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so i goggle the phrase and this is one of the first findings....from webmd...
Soo... we've been together for seven months now.
I understand that with time, relationships sometimes can loose that excitment as you get used to eachother. I've been in two relationships before and it happened before as well However, this time is a lot different.
Usually, the intimacy fades a little, but I never just want to stop completely. But it's like that now. I just flat out do not want to have sex anymore. My libido is shot. I can still masturbate, but even that is just... not fun. It's more like I -need- to do it every now and then for stress release, not that I want to. I can't bring myself to try new things or initiate anything. i just don't want to anymore and it's driving me crazy. I used to love sex. I loved the intimacy. But now it's like... I don't want to. I dont even get riled from watching porn like I used to. And it's driving my boyfriend crazy because he's horny no matter what, and it only takes like ten seconds for him to get in the mood. He'll even get mad after so long without it, and then I feel bad cause I'd love to, I just really don't want to. When I finally just force myself to do it, it sucks. I pretty much just lay there, uninterested, though trying.
And what doesn't help is the last time before yesterday, I was actually for once, in the mood and it was going good. Hot intimate, spontaneous, but then he got carried away when we switched positions and I got surprise butt sex. And it hurt like hell. It ripped the sphincter and bled, I went into shock, nearly puked and hyperventilated. And now I never want to do that position again when it's my favorite D: Cause I'm afraid it'll happen again and it hurt so bad. I could barely even sit down for three days.
I just don't know what to do right now. I want my libido back. It's never been this dead before in my life. I'm not under a lot of stress, either. I also want to know how to get over the fear of doing that position again.