- Dec 1, 2000
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So the girl that I was talking about here, here and elsewhere invited me to a day trip to a beach a few hours away from here.
I let her down easily but firmly so there was no room for movement: no. Why? Because I know the more I see her in the next three weeks, the harder it will be when I move 300 km away from her.
Luckily I had a heads up as a few of my friends told me about her plans. When she called I was ready. (She had tried to call earlier but I wasn't home.) I know that I'm one of the main reasons she was planning this, and I clearly sadden her on the phone.
My logical side tells me that I just did a good thing: I passed up what would've been one of the best days I've had in a long time in order to avoid making moving away from home that much harder. But I still feel like crap for doing that to her. She seems to think that packing in as much as possible is good, I think that spending as little time with her as possible right now will be best in the long run.
I know from past experience that just spending a few hours with her makes me want to not move to waterloo at all, and then makes me depressed for another few days. I just don't want to deal with a whole day. Am I making any sense?
I let her down easily but firmly so there was no room for movement: no. Why? Because I know the more I see her in the next three weeks, the harder it will be when I move 300 km away from her.
Luckily I had a heads up as a few of my friends told me about her plans. When she called I was ready. (She had tried to call earlier but I wasn't home.) I know that I'm one of the main reasons she was planning this, and I clearly sadden her on the phone.
My logical side tells me that I just did a good thing: I passed up what would've been one of the best days I've had in a long time in order to avoid making moving away from home that much harder. But I still feel like crap for doing that to her. She seems to think that packing in as much as possible is good, I think that spending as little time with her as possible right now will be best in the long run.
I know from past experience that just spending a few hours with her makes me want to not move to waterloo at all, and then makes me depressed for another few days. I just don't want to deal with a whole day. Am I making any sense?