I definitely hate my job. IMHO the project coordination sux big time at my company, no one wants to do their parts of the work, I (and two of my colleagues) randomly get ridiculous assignmets that get cancelled, again randomly, a lot of effort goes to waste on a regular basis. Total lack of coordination and clear aims. With tremendous effort these constant mistakes can be corrected by the three of us of course, but it's always like extinguishing fire. As we always manage to avoid disaster, this problem in leadership never recognized by the GM. Okay, I always get maximum score when it comes to PM but it's still utter frustration. I couldn't even come up with a prog language I haven't used: c++, delphi, c#, vfp, vb, flash, java, jscript, perl, php, asp/net etc, numerous report scripters/ postscript code /other scripters/dunno scripters and whatnot. Jack of all trades, master of none. Constantly battling with my confusion when I time to time mistakenly use syntaxes at the wrong places. And all because WHILE I'M ACTUALL DOING ONE JOB colleagues come and ask me to do ridiculous little things like to answer phones cause they don't know what to say to the clients, write ****** little progs to solve stupid little tasks, then they ask me to write a SMALL LITTLE PROG that can gather info from the web (as my boss tells me all the time: it's two IFs), then they ask me to modify UNDOCUMENTED code with variables like: "a=2;yz=-6" written by guys who left the company like five years ago and the prog doesn't even have a SINGLE LINE of documentation, not one. I'm frustrated, yes I'm frustrated beyond repair: arghhh...
And on the top of all this: international communication between the departments sucks big time. Okay, it's my fault that I don't speak german (heck, I'm even having serious problems with english) but it's ridiculous when the german colleagues send mails that contain ARTIFICIAL translations (done by translation program) of their original messages written in german. Don't even mention the french dept. Then the UK, hehe, when we phone each other: that undecipherable UKish dialect on the other end of the line (ok, my fault, I'm not a master of langs, it's really a shortcoming on my side). But heck, I always watch US movies, so I can't help it. Tried to watch "LIFE ON MARS" and had to put it aside cause I didn't understand half of it. Strangely enough I didn't have the same problem with Voyager, X-Files etc. Anyway... At least the Israelis speak clearly. Ah, heck, once I had a discussion with a Dutch guy -------> MY GODNESS. Okay, I suck, I should study langs but I simply don't have the time anymore. They really should hire someone with perfect knowledge of english/german and maybe a little french and let him do the the whole communication part.
Sometimes, even now, I feel a tingling in my head, as if some cloud descended on me. I seriously think that I have some illness.
I'm the definition of F R U S T R A T I O N