funboy6942
Lifer
- Nov 13, 2001
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I have often ponder upon this for I have asked myself if there is a God and he is so wonderful and caring why is it then:
You follow his rules or he punishes you.
He/it supposedly takes away the people you love, you care for that is your family or friends and makes them suffer a cruel and painful death, taking a loved one or 2 or hell in my case everyone I ever cared about leaving me family less other then 2 brothers at a young age all because HE/IT wants them for some other purpose. But puts me, my brothers, and my parents and grandparents through hell killing them and taking them away from us at such young ages when we need parental guidance, or fvck that we need our parents to be part of our lives and have a glimmer hope of a normal childhood.
How can one be so selfish in needing to take and hurt so many people and leaving them to fend for themselves as such a young age? I lost my last parent when I was 20, my younger brother was 17, that means by the time he was 17, not out of high school for him, GOD, took away both our parents and our grandparents and left us with NO one for we didnt have anyone of our mother side for she ran away from her home at her age of 16, and everyone on my stepfathers side (my younger brothers real father) wanted nothing to do with us because our father left them and we were outcasts on his side of the family, so when he died my younger brother and I had NO ONE and fvcking GOD, if there is one, knew this and supposed to be so knowing and godlike and loving in all ways fvcked my brother and I. What Kind of GOD does that?
If you ask me I think it reversed, god is the bad guy and the "devil" is the good. Hell the devil all you hear is you give him your soul and he hooks you up with good sh1t to happen to you, god on the other hand fvcks with you like your his fvcking puppet to kick around and if you dont do what his says to do then he will hurt you, and I have yet to have anything happen in my life to show me GOD is this all nice oh praise me and all your prayers will be answered, so far all I got was the shaft since day one, and since being married have brought my wife and kids down with me.
Anyone I have ever met that has been so in touch with "GOD" and gone to church has been liars and cheats un fvcking real, how can one who says god this and that who is a slut or lies and steals, or fvcks your children can set food on the door way of "god"'s church without bursting into flames in beyond me. And I have yet to meet one person who didnt approach me and say "oh Jason all you need is god and Jesus in your life" do this and that, and then see what they are like out side the church and go "And your in with God and you your doing that, stealing that, fvcking that, cheating on that?" Makes me want to jump on the Jesus bus!
But all I can say is if there is a God or ever was a Jesus I am living prove then that Im its bitch and punching bag I have been fvcked my entire life and nothing screams out and says some supernatural being loves me. No god IMO would put what I have been put through or my family has been put through if one truly does exist.
You follow his rules or he punishes you.
He/it supposedly takes away the people you love, you care for that is your family or friends and makes them suffer a cruel and painful death, taking a loved one or 2 or hell in my case everyone I ever cared about leaving me family less other then 2 brothers at a young age all because HE/IT wants them for some other purpose. But puts me, my brothers, and my parents and grandparents through hell killing them and taking them away from us at such young ages when we need parental guidance, or fvck that we need our parents to be part of our lives and have a glimmer hope of a normal childhood.
How can one be so selfish in needing to take and hurt so many people and leaving them to fend for themselves as such a young age? I lost my last parent when I was 20, my younger brother was 17, that means by the time he was 17, not out of high school for him, GOD, took away both our parents and our grandparents and left us with NO one for we didnt have anyone of our mother side for she ran away from her home at her age of 16, and everyone on my stepfathers side (my younger brothers real father) wanted nothing to do with us because our father left them and we were outcasts on his side of the family, so when he died my younger brother and I had NO ONE and fvcking GOD, if there is one, knew this and supposed to be so knowing and godlike and loving in all ways fvcked my brother and I. What Kind of GOD does that?
If you ask me I think it reversed, god is the bad guy and the "devil" is the good. Hell the devil all you hear is you give him your soul and he hooks you up with good sh1t to happen to you, god on the other hand fvcks with you like your his fvcking puppet to kick around and if you dont do what his says to do then he will hurt you, and I have yet to have anything happen in my life to show me GOD is this all nice oh praise me and all your prayers will be answered, so far all I got was the shaft since day one, and since being married have brought my wife and kids down with me.
Anyone I have ever met that has been so in touch with "GOD" and gone to church has been liars and cheats un fvcking real, how can one who says god this and that who is a slut or lies and steals, or fvcks your children can set food on the door way of "god"'s church without bursting into flames in beyond me. And I have yet to meet one person who didnt approach me and say "oh Jason all you need is god and Jesus in your life" do this and that, and then see what they are like out side the church and go "And your in with God and you your doing that, stealing that, fvcking that, cheating on that?" Makes me want to jump on the Jesus bus!
But all I can say is if there is a God or ever was a Jesus I am living prove then that Im its bitch and punching bag I have been fvcked my entire life and nothing screams out and says some supernatural being loves me. No god IMO would put what I have been put through or my family has been put through if one truly does exist.
