I went to the grocery store today. it was a very sad time for me.
I love shopping or to put it more precisely, i love to go shopping for my family. to introduce new things to my wife and kids, to buy my family things that they like and enjoy.
unfortunately my wife and kids are away right now, they are gone for a month.
here's the thing, the question was asked earlier "If your S/O passed away, how long would you wait to date again?" and i gave a simple answer. the answer was no.
but i wanted to expand on that.
i am by nature a shallow person. before i met my wife, i never met anyone that i held close to my heart, for me out of mind out of sight was a reality. i made up for true intimacy by many many shallow relationships. casual, shallow, easy, out of sight out of mind.
thats how i am by nature. but when i met my wife, it was very different for me. i couldn't bear the tought of not being near her. it's been 10 years now since we met and this is the longest period we've been apart and it's been quite a revelation for me to realize JUST how hard it is for me to be separated from her. to be so completely dependent upon her.
I can't ever imagine meeting anyone else that i could allow to have that big a part of me. It frightens me, it frightens me that my wife is not just my lover but also my closest companion and closest friend.
I love shopping or to put it more precisely, i love to go shopping for my family. to introduce new things to my wife and kids, to buy my family things that they like and enjoy.
unfortunately my wife and kids are away right now, they are gone for a month.
here's the thing, the question was asked earlier "If your S/O passed away, how long would you wait to date again?" and i gave a simple answer. the answer was no.
but i wanted to expand on that.
i am by nature a shallow person. before i met my wife, i never met anyone that i held close to my heart, for me out of mind out of sight was a reality. i made up for true intimacy by many many shallow relationships. casual, shallow, easy, out of sight out of mind.
thats how i am by nature. but when i met my wife, it was very different for me. i couldn't bear the tought of not being near her. it's been 10 years now since we met and this is the longest period we've been apart and it's been quite a revelation for me to realize JUST how hard it is for me to be separated from her. to be so completely dependent upon her.
I can't ever imagine meeting anyone else that i could allow to have that big a part of me. It frightens me, it frightens me that my wife is not just my lover but also my closest companion and closest friend.
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