Well, I'm no fumbling idiot, but I'm not "the conversationalist" either. Of course I am not going to talk about some computer jargon to some girl who knows nothing about computers. If she was a total geek, maybe! It's like talking about animals to someone who's obsessed with nothing but .. I dunno, cars or something.
Well, now (we'll call her) Jess wants to be friends again, after ~1 month of near ignoring. She claims to be sorry about all of it, and that she was starting to miss me, and she felt bad about what she did (I don't know what that is though?). Whatever, I think. I had already assumed the worse and considered her lost, I had had enough with being depressed and stuff over someone who wasn't more than a friend and couldn't be. So I decided to clear my mind of it so I could be at peace. It worked surprisingly well and I felt much better. But a few times throughout the period of "ignoring" phase, I talked to her or had some kind of contact with her briefly, which just resurfaced old feelings.
But finally she's "came back". I had told her that she could just come back and be friends whenever she wanted, and that I understood (I still am unsure of whether that was true or not) about the whole situation. Apparently her BF just doesn't want to hear about me (because apparently she was talking about me a lot). So that's ifne ..
now she wants to go to a movie or something with friends (me included). I just find it too weird .. I don't know why, if it's just me or whatever.. But I really really liked her, and I she hurt me quite a bit, and now it seems like she's just flicking a switch back on. But I did say she could come back to me whenever she wanted ... but like, right away, lets go to a movie? goddammit..
well I dunno.