Why do I even bother worrying?

[LuckyTaxi]

My uncle passed away this past weekend and they cremated his body today. It didn't hit me until 20 minutes into the viewing when I started sobbing endlessly. I noticed my five cousin sitting in the front staring at the open casket of their father and thoughts of me worrying everyday about my debt and future just erased from my mind for the entire day.

It makes you wonder how important family is and how all the problems you means nothing when you die. I know a lot of folks who live life one day at a time, and as for me, I worry too much about what's going to happen months from now. After today's funeral, i'm going to start living my life one day at a time. You won't know when your time will come, and worrying each day about something you have no control over isn't going to help.

I'm not good with funerals and I hate it, but I'm glad I went to this one. I havent seen my cousins like 5 years and the three boys didnt shed a tear, but I guess it's because they never really knew their father. I just felt very bad watching my cousin push the button for the flames to shoot up on her dad's coffin. 🙁

 

[HardcoreRobot]

people > money

sorry for your loss

 

[cherrytwist]

Living in the moment is hard for me, too.

I'm sorry for your loss.

 

[imported_JeReMY]

🙁

 

[LuckyTaxi]

Originally posted by: HardcoreRobot
people > money

sorry for your loss

very true. I never saw it that way cuz my family was never close. The uncle that passed away was very cool but he had this moments. As for my cousins, we grew up together only to see their lives fade for the worse when their mother left their now deceased father. I finished school and moved on to a good job while they struggle coping with the ordeals of not having a good education. Their life turned for the worst when the divorce happened.

 

[Kibbo]

That's exactly what funerals are for.