wants to talk. I don't know if that's best, as who knows what could happen during this period of non-talking, but I think it'll be respecting her privacy.
Besides, I heard straight from her mouth that she thinks about me all the time and misses me a lot still. =0)
Well, as you all know, we were really serious, and there was times we did things of an...*ahem* intimate nature. There was times when (trying to keep this as work safe as possible) did the deed with the mouth. Every time we ever engaged in things like that, I always asked her if she was ok, if she was comfortable, etc...
Well last time she did it, she kind of cried, and said she felt like one of those dirty girls. I actually regretted it since she felt that way. Hugged the girl tight and I wasn't going to, honestly, let her do it again. And for those guys that say, "How can you say you don't mind ever doing it again" I say that there's more than one way to skin a cat. =0)
Well, she didn't know I regretted it and all of that, but that is (it honestly, truly is) the core reason for this mess we're both in now.
Personally, I'm not going to talk to her about it, because I wasn't supposed to know about this I found out. The friend asked her if she can ever talk to me about it; from what I've seen, it's really just a big maybe. So I'm not pushing it until she wants to talk. I don't know if that's best, as who knows what could happen during this period of non-talking, but I think it'll be respecting her privacy.
Besides, I heard straight from her mouth that she thinks about me all the time and misses me a lot still. =0)
