Playing a game in hardcore mode is not about being competitive or about being better than other people.
I loved diablo2 hardcore mode online.
Every time I have leave the main town, shivers go down my spine. I know that I may not come back to the warm little campfire and the company of deckard in this raining dark forest. But I must leave, I must fight to find out what is corrupting the forest.
Every time I see a non regular monster I get nervous. I run around him a couple of times, seeing what he will do. I try to hit him once from a far, see how much health he has. I come in for a quick fight, and he hits me. DEAR LORD HE HIT ME! RUN AWAY!!!
Check my health, that didn't seem so bad. Let's go in for the kill. In the fight he uses an attack I hadn't seen before. From the corner of my eye, I can see my health has taken a noticeable hit, and I panic. Adrenaline shoots through me. RUN AWAY MODE!!!!! The monster is now chasing me. But i have to temporarily stop to create a portal back to town!!! I do it fast.
I stop
(oh god the monster is catchig up)
I open the inventory
(he's coming right up to me now!!)
I open the town portal
(HE'S NEXT TO ME AND HE"S ABOUT TO ATTACK FOR THE LOVE OF GOD)
i step through the portal. GIANT SIGH OF RELIEF
40% hp!!!! In any other game I would have been happy with 40% hp, but in Diablo2 HC mode, this is not tolerable. I'm getting sloppy, and I'm nervous. My hand is shaking. I go back to town to calm down a little bit. The campfire is so inviting. I have a little chest with my personal belongings by the campfire. I browse through it. I realize every item in my chest is just another "thing", and that at any moment I could die in this game and all of those items will be gone, even the super unique ones i've been saving.
This does not relax me at all, but then I see something that does. My friend joins the server, he also had a hardcore character. A smile crosses my face when I realize I'm not alone in this rediculous game that I am volantarily playing. We both stand by the fire, chat about what part of the game we're about to go. We exchange some items we found for eachother. He shows me a rare rune we've been hoping to get. We both share our collection of runes and gems, either one of us can use them as we please. I show him a wand i found for him. He takes it and uses it. It satisfies me immensely that I have found something that could help him from dieing. We leave the village to go fight the monster together. Maybe together it won't be quite as scary.