My new tenure-track digs include a large office in a historic building with leaded-pane windows, sills deep enough to stack files on, and shelves on three walls filled with my own books, departmental gems, and junk from years past.
All the signs point to it: I'm finally a bona-fide member of academe.
Yet I'm gradually coming to realize that my membership card should read "in but not of" -- something the 2004 presidential election set in stark relief. Maybe I should have seen it coming all along.
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You see, I am a Republican. And strive though I may to conform, to be in the academic in-group, I cannot.
My political leanings posed a special challenge during faculty job interviews. With ample practice over the years -- and after several naïve attempts to present myself as an enlightened conservative ended in rejection letters -- I finally mastered the art of the unnoticed evasion. At the mere mention of politics, I would smile knowingly, roll my eyes, maybe grimace for good measure, and then return to an earlier thread in the conversation. If you can use "speaking of which" to make the segue, all the better.
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As if to confirm that I was indeed just being paranoid, I sat through 50 minutes of my first faculty meeting on the campus with nary a mention of politics. I must have read the parking lot wrong, I thought. Then, in the final few minutes of the meeting, a senior faculty member arose to make an announcement: A faculty panel would discuss the impact of September 11 on the United States, with the dean of the college offering summary remarks.
There was no hint of a leftward lean -- until, that is, the senior faculty member added, "And just in case the students don't get our message on how to vote in November, we have arranged for a showing of Fahrenheit 9/11 directly after the panel."
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After class, I asked one of the students for his read on what had happened. How could the response be so heated but the question left unengaged? He replied: "You know how it is. Students don't want to disagree with their professors. Most of the students around here are pretty conservative, but they get the strong sense that their professors are liberal. And on issues like these, they're afraid to disagree." They had made assumptions about how I would think and were reluctant to contradict me.