Big difference Red. I gamble with my own money that I earned. In this sense I am responsible for my own destiny and suffer the consequences of my own decisions.
My money, I get to decide what to do with it and I only gamble what I can afford to lose. Someday you as well can have integrity and personal responsibility, which you once had. But you turned, and I can't tell exactly when that happened or why, but you lost it.
ps - I am a somewhat serious handicapper on ponies, so this is a drop in the bucket. I went for the longshot based on emotion, word on the track and not analyzing past performances and lost.